Ashes
Adamus Exul Lyrics


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Sick, black despair, a depression monologue
Black storm weather, crippling mental fog
On forges descent, through bleakest sorrow
Deeper she went...

As darkness is, cloud mental disruption
Cold feeling overcome
Only for a moment she walks alone
Beyond the tumult

Life and death!
Scars and flesh... virus life consume
Sickness scars the surface
She knew she was rotting
Even before she slipped away

As shadows coalesce
And sunlight recedes




Slowly... slowly...
Two worlds become one

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of Adamus Exul's song "Ashes" describe a person's mental and emotional descent into darkness, depression, and despair. The first stanza mentions the crippling effects of depression which are compared to a black storm, and the deeper the person goes, the more hopeless and despairing she becomes. It's a monologue filled with pain and sorrow, and evidently, the singer feels trapped in her own thoughts and unable to reach for help.


The second stanza of the song speaks of a virus that consumes life, leaving scars and flesh, which can be interpreted as a metaphor for the pain and trauma that the singer has endured, perhaps leading her to her current state of mental distress. She's aware of how her mental health is deteriorating, and she lives with the consciousness that she's rotting inside.


The final stanza of the song hints at a transition of sorts, where the singer may be encountering some light at the end of the tunnel. The coalescence of shadows and a receding sunlight could represent this transition, slowly gathering two worlds as one, the lightness and darkness coming together.


Overall, the song conveys a deep sense of melancholy, pain, and the inevitability of mental struggles. It's a stirring portrayal of the journey through the darkness we can all face at some point in our lives.


Line by Line Meaning

Sick, black despair, a depression monologue
Describing the hopelessness and sadness that the singer is experiencing


Black storm weather, crippling mental fog
Representing the singer's feelings with imagery of a storm and fog, implying that everything is chaotic and unclear


On forges descent, through bleakest sorrow
The singer is going through a difficult time and it feels like they are going down into a deep, dark place


Deeper she went...
Further emphasizing the idea of the artist spiraling down into a dark place


As darkness is, cloud mental disruption
The darkness is compared to a cloud that is disrupting the artist's mind and thoughts


Cold feeling overcome
The singer is being consumed by a cold, negative feeling


Only for a moment she walks alone
Despite the feeling of isolation, the singer's loneliness is only temporary


Beyond the tumult
The artist is looking past the chaos and complications in their life


Life and death! Scars and flesh... virus life consume
Comparing the destructive nature of a virus to the consuming nature of life and death, symbolizing that the artist feels like they are being destroyed by life itself


Sickness scars the surface
The artist's struggles are visible on their skin


She knew she was rotting
The singer is aware that their mental state is deteriorating


Even before she slipped away
The artist feels like they were already on the verge of losing themselves


As shadows coalesce
The darkness and anxiety are coming together and becoming stronger


And sunlight recedes
The light that was there before is disappearing


Slowly... slowly...
The negative feelings are slowly taking over


Two worlds become one
The darkness and the light, the positive and the negative, are fusing together and becoming one, leaving the artist in a state of uncertainty and confusion




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Cátia Cunha

Sick, black despair, a depression monologue
Black storm weather, crippling mental fog
On forges descent, through bleakest sorrow
Deeper she went..

As darkness is, cloud mental disruption
Cold feeling overcome
Only for a moment she walks alone
Beyond the tumult

Life and death!
Scars and flesh.. virus life consume
Sickness scars the surface
She knew she was rotting
Even before she slipped away

As shadows coalesce
And sunlight recedes
Slowly.. slowly..
Two worlds become one

Mistress Hecate

I love this.

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