In 2003, after several years singing with various bands, he went on Fame Academy to try and get a solo record deal. He came second, got a recording contract and had two top 20 hits. His debut album charted but got no promotion and he was mostly ignored by the media. He parted company with Universal and his management in 2004 and carried on independently, setting up his own gigs and recording and playing his own material in his own way.
He has written hit singles for other people - Hungry for Love for Di-rect and Angel by my Side for Do. He toured Germany and has co-written songs with Robin Gibb. He has also co-written and recorded songs with members of Ultra, Oasis legends Tony and Chris Griffiths of The Real People and Paul Banks of Shed Seven.
You only get a small flavour of what he is like from his first album which includes some very catchy upbeat songs as well as some very romantic love songs which Alistair himself has described as "a bit slushy".
His second "mini-album" was recorded live during his tour with Robin Gibb and consists of acoustic versions of four of his own songs and a George Michael cover. CDs of his new original material are hard to find and are only available at gigs or through his website. "finding Boethius" (3 tracks) was released in December 2006 and "Alistair Griffin" (4 tracks)in May 2008. He is currently working on his next album.
Previews of his current songs can be heard on his Official Myspace http://www.myspace.com/alistairgriffinonline
Silent Suicide
Alistair Griffin Lyrics
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I stumble home I try to find my light.
The empty pictures of the football wifes,
who sleep alone tonight.
I think about,
jumping in or maybe jumping out.
I walk on water 'till my luck runs out,
I try to shout but no words come out.
I touch the hands that pick me up.
In all my life I never found,
a reason I could be alive,
the meaning lost so many times.
This was my silent suicide.
Well life goes on,
and I can see the ground we're standing on.
Sometimes I wonder, did I wait too long?
To feel the breath of your final song,
You said hold on!
I close my eyes, I feel the rush,
I touch the hands that pick me up.
In all my life I never found,
a reason I could be alive,
the meaning lost so many times.
This was my silent suicide.
I lost my faith and needed proof.
I see a door I walk straight through,
to find myself alone with you.
And if I live to see the day,
or hear the silence blown away.
Forgive my silent suicide.
I close my eyes, I feel the rush,
I touch the hands that pick me up.
In all my life I never found,
a reason I could be alive,
the meaning lost so many times.
Forgive my silent suicide.
I close my eyes, I feel the rush,
I touch the hands that pick me up.
In all my life I never found,
a reason I could be alive,
the meaning lost so many times.
This was my silent suicide.
In all my life I never found.
This was my silent suicide.
Forgive my silent suicide.
The song "Silent Suicide" by Alistair Griffin is a poignant and deeply personal reflection on the struggle of finding meaning in life. The opening verse sets the scene at the end of a night out, where the singer is walking home alone, contemplating his life. He thinks about jumping in or jumping out, a reference to the desire to end his own life. The following lines describe the emptiness and loneliness he feels, as he looks at pictures of the wives of famous footballers who are also alone. He questions the meaning of his existence, a theme that recurs throughout the song.
The chorus expresses the intense emotion of the singer, as he feels the rush of the moment, before being lifted up by imaginary hands. He has struggled to find a reason to live, and has contemplated suicide many times, always silently. The bridge of the song introduces a glimmer of hope, as he remembers someone telling him to hold on. He feels he may have waited too long for this moment, but is still hopeful that he may find a reason to live. The final verse speaks of finding proof of something beyond himself, as he walks through a door and finds himself alone with someone else. The final plea for forgiveness for his silent suicide speaks of the pain of his struggles, but also of his desire to move forward and find purpose.
Overall, "Silent Suicide" is a powerful and moving exploration of the human struggle to find meaning and purpose in life, and the pain and isolation that can come from feeling lost and alone. The song's personal themes have resonated with many listeners, as it speaks to the universal human experience of searching for a reason to keep going.
Line by Line Meaning
It's closing time
The end of another day is here.
I stumble home I try to find my light
I walk home in the dark, searching for a new light in my life.
The empty pictures of the football wifes, who sleep alone tonight
In my loneliness, I look at pictures of women married to football players, who also sleep alone tonight.
I think about, jumping in or maybe jumping out
I contemplate suicide, whether it be by jumping off a building or out of life.
I walk on water 'till my luck runs out
I feel invincible until reality sets in and I am no longer lucky.
I try to shout but no words come out
I attempt to reach out for help, but am unable to express my feelings or emotions.
In all my life I never found, a reason I could be alive, the meaning lost so many times
Throughout my entire life, I have failed to find a purpose for being alive, often losing sight of any meaning.
This was my silent suicide
All of these dark thoughts and struggles were my own form of taking my own life.
Well life goes on, and I can see the ground we're standing on
Despite my struggles and doubts, life continues and I am still here.
Sometimes I wonder, did I wait too long?
I question whether it is too late to turn my life around and find my purpose.
To feel the breath of your final song, You said hold on!
I hold onto the hope that there is still a chance for me to find my calling and live my life to the fullest.
I lost my faith and needed proof
I have lost my belief in a higher power and require evidence or reassurance to believe again.
I see a door I walk straight through, to find myself alone with you
I take a chance and pursue spirituality, hoping to find guidance and companionship.
And if I live to see the day, or hear the silence blown away
If I am able to survive long enough, I hope to someday find peace and hear the silence of my dark thoughts fade away.
Forgive my silent suicide
I ask for forgiveness for my internal struggles and the pain it may have caused others around me.
Contributed by Layla E. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Adheesh Chatterjee
It's closing time,
I stumble home I try to find my light.
The empty pictures of the football wifes,
who sleep alone tonight.
I think about,
jumping in or maybe jumping out.
I walk on water 'till my luck runs out,
I try to shout but no words come out.
I close my eyes, I feel the rush,
I touch the hands that pick me up.
In all my life I never found,
a reason I could be alive,
the meaning lost so many times.
This was my silent suicide.
Well life goes on,
and I can see the ground we're standing on.
Sometimes I wonder, did I wait too long?
To feel the breath of your final song,
You said hold on!
I close my eyes, I feel the rush,
I touch the hands that pick me up.
In all my life I never found,
a reason I could be alive,
the meaning lost so many times.
This was my silent suicide.
I lost my faith and needed proof.
I see a door I walk straight through,
to find myself alone with you.
And if I live to see the day,
or hear the silence blown away.
Forgive my silent suicide.
I close my eyes, I feel the rush,
I touch the hands that pick me up.
In all my life I never found,
a reason I could be alive,
the meaning lost so many times.
Forgive my silent suicide.
I close my eyes, I feel the rush,
I touch the hands that pick me up.
In all my life I never found,
a reason I could be alive,
the meaning lost so many times.
This was my silent suicide.
In all my life I never found.
This was my silent suicide.
Forgive my silent suicide.
PaulaW23
Thanks for the lyrics!
Phương Ngọc Phạm
This song deserves more viewers!!!
Nostalgia Corner
Such an underrated artist. This album is gold.
DoggyPower
Love this sing man!
PaulaW23
One of my favourite Alistair Griffin's song.
George Haynes
How has this amazing song had so little interest
MN Video Channel 3.0
Iscrizione super meritata grazie... E un brano che ha un significato nascosto👋☺️🇨🇭
raul dols
nobody has the lyrics?
Ryan Jarvis
Tune 2020