connecticut
Adair Lyrics


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long days and drunken nights haunted by
brown eyes that stare right through me.
so close I can feel your breath upon my lips.
most snipers kill from far away.

I've been waiting here for so long.
my body's broken and I'm tasting blood.
I'm shaking. hold me. hold me.
my sickness waits for no one.
an airport full of people mocking me.
this drug will wipe it all away.

I've been waiting here for so long.
my body's broken and I'm tasting blood.
when everything's said and done, know that I never could hate you
for everything that we've been through.

it's winter and another year
my hair is falling out again.
I'm praying for an accident
to take me away from all of this
it's over.





it's over...

Overall Meaning

The song "Connecticut" by Adair is a deeply emotional and introspective piece about the struggles of addiction and mental illness. The opening lyrics set a bleak tone, describing the singer's long and difficult journey. The haunted feeling of the days and drunken nights can be interpreted as a metaphor for the overwhelming fog of depression.


The lyrics then shift to a more intimate and personal level, as the singer describes their yearning for connection and love. The line "so close I can feel your breath upon my lips" suggests a longing for human connection, something which often feels out of reach when dealing with addiction and mental illness.


The chorus repeats the phrase "I've been waiting here for so long, my body's broken and I'm tasting blood". These lines seem to capture the desperation and hopelessness that can accompany addiction and mental illness. The singer is trapped in a cycle of struggle and pain, and is unable to break free.


As the song progresses, the singer's inner turmoil becomes more pronounced. The line "my sickness waits for no one" hints at the relentlessness of addiction. The airport full of people mocking the singer further highlights the feelings of isolation and loneliness that frequently go hand-in-hand with addiction and mental illness.


The final lines of the song's chorus, "know that I never could hate you for everything that we've been through", are particularly poignant. This suggests that the singer has been unable to maintain relationships due to their struggles. They have been hurt by those they love, but they still hold them in high regard.


Overall, "Connecticut" is a deeply emotional song that tackles the difficult topics of addiction and mental illness. It offers a window into the pain and torment experienced by those who are suffering, and highlights the importance of empathy and understanding.


Line by Line Meaning

long days and drunken nights haunted by brown eyes that stare right through me.
I am tormented by the memories of long, endless days and debauched nights, always accompanied by your piercing gaze that seems to penetrate through my very soul.


so close I can feel your breath upon my lips. most snipers kill from far away.
You are so close to me that I can feel your warm breath on my lips. It's ironic because, in most combat scenarios, snipers typically attack their targets from a safe distance.


I've been waiting here for so long. my body's broken and I'm tasting blood.
I have been waiting for you for an extended period, and my body is now physically and emotionally broken, which is causing me to taste blood in my mouth.


I'm shaking. hold me. hold me. my sickness waits for no one.
I am trembling, and I need you to hold me to give me comfort. My disease is relentless and shows no mercy, and I cannot afford to wait for anyone or anything to help me.


an airport full of people mocking me. this drug will wipe it all away.
I am surrounded by a crowd of people who are ridiculing me in the airport. I am using drugs to escape from the harsh reality and troubles of life.


when everything's said and done, know that I never could hate you for everything that we've been through.
Regardless of what happens, I will never be able to hate you for all that we have experienced together.


it's winter and another year. my hair is falling out again.
Another year has passed, and it's winter again. I am losing my hair again, which could be due to my disease or other stress factors.


I'm praying for an accident to take me away from all of this. it's over.
I am asking for a tragedy, an event that can swiftly take me away from all of this. At this point, everything in my life feels as if it is ending.




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