Rodger - Guitars.
Steve - Vocals, Guitars.
Juston - Lead Vocals.
Walt - Bass.
Craig - Drums.
State of Mind
Absolution Project Lyrics
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If it’s a byproduct of memories or pride
Communicate the symptoms, or should I even try
Maybe it’s all just my state of mind
This never ending moment just never seems to die
But this is when I realize
That it’s so typical of the way that I feel
Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away
Just give me something real that I can hold onto
So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I never want to
Just a simple gesture meant to signify
The will I’ve fought so hard to keep alive
Another complication but I won’t question why
My best attempts cannot control my own demise
Why do I strive to make you, as dead as I feel
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way
Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away
Just give me something real that I can hold onto
So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I never meant to hurt you despite all your surprise
But I locked you up with everything
I tried but couldn’t find
You never meant to scar me from what I could surmise
But my superficial wounds are scabbed
With the words that you’ve advised
And in this mass confusion you’ve rendered me unkind
And only sacrificial crucifixion can
Justify the crime
Now life looks better through your eyes
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way
Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away
Just give me something real that I can hold onto
So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I never want to
The lyrics of "State of Mind" by Absolution Project explore the complexity of the singer's emotional state. They describe a never-ending nightmare that the singer cannot determine whether it stems from their past experiences or their pride. They contemplate whether to communicate their symptoms or not, and wonder if their state of mind is solely their own doing. The singer highlights the typical feeling of their emotional turmoil, which seems to persist despite their best efforts to control it. The second verse expresses a desire for something real and tangible to hold onto so that they can escape the negative emotions that they never want to feel.
The third verse introduces a relationship element, as the singer implies that they have hurt someone they care about. They feel guilty for "locking them up" and "scar[ing] them," but cannot escape the superficial wounds inflicted upon them by the person's words. The final line is somewhat cryptic, as the singer suggests that only sacrificial crucifixion can justify the crime, leaving open the interpretation of who committed the wrongdoing. The song ends on a slightly hopeful note, as the singer looks at life through the eyes of the person they hurt.
Line by Line Meaning
A never ending nightmare but I cannot decide
I feel trapped in a recurring bad dream, but I'm unsure if it's because of my memories or my pride causing it.
If it's a byproduct of memories or pride
My bad dream might be because of my past memories or my ego.
Communicate the symptoms, or should I even try
Should I even bother explaining how I feel or just keep it to myself?
Maybe it's all just my state of mind
Perhaps my negative thoughts and emotions are all in my head.
This never ending moment just never seems to die
This bad dream or feeling keeps haunting me and feels never-ending.
But this is when I realize
I come to the understanding or epiphany that
That it's so typical of the way that I feel
This is a common pattern or behavior from me.
Why is it such a mystery that I still feel this way
I question why it's a mystery or unknown as to why I still feel this negative emotion.
Holding this final piece of me, watch as it fades away
I'm holding onto a last part of myself, but it's slipping away from me.
Just give me something real that I can hold onto
I wish someone could give me something tangible or genuine to cling onto.
So I don’t have to feel the way I never want to
I want to avoid or prevent feeling this negative emotion I never wanted in the first place.
Just a simple gesture meant to signify
A small act or indication that represents or symbolizes
The will I've fought so hard to keep alive
The determination or drive I've struggled to maintain and sustain.
Another complication but I won't question why
Another obstacle or difficulty, but I won't ask why it's happening.
My best attempts cannot control my own demise
My efforts are insufficient in stopping my own downfall or failure.
Why do I strive to make you, as dead as I feel
Why do I try to bring you down to my level of misery or hopelessness?
I never meant to hurt you despite all your surprise
I didn't intend to harm you, even though it might have been unexpected for you.
But I locked you up with everything I tried but couldn't find
I unintentionally trapped you with all my unresolved issues and lack of solutions.
You never meant to scar me from what I could surmise
I assume you didn't intend to emotionally hurt me, based on what I can gather.
But my superficial wounds are scabbed with the words that you've advised
The advice or words you gave me, although well-intentioned, left marks on me that still hurt.
And in this mass confusion you've rendered me unkind
In this chaotic state, you've made me bitter or hostile.
And only sacrificial crucifixion can justify the crime
Only a significant sacrifice or atonement can make up for the wrongdoing or offense committed.
Now life looks better through your eyes
After going through all the struggles, life looks brighter or more hopeful when seeing it from your perspective.
I never want to
I never want to feel this negative emotion or experience this pain again.
Contributed by Brody G. Suggest a correction in the comments below.