Her Painful Dreams of Suicide
Abyssaria Lyrics


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Every night she dreams the same
Haunted by a shadow again and again
Captured and lost in a giant mace
There is no way to flee

She begs not to fall asleep
And she prays to god to set her free
She is so afraid to see
The shadow she fears is me

You think you're living
I know you're dead
I am the madman in your head

Did you not know
You don't live twice
I am the secret behind your eyes

Do you wanna hold on crying
for the rest of your life?
Everyday seems to be the same
Quitting this life stops the dying
There is nothing left to win

After endless nightmares she lies weeping in her bed
A blade in her hand, her nightdress is turning red




Her skin becomes paler in this cold and stormy night
This is the end of all her painful dreams of suicide

Overall Meaning

In Abyssaria's song "Her Painful Dreams of Suicide," the lyrics describe the constant struggle and torment of an individual who dreams the same terrifying nightmare every night. The individual is haunted by a dark figure and feels trapped, unable to escape. In a desperate attempt to avoid the nightmares, she begs not to fall asleep and prays for liberation. The lyrics suggest that the figure the individual fears is, in fact, the person singing the song, stating "The shadow she fears is me."


Additionally, the lyrics offer a perspective of a madman, who is the voice singing the song. The madman is aware of the individual's hopelessness and reminds her that she is already dead, indicating that she has no other choice but to face the nightmare. The song concludes with the woman taking her own life, choosing to end the cycle of her painful dreams of suicide.


This song addresses the complex topics of mental illness and suicide, while also exploring the themes of power, control, and fear. It illustrates how the constant struggle with mental illness can be exhausting and inescapable. Overall, the lyrics are a reflection of how one individual's experience with mental illness may be misunderstood or minimized by others.


Line by Line Meaning

Every night she dreams the same
She frequently has a recurring nightmare


Haunted by a shadow again and again
She is tormented by a shadow that keeps appearing in her dream


Captured and lost in a giant mace
She feels trapped and helpless in her dream


There is no way to flee
She cannot escape from her dream


She begs not to fall asleep
She pleads to avoid sleeping


And she prays to god to set her free
She prays to be liberated from her nightmare


She is so afraid to see
She's scared to see


The shadow she fears is me
She's frightened that the shadow is herself


You think you're living
You believe you're alive


I know you're dead
I know you're not really alive


I am the madman in your head
I'm the crazy person in your mind


Did you not know
Didn't you know


You don't live twice
You only live once


I am the secret behind your eyes
I am the hidden truth behind what you see


Do you wanna hold on crying
Do you want to keep crying


for the rest of your life?
for the remainder of your lifespan?


Everyday seems to be the same
Every day feels indistinguishable


Quitting this life stops the dying
Ending this life will end the suffering


There is nothing left to win
There's nothing more to gain


After endless nightmares she lies weeping in her bed
Having experienced countless bad dreams, she lies in her bed crying


A blade in her hand, her nightdress is turning red
She holds a razor, bleeding as her nightdress turns red


Her skin becomes paler in this cold and stormy night
Her complexion pales in this frigid and tempestuous night


This is the end of all her painful dreams of suicide
This marks the conclusion of all her agonizing dreams of suicide




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batool asender

One of my favorite songs since i was little 💗 still get chills

Keith Stanley

Been in love with song since 2007 and still can't get enough

batool asender

3 years after..still inlove with this song <3 thank you Abyssaria

Keith Stanley

Please never delete this video. It's pretty much the only place I can find this song, and it's a masterpiece

Alexo Nox

Por el amor de los dioses o su madre!! subanlo que me muero por tener sus 2 albunes por favor, que alguien lo suba tema por tema si quiere a la nube y me pase los links o en un rar en algun server si no saben le explico como subirlo pero quiero los album porfa!!!!!!! post it I'm dying to have their 2 albums please someone upload it issue by issue if you want to the cloud and pass me the link or a zip in any server if you do not know but I want to explain how to upload the album please!! !!

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