Through Clairecords (Sacramento), Airiel released a series of four-song EPs titled Winks & Kisses. The EPs were also sold as a limited edition boxed set, capturing the evolution of Airiel in its current form. Their CDs are consistently some of the top sellers of the label, and the Frosted EP has already sold out. The group has also been asked to contribute to several compilation CDs, including Never Lose That Feeling by Club AC30 (U.K.).
In addition to their recordings, Airiel has also gained a reputation for being a live band. In addition to playing such local Chicago landmarks as the Double Door, Subterranean, and the Bottom Lounge, they have performed in Minneapolis, Milwaukee, Denver, Pittsburgh and Indianapolis. They have toured the U.S. East Coast, performing in New York City, Washington D.C., Philadelphia, and points in between. Airiel has also opened for some high-profile acts, including The Dears and The Brian Jonestown Massacre.
My Half Life
Airiel Lyrics
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intentions for nothing
of visions in my head, bring pleasure that i'd belong
head pounding, heart racing as still she haunts me
pushing me down again, intending to end alone, my half life
do na na na na
if i'm half a man, than a woman you'll never be
i'd rather be alone
your lying head games
i can't get the headway
confusion's fading fast
and it's leaving me here alone, in my half life
Airiel's song "My Half Life" is a poignant exploration of the effects of heartbreak and the feeling of incompleteness that comes with it. The lyrics present a speaker who is waiting for something, hoping to feel a sense of purpose or belonging. Despite having visions in their head that could offer this comfort, they are unable to escape the memories of a past lover. The pain of heartbreak is made evident through the description of a pounding head and racing heart, as the singer continues to be haunted by the memory of their former partner.
As the song continues, the singer expresses a desire for solitude rather than being in a relationship with someone who will never understand their pain. The line "if I'm half a man, than a woman you'll never be" suggests that the singer may feel insecure about their masculinity, or that their ex-partner may have emasculated them in some way. They would rather be alone than to continue playing the "lying head games" that characterized their past relationship.
Line by Line Meaning
i'm waiting for something
I am anticipating a certain event or outcome.
intentions for nothing
My plans do not amount to anything.
of visions in my head, bring pleasure that i'd belong
Thoughts of belonging somewhere bring me joy.
head pounding, heart racing as still she haunts me
My mind and body are reacting to the memories of her presence.
pushing me down again, intending to end alone, my half life
She is causing my downfall, leading me to a life that feels incomplete.
do na na na na
An instrumental break with no lyrics.
if i'm half a man, than a woman you'll never be
Even though I may feel incomplete, I am still a man, and you will never be that.
i'd rather be alone
Being alone seems better than being with the wrong person.
inside i'll always know
My inner thoughts will always be present.
your lying head games
Your manipulative ways of playing with my head.
i can't get the headway
I am unable to make any progress.
confusion's fading fast
My feelings of confusion are disappearing rapidly.
and it's leaving me here alone, in my half life
I am being left alone, feeling incomplete with this half-life.
Contributed by Gabriel C. Suggest a correction in the comments below.