Middle Ground
Alessia Cara feat. CHIKA Lyrics

I don't like boys, but I do
I have mixed feelings towards boys

I just hate it when they make me cry
I dislike it when they cause me pain and sadness

I got barbed wire around my house
I have built emotional walls to protect myself

But if someone would trade it for a picket fence, I wouldn't mind
I would be open to having a more open and trusting relationship

Don't come near me, yeah
I prefer to keep my distance from others

But don't leave me alone
But I also don't want to be completely isolated

I got my dog and she's enough
My dog provides me with companionship

But it'd be nice to hear a voice that's not my own
But it would also be nice to have someone else's presence and perspective

And I could use a hug sometimes
I sometimes crave physical affection

A little bit of love sometimes
I desire love and care occasionally

My bed's a little cold on the left side
I feel solitude and emptiness at times

But it's warm enough sometimes
But I can manage and find comfort in it occasionally

I don't know what I want
I am uncertain about my desires and needs

Would I be better off
I wonder if I would benefit more

Alone or with someone?
By remaining single or with a partner?

Drivin' me crazy (oh)
Causing me frustration and confusion

To give in or give up
Whether to surrender or quit

This middle ground I'm on
This state of uncertainty I'm experiencing

Is drivin' me crazy, crazy
Is causing me extreme mental distress

I'm not lonely, but I am
I don't constantly feel lonely, but there are moments I do

But catchin' feelings makes me sick
However, developing emotions makes me feel uneasy

I don't need a man and all that jazz
I don't depend on a man or societal expectations

But come to think of butterflies and starry-eyes, I don't remember hating it
But when I reflect upon romantic feelings, I realize I may not actually dislike it

I'm wary, yeah
I am cautious and guarded

But I wanna jump in
But deep down, I want to take a leap of faith

Fallin' into something's wonderful (yeah)
Experiencing the beauty of falling in love and being vulnerable

'Til someone pulls the rug from under it
Until someone ruins the moment and causes heartbreak

I like to think that there's somebody crafted perfectly
I hold the belief that there is an ideal person made for me

To see me at my best and still feel blessed to love the worst of me
Someone who can embrace and love all aspects of me, even the flaws

Kiss away the hurt from me, address me with some courtesy
Comfort me and treat me with kindness and respect

Hero after zero, guess my preference might be Hercules
I tend to go for the strong and heroic types over unreliable individuals

Lift me up, I need a pick-me-up
Support me and give me a boost of positivity

I ain't movin' backwards, baby, my exes hit me up
I refuse to regress in my life, and even my past partners seek me again

I ain't shootin' shots, but I can dribble, daydream just a little
I'm not actively pursuing relationships, but I can imagine and fantasize about them

If that love is really meant for me, you'll meet me in the middle, I
If true love is destined for me, the right person will meet me halfway