The Thespian
Alesana Lyrics

Baby! why are you doing this to me?
Desperate plea asking why the person is causing the singer's current pain and turmoil.

Sweetheart! are those your eyes staring straight back at me?
Questioning if the person looking at the singer is the same one who once had their heart.

Angel! I see your smile everywhere!
The effect of not being able to forget the person who hurt them, and how that person's impact still lingers.

Darling! Stop!
A sudden plea to the person responsible for the artist's hurt to cease causing any more damage.

Night falls and I'm running in circles
Representing how the artist feels surrounded and constantly in the midst of their torment, with no escape.

I'm being chased by my imagination
The singer is unable to escape their thoughts and memories which cause emotional distress and a constant state of panic.

Tell me I'm forgiven say you'll always be mine
Asking the person responsible for their pain to absolve them of wrongdoings so the singer can feel as though there's a chance of reconciliation and moving forward.

Say that everything is over, tell me I'm fine...
Requesting for the past to be left behind and for things to change so that the artist's well-being can be preserved.

No one deserves to live like this (2x)
Asserting how no human being deserves to live in such an emotionally taxing state.

I touch your lips and stare in your eyes
Describing remembering their connection and intimate moments with the individual that is now causing their pain.

You smile and it makes me fly
Illustrating how the simple sight of the individual's smile can bring about joy.

You are the reason my heart beats
Declaring how the person used to be the artist's reason for being, and how they're still struggling to move on from that.

Tonight it's just you and me...
The singer is still holding on to an idea in their mind that they and the responsible individual are still a pair and that they are about to share an intimate moment.

Night as dark as my thoughts sets the scene for my return
The external mood reflects the internal state of turmoil and hopelessness of the singer's thoughts as they return home.

Lightning nips at my heels as I race home
The elements in nature are further personified to show just how foreboding the journey home feels for the singer.

Wearily I stagger towards the song of her pale voice
Internal dialogue that highlights the artist's inner exhaustion as they return home but still believes they can hear the voice of the individual who caused their pain.

Demons jeer my attempt to be free
The artist is tormented by inner demons that mock attempts to move on from their pain.

Windows cast her gentle reflection
The sight of external surroundings like windows casts a reflection and a reminder of the individual the singer is unable to forget.

Her somber silhouette dances for me
The singer visualizes a dark, ghost-like silhouette of the individual who caused their pain that almost seems to dance before them.

Dear God, it's her
The artist cannot fathom that the individual who caused their pain is present.

Look at you, you miserable fool
Internal dialogue that highlights how the artist is blaming themselves for their current pain.

Get off your knees, your prayers fall upon deaf ears
Internal dialogue that highlights how the artist is losing faith that prayer can save them from their pain.

Gods turned his back on you, heavens gates are shut
Internal dialogue that highlights how the singer has lost faith in God, as they feel that they've been abandoned.

And now you're knocking on the devil's door
Internal dialogue that highlights how the artist feels that there is nowhere else to turn, but to seek some sort of resolution with their pain.

I've been expecting you for some time, sir
The devil welcomes the singer as if they were already expecting the person whom the singer represents.

Allow me to introduce myself
The devil introduces himself, offering to solve the listener's issues.

I'm the one who pulls on all the strings, son
The devil presents himself as a puppet master, someone who knows exactly how to make things work in his favour.

You're lucky I don't kill you where you stand
The devil views the listener as someone powerless, with no real agency or ability to do anything, though, despite this, the individual speaks the truth as they see it.

This can't be real
The artist cannot believe that the devil is offering them help, and is questioning the legitimacy of the scenario.

Tonight I raise my glass
The singer is resigned to their fate and accepts that they will soon be gone.

There's nothing left
The singer feels as if there is no reason for them to go on living.

For I know it's time to move on
The artist is ready to give up and move on from their emotional turmoil.

All hope has failed
The artist has lost all hope.

My patience will not last
The artist feels that their patience is already at breaking point.

I've lost my soul
The singer feels spiritually defeated and hopeless.

Tomorrow I will be gone
The artist understands that their time is limited and that they will not be around for much longer to experience the pain they're currently going through.