House of Cards
Alexander Stewart Lyrics

Changing flights and changing my mind every day
I'm constantly trying to distract myself, but it's not working.

I cope with the pain but to be honest
I'm struggling to deal with the pain of our separation.

Things don't feel the same
Everything feels different since you left LA.

All the stars couldn't lead me where you are
I feel lost without you, no matter how hard I try to find you.

Should've known that in the dark, I'd be too dumb to see
I should have realized that I wouldn't be able to find you in the darkness.

Even though you're laying next to me, can't give me what I need, oh
Even though you're physically present, you can't give me the emotional connection that I crave.

And God, I have some questions
I'm feeling lost and confused, and I'm looking for answers from a higher power.

How many drinks does it take to walk away?
I wonder how many drinks it would take for me to forget about you.

How many times will I fuck it up and stay?
I question how many times I'll make the same mistakes and continue to stay in this unhealthy situation.

I don't know how to love you from afar, you have my heart
I'm struggling to find a way to love you from a distance, and despite everything, you still hold a special place in my heart.

'Til we fall just like a house of cards
Our relationship feels fragile, like a house of cards that could collapse at any moment.

Call your bluff, tell me who are you trying to convince
I'm calling you out and asking you who you're trying to deceive.

It's not enough
Your words alone aren't enough to sustain this relationship.

If your words never lead you to commit
If you're not willing to follow through on your promises, then our relationship is doomed to fail.

You know it feels like shit
It hurts to feel like you're not committed to this relationship, and that you don't value it as much as I do.

If we're made of paper, there's bound to be flames
If our relationship is as fragile as paper, there's a high likelihood that it will eventually combust.

I'll hold us together, but is it in vain?
I'm doing everything I can to keep this relationship together, but I'm starting to question whether it's even worth it.

If one gust of wind could be all that it takes, oh
One small event could be enough to completely destroy our fragile relationship.