I Wanna Get Better
Against The Current Cover feat The Ready Set Lyrics

Hey, I hear the voice of a preacher from the back room
I hear a voice calling out to me, urging me to follow it and find you.

Calling my name and I follow just to find you
The voice is calling out to me, compelling me to seek out your presence.

I trace the faith to a broken down television and put on the weather
I seek divine intervention by turning to the television, hoping it shows me the way forward.

And I've trained myself to give up on the past 'cause
I have learned to let go of my past mistakes and disappointments.

I frozen time between hearses and caskets
I'm stuck in a state of mourning, unable to move on from the loss of loved ones.

Lost control when I panicked at the acid test
I felt overwhelmed and panicked during a difficult situation or decision.

While my friends were getting high and chasing girls down parkway lines
While my friends were indulging in reckless behavior, I was struggling with my own personal demons.

I was losing my mind 'cause the love, the love, the love, the love, the love
I was slowly losing my sanity because my love was unrequited or unappreciated.

That I gave wasted on a nice face
My love was given to someone who did not value or reciprocate it.

In a blaze of fear I put a helmet on a helmet
In a moment of desperation, I tried to protect myself from harm by doubling up on protective gear.

Counting seconds through the night and got carried away
I spent sleepless nights obsessing over my problems and lost myself in them.

So now I'm standing on the overpass screaming at the cars
I stand on the bridge, shouting at passing vehicles, as a way of venting my frustration and pain.

I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I didn't realize how lonely I was until I met you and felt a connection.

I go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling
I hallucinate or daydream about girls being present in my room and part of my life.

Cut out their pictures and I chase that feeling
I cut out pictures of girls and obsess over them to try and recapture a feeling or connection.

Of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was
Ilong for the carefree days of my youth, when I was unaware of the struggles and sorrow that come with adult life.

Now I'm a stranger
I feel disconnected from my former self, and from those around me.

And I miss the days of a life still permanent
I long for a simpler time, when my life felt stable and unchanging.

Mourn the years before I got carried away
I grieve for the years of my life that I lost or wasted being consumed by my problems.

'Cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi
I'm homeless or living a transient lifestyle, sleeping in the back of a cab for shelter.

I'm screaming from my bedroom window
I voice my pain and frustration by shouting out of my bedroom window.

Even if its gonna kill me
I would rather risk my life than continue living with my pain and struggles.

Woke up this morning early before my family
I wake early, before my loved ones, consumed by my problems and seeking a way out.

From this dream where she was trying to show me
I dream of a woman who is trying to guide me or show me the way forward.

How a life can move from the darkness
She is trying to teach me that it is possible to move past my pain and struggles into a brighter future.

She said to get better
She encourages me to strive for self-improvement, and overcome my current difficulties.

So I put a bullet where I shoulda put a helmet
I take unnecessary risks instead of protecting myself, putting myself in further danger.

And I crash my car cause I wanna get carried away
I drive recklessly, hoping to lose myself in the moment and forget my troubles.

That's why I'm standing on the overpass screaming at myself
I shout at myself out of frustration and desperation, hoping to find a way out of my struggles.

I wanna get better
I strive for self-improvement and to move beyond my current struggles.

I didn't know I was lonely 'til I saw your face
I didn't realize how much I needed a connection until I met you and felt a spark.

I didn't know I was broken 'til I wanted to change
I wasn't aware of how much I needed self-improvement until I started to strive for it.