Sickman
Alice in Chains Lyrics


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What the hell am I?
Thousand eyes, a fly
Lucky then I'd be
In one day deceased

Sickman, sickman, sickman
I can feel the wheel, but I can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear
Ah, what's the difference, I'll die

In this sick world of mine
What the hell am I?
Leper from inside
Inside wall of peace
Dirty and diseased
Sickman, sickman, sickman, sickman
I can see the end is getting near
I won't rest until my head is clear

Ah, what's the difference, I'll die
In this sick world of mine
Yeah, though I walk through the valley of rape and despair
Can you see the end?
Choke on me my friend

Must to drown these thoughts
Purity over rot
Ah, ah, ah

What the hell am I?
Worn eroded pride
Saddened ten miles wide
I'm gonna let it slide

Sickman, Sickman, sickman, sickman

I can feel the wheel but I can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear
Ah, what's the difference I'll die
Oh, in this sick world of mine





Ah, ah, ah

Overall Meaning

The song "Sickman" by Alice in Chains is a reflection of the internal struggles and turmoil of the lead vocalist, Layne Staley. The opening lines are a portrayal of disorientation and confusion, as he questions his existence and compares himself to a fly with a thousand eyes. He then continues to ponder the idea of death and how it may be a fortunate end to his inner suffering. The repetition of the word "Sickman" throughout the chorus emphasizes the theme of illness and mental health issues affecting his psyche. Staley also talks about his inability to control his thoughts and how they become his biggest fear, leading him to the brink of despair.


The second verse reiterates the idea of being a "Sickman" on the inside and how it has affected his life, as he feels like a leper, diseased and dirty. He notes how he can see the end approaching, but he won't find rest until his head is clear. The bridge of the song is an explicit reference to the biblical passage of Psalm 23:4, where the author writes about walking through the valley of the shadow of death. Staley uses the imagery to describe his pain as a suffocating experience where he feels like he is choking.


Overall, "Sickman" is a poignant and introspective song that delves into the complex and often misunderstood world of mental illness. It's a cry for help and an honest portrayal of what it's like to struggle with one's demons.


Line by Line Meaning

What the hell am I?
Asking the existential question of one's own identity and purpose.


Thousand eyes, a fly
Feeling insignificant and unnoticed in the grand scheme of things.


Lucky then I'd be
Expressing the desire to not exist in this state of misery any longer.


In one day deceased
Wishing for a quick and painless escape from this life.


Sickman, sickman, sickman
Repeating the self-denigrating label of being sick and diseased.


I can feel the wheel, but I can't steer
Feeling powerless and unable to control one's own thoughts and actions.


When my thoughts become my biggest fear
Battling with one's own mind and the destructive thoughts it creates.


Ah, what's the difference, I'll die
Giving up on life and accepting the inevitability of death.


In this sick world of mine
Acknowledging the negative and unsettling nature of one's surroundings and experiences.


Leper from inside
Feeling isolated and rejected by society due to one's internal struggles.


Inside wall of peace
Having a protective barrier of inner peace that is slowly deteriorating.


Dirty and diseased
Feeling unclean and unwell, both physically and mentally.


I can see the end is getting near
Recognizing the inevitability of one's own demise and that it's coming soon.


I won't rest until my head is clear
Striving for clarity and peace of mind despite the difficulties.


Though I walk through the valley of rape and despair
Metaphorically describing a journey through a desolate and brutal landscape, emphasizing the bleakness of existence.


Can you see the end?
Asking if someone else can see the same mortality that the artist feels.


Choke on me my friend
Suggesting that the artist's own suffering and pain should be enough to make others understand their plight.


Must to drown these thoughts
Describing the need to escape from one's own mind and the overwhelming thoughts that plague them.


Purity over rot
Choosing to uphold one's own moral and ethical standards, even when faced with decay and corruption.


Worn eroded pride
Having one's self-esteem and self-worth slowly deteriorate over time due to emotional turmoil.


Saddened ten miles wide
Feeling an immense sense of depression and unhappiness that is difficult to overcome.


I'm gonna let it slide
Giving in to the negative emotions and allowing them to continue without trying to fight or suppress them.




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Written by: Layne Staley, Jerry Cantrell

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@MikeysMorgue

@Cthulhu Awaken Here are my top 10 favorite bands of all time. And I'll list a bunch of other bands/artists I really enjoy:
- Metallica
- Alice In Chains/Jerry Cantrell
- Pink Floyd
- Led Zeppelin
- Megadeth
- Nirvana
- The Red Hot Chili
Peppers
- Black Sabbath
- Scorpions
- UFO
These bands/artists are awesome, too:
- The Beatles
- Ozzy
- Dio
- Deep Purple
- Pantera
- Down
- Guns N' Roses
- The Rolling Stones
- Van Halen
- The Misfits
- Danzig
- Type O Negative
- Aerosmith
- Foo Fighters
- Deftones
- Queensryche
- Anthrax
- Testament
- Slayer
- Exodus
- Soundgarden/Chris Cornell
- The Smashing Pumpkins
- Gojira
- Mastodon
- Corrosion Of Conformity
- Judas Priest
- Sodom
- Kreator
- Obituary
- Marilyn Manson
- Jimi Hendrix
- Diamond Head
- Thin Lizzy
- Cinderella
- Def Leppard
- 70s KISS
- Boston
- Suicidal Tendencies
- The Cult
- The Cure
- Oasis
- Pat Travers
- Billy Idol
- Tom Petty
- Genesis
- Fleetwood Mac
- Michael Jackson
- Prince
- Depeche Mode



@crunchysugar

Lyrics from genius:

[Intro]
Yay!

[Verse 1]
What the hell am I, thousand eyes, a fly?
Lucky then I'd be in one day deceased

[Refrain]
Sickman, sickman, sickman, sickman

[Pre-Chorus]
Ah!
I can feel the wheel but I can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear

[Chorus]
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh, ah, what's the difference, I'll die
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh, oh, in this sick world of mine

[Interlude]
Yay!

[Verse 2]
What the hell am I, leper from inside?
Inside wall of peace, dirty and diseased

[Refrain]
Sickman, sickman, sickman, sickman

[Pre-Chorus]
Ah!
I can see the end is getting near
I won't rest until my head is clear

[Chorus]
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh, ah, what's the difference, I'll die
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh, oh, in this sick world of mine

[Bridge]
Can you see the end?
Choke on me, my friend
Must to drown these thoughts
Purity over rot
"Yeah, though I walk through the valley of rape and despair
With head high and eyes alert
I tread on a plane of many
We who are of good nature and intention
But cannot touch on the dark
Recesses of memory
And pain learned, so come walk
With me, feel the pain
And release it"

[Guitar Solo]
Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh
Ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh-ahh

[Interlude]
Yay!

[Verse 3]
What the hell am I, worn eroded pride?
Saddened 10 miles wide, I'm gon' let it slide

[Refrain]
Sickman, sickman, sickman, sickman

[Pre-Chorus]
Ah!
I can feel the wheel but I can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear

[Chorus]
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh, ah, what's the difference, I'll die
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh, oh, in this sick world of mine

[Outro]
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh, ah
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh
Ahh-ah, ah-ah-ah-ah
Ahh-ah-ah-ahh, ah
Ahh-ah-ah-ah-ahh



@gamewizardks

This part is the most beautiful part of this song and I'm not just talking about the lyrics. Also the music.

Can you see the end?
Choke on me, my friend
Must to drown these thoughts
Purity over rot
"Yeah, though I walk through the valley of rape and despair
With head high and eyes alert
I tread on a plane of many
We who are of good nature and intention
But cannot touch on the dark
Recesses of memory
And pain learned, so come walk
With me, feel the pain
And release it"



@wyattatm6989

"Sickman"

Yay!
What the hell am I?
Thousand eyes, a fly
Lucky then I'd be
In one day deceased
Sickman,
Sickman,
Sickman,
Sickman
Ahh!
I can feel the wheel,
But I can't steer
When my thought become
My biggest fear
Ah-ah, what's the difference, I'll die
Ah-ah, in this this sick world of mine

Get it
What the hell am I?
Leper from inside
Inside wall of peace
Dirty and diseased
Sickman,
Sickman,
Sickman,
Sickman
Ahh!
I can see the end
Is getting near
I won't rest until
My head is clear
Ah-ah, what's the difference, I'll die
Ah-ah, in this sick world of mine
Yeah, thought I walk through
The valley of rape and despair
(Yeah, though I walk through)
(The valley of rape and despair)
Can you see the end?
Choke on me, my friend
Must to drown these thoughts
Purity over rot

Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah

Yay!
What the hell am I?
Worn eroded pride
Saddened ten miles wide
I'm gonna let it slide
Sickman,
Sickman,
Sickman,
Sickman
Ahh!
I can feel the wheel,
But I can't steer
When my thoughts become
My biggest fear
Ah-ah, what's the difference, I'll die
Ah-ah, in this sick world of mine
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah
Ah-ah-ah



All comments from YouTube:

@theMenace985

This is one of their best songs IMO, the verses are so powerful and that chorus and middle section take me to another planet... I love these visualizers, so sick.

@TheStepmonkey

Yea and to imagine they created a harmony like that in 1992, back when rock music was totally different. They really were ahead of their time.

@dragons_red

Agreed. So off the wall yet so powerful and beautiful...

@arvinbrinas8732

Yeah,

@frealvincentvega

On that planet now

@theMenace985

@Vincent Vega I'm always there these days

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@ifraggedonce4656

This is the darkest, most stunningly accurate representation of drug withdrawal in the form of song. Every sound and word and their delivery in this track is exactly how hopeless withdrawal with zero resources feels. If you know you know

@zarnold1995

Damn bro, I can only imagine. Hope your safe brother!

@andrewjensen7413

​@Zac your can only understand if have lived with the Hell it is. I don't recommend try it stay away from hard Drugs

@user-bb3je8il1c

I love their music when I was younger and now I understand it ,now that I have lived through it, God grant me the serenity and God bless you all and your family

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