Reality Check
Abandoning Sunday Lyrics
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Where I fell is where hope gave and it's all gone and I'm all wrong again.
All the while they had me so convinced
That all the trying was somehow worth it.
This denial that I've been drowning in
Had me believe I don't deserve this.
To find what they call home.
And I've been terrified to think
I might still end up all alone.
Neither what is wrong or I think is right for now
Can make up for this. I can't handle it.
And when redemption feels so far out of reach,
It seems hopeless and I'm sure it is.
And all the while I had them so convinced
That I was trying and somehow meant it.
And this denial that I've been drowning in
Had me believe that I was innocent.
I've been struggling for years
To find that they call home.
And I've been terrified to think
I might still end up all alone.
I have made a mockery of all these things that I believe.
And I have lost my faith in all the things I knew when I was young.
And I have been so out of line. It's no one else's fault but mine.
I will take the blame for this if I could learn to just forgive.
I've been struggling for years
To find what theycall home.
And I've been terrified to think
I might still end up all alone.
I've been struggling for years
To find what they call home.
And I've been terrified to think
I might still endup all alone.
The song "Reality Check" by Abandoning Sunday is a heartfelt and contemplative piece that explores the feeling of being lost and struggling to find one's place in the world. The lyrics paint a picture of a person who is torn between heaven and hell, unsure of where they belong. They describe feeling hopeless and helpless, drowning in denial and unable to find redemption. The theme of struggling to find a home is a recurring one, with the singer admitting to being terrified of ending up all alone.
The verses speak about the pressure the world puts on us to succeed, to "try" and "make it" in life. The singer admits to being convinced by these notions and denying their own worth, believing they don't deserve the things they desire. This denial entraps them even further, making them feel like they are drowning. They are convinced that their inability to find their place in life is a reflection of their own shortcomings.
The chorus repeats the idea of struggling to find a home and being scared of being alone. The final verse pivots and speaks about the guilt the singer feels for losing faith in the things they believed when they were younger. They've made mistakes but are willing to take the blame for it if only they could learn to forgive themselves.
Overall, the song is a moving exploration of loneliness, loss, and the struggle to find oneself in a world that often feels overwhelming.
Line by Line Meaning
Neither heaven or hell will take me now ‘cause I'm so lost for so long.
I feel like I don't belong in either heaven or hell because I've been lost and confused for a long time.
Where I fell is where hope gave and it's all gone and I'm all wrong again.
I feel like I lost hope and everything that gave me hope, and now I feel completely wrong.
All the while they had me so convinced
That all the trying was somehow worth it.
Other people convinced me that all the struggling and effort I put in was worth it.
This denial that I've been drowning in
Had me believe I don't deserve this.
I've been denying my problems and feeling like I don't deserve happiness or anything good.
I've been struggling for years
To find what they call home.
I've been searching for years to find a place or feeling that feels like home to me.
And I've been terrified to think
I might still end up all alone.
The thought of being alone scares me and I worry that I might end up that way.
Neither what is wrong or I think is right for now
Can make up for this. I can't handle it.
Nothing seems to make sense right now and I can't handle the situation I'm in.
And when redemption feels so far out of reach,
It seems hopeless and I'm sure it is.
I feel like it's hopeless to even try to redeem myself because it seems impossible.
And all the while I had them so convinced
That I was trying and somehow meant it.
Other people thought I was really trying and putting effort in, but I feel like I wasn't.
Had me believe that I was innocent.
I believed that I was innocent and hadn't done anything wrong.
I have made a mockery of all these things that I believe.
I've acted in a way that contradicts all the beliefs and values I hold.
And I have lost my faith in all the things I knew when I was young.
I've lost faith in everything that I believed in when I was younger.
And I have been so out of line. It's no one else's fault but mine.
I've acted in a way that is not acceptable and it's my own fault.
I will take the blame for this if I could learn to just forgive.
I'm willing to take responsibility for my actions and work on forgiving myself.
I've been struggling for years
To find what they call home.
I've been on a long journey to find a place or feeling that feels like home to me.
And I've been terrified to think
I might still end up all alone.
The thought of ending up alone still scares me and weighs heavily on my mind.
Contributed by Jordan L. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
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Neither heaven or hell will take me now ‘cause I'm so lost for so long.
Where I fell is where hope gave and it's all gone and I'm all wrong again.
All the while they had me so convinced
That all the trying was somehow worth it.
This denial that I've been drowning in
Had me believe I don't deserve this.
I've been struggling for years
To find what they call home.
And I've been terrified to think
I might still end up all alone.
Neither what is wrong or I think is right for now
Can make up for this. I can't handle it.
And when redemption feels so far out of reach,
It seems hopeless and I'm sure it is.
And all the while I had them so convinced
That I was trying and somehow meant it.
And this denial that I've been drowning in
Had me believe that I was innocent.
I've been struggling for years
To find that they call home.
And I've been terrified to think
I might still end up all alone.
I have made a mockery of all these things that I believe.
And I have lost my faith in all the things I knew when I was young.
And I have been so out of line. It's no one else's fault but mine.
I will take the blame for this if I could learn to just forgive.
SISYPHUS
I just want to say thank you. Thank you for making all these beautiful songs which are always there for me :)
scarsys
Most and best underrated artist ive seen yet. Keep going Michael!
Izzatina Azamri
I remember loving this song back in 2013 damn time flies🙏🏼 the feels damn
GLEAM ™
Your voice is so beautiful in this song and most songs, and you speak to my heart <3 When my soul hurts I go back to these perfect songs.
Ben Anderson
This song brings so many feelings and memories. Thank you so much for creating this masterpiece. This song means so much to my middle school years.
flood illcams
you got some amazing talent keep it up I love it
begu88
Love it, any one figured out the chords yet?
No WhiteLighters
Thank you abandoning, you have an acoustic version song for whatever mood I'm in,
THOMHAWK
Pretty pumped for this stuff to drop on iTunes
xWhiffx
New favorite song great voice man