心という名の不可解
Ado Lyrics

君が瞬きをする音
I can even hear the sound of your blinking and when you look away, but I can't make sense of what's in your heart.

目を逸らした音さえ
I can even hear the sound of you looking away, but I can't make sense of what's in your heart.

こんなにも容易く聞き分けてみせるのに
Despite being able to hear everything else, I still can't understand what's in your heart.

時に 病名を何としましょうか
What do we call this condition that I can't even begin to understand?

誰も知りえないはずの
It's something that no one should be able to understand.

ココロなんてさ 期待もしないよ
I don't even expect to be able to understand someone's heart.

寸分の狂いだってない
There isn't a single mistake or deviation.

正確に記録されたジグザグに
It's recorded with precise, zigzagged lines.

それ以上意味はないはずだもの
But there shouldn't be any further meaning to it.

故にどんな顔して笑おうと
So, no matter what kind of face someone puts on,

カルテに書かれないことは
It's not worth believing in anything that isn't written on medical records.

信じるに値しないんだ
That's all there is to it.

それが全て
That's everything.

心音を吐いている
I'm breathing out the sound of my own heartbeat.

それだけ
That's all.

曖昧なものだ 見えないものだ
It's something vague and unseen,

最適な治療法などどこにもない
There's nowhere to find the perfect treatment.

ねえ
Hey,

感情の判断はどうしたらいい?
How does one make sense of their own emotions?

心境の分別はどうしたらいい?
How does one differentiate their own thoughts from their feelings?

証明しようもない不明瞭が
We can't prove anything since our thoughts and feelings are unclear, and

エラー吐いては脈を打つんだ
it causes an error to our heartbeat as we process them.

安寧も安楽もどうだっていい
We don't need peace or comfort,

後悔の人生だとしたっていいからさ
even if it means living a life of regret.

この目が潤む病の理由は何なの?
But what is the reason for this disease that makes my eyes watery with emotion?

永遠と静寂の 戸をたたいた言伝
A legend that tells of forever still doors being hammered on.

私はいつまで 忘れているつもりだろう
How long will I keep forgetting?

明日を繋いだ指で
I'll count the things that slipped through my fingers,

取りこぼしてきたものを数えてしまう
things I failed to connect for tomorrow.

虚しさのままに
But it'll be a futile effort.

本当は
Actually,

乱暴に君が触れてくれたら
if you touched me roughly,

ぽっかり覗く空白も埋められる
it might fill the emptiness inside.

これが正体?
Is this the real nature of this condition?

表情にメスを入れてしまう
We dissect our expressions trying to find meaning, and

愛情は投薬と思えてしまう
love feels like medicine.

解剖できない手術台じゃ
But on this table that cannot be dissected,

答えなんてさ わかりやしないよ
I can't even understand the answer.

数式で一切を証明しない
We can't prove anything with a mathematical formula.

心という名前の不可解を
The mystery of a heart.

素直になれぬ私のことを
I'm just not able to be honest with myself.

見抜いてよ
Figure me out, please.

覚めない夢なんて
Dreams we can't even wake up from

ここにないと教えて
Please teach me where they aren't.

何回拒んだって 振りほどいたって
No matter how many times I push things away, or let them go,

そうやって また優しくするのでしょう?
I'll end up being kind again, won't I?

この想いの名前は何なの? Ah
What do you call these feelings? Ah.