They released a record as St. Mucus in 1995, which is called "Natural Mutation". With their actual name, Am I Blood has released 4 records and an EP so far, including: "Am I Blood" (1997), "Agitation" (1998), "Gone With You (EP)" (2000), "The Truth Inside the Dying Sun" (2001), "The Truth Inside The Dying Sun" re-edition (2005) and "Existence of Trauma" (2011).
The "The Truth Inside The Dying Sun" record was ready to be released a couple of years before 2005, but the band decided to wait due to some trouble with an American label. Eventually the album was released with the Finnish label Scandinavian A1 Music.
Jenne Kerminan sounds like James Hetfield especially in "Gone With You" (MetallicA).
Line-up:
Janne Kerminen - Vocals, Lead Guitars
Tomi Luoma - Guitars
Ilves - Guitars (R.I.P. 2013)
Toni Grönroos - Bass Guitars
Mika Tanttu - Drums
Struggle in Disarray
Am I Blood Lyrics
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You made room for life but they blind you
It's just a moment when you all scream
They're marching across the sand and through happiness
Silent waves I only hear them bleeding
The day has turned to darken the end
You cannot stand yourself
Why can't I feel my legs
Why can't I breath this open air
Opposite of fantasies ticking
Counting bodies of the loss
Mother Earth will serve the rich
As the death brings the silence
Silent waves...
Struggle In Disarray
Can't breath this air
Beseech to cut my life
Struggle In Disarray
Can't breath this air
Beseech to cut my life and let me
Struggle In Disarray
I can't breath
Struggle In Disarray
Can't breath this air
Beseech to cut my life and let me
It's like a family you've never met
Can't find no words no language to speak
It's not a reason for what they've done
Enemies of well-to-do, Hysteria
Why can't I feel my legs
Why can't I breath this open air
Struggle in...
The lyrics to Am I Blood's song Struggle in Disarray describe a moment of chaos and destruction, where everything that has been built up crumbles in just a second. The first lines speak of someone who has made room for life, but is blinded by something unknown. This could represent a metaphorical blindness, where one cannot see the dangers or threats that may be present. The following lines detail a moment of screaming and marching, as if an army is descending upon everything that this person has created.
As the chaos continues, the singer hears only silent waves, perhaps the quiet aftermath of destruction, with no one left to scream or make noise. They struggle to keep everything together, trying to stand even as they cannot feel their legs or breathe the open air. The lyrics then shift to a more dystopian view of the world, where fantasies are ticking and bodies are being counted. Mother Earth serves only the rich, and death brings silence. The singer beseeches for their life to end, unable to handle the struggle in disarray that surrounds them.
The last verses suggest a disconnect from society, where the people around them feel like strangers, and their actions are without reason. The singer cannot feel their legs or breathe the open air, suggesting they are trapped in some way. The song ends with a repetition of the phrase "struggle in disarray," with the singer begging for release from the chaos around them.
Line by Line Meaning
It's just a second and this all crash
Life can change in an instant, unexpectedly and potentially catastrophically
You made room for life but they blind you
Despite creating space for positive experiences, external factors may prevent progress
It's just a moment when you all scream
Heightened emotions can quickly escalate into chaos and turmoil
They're marching across the sand and through happiness
The malicious can seem to navigate life's obstacles with ease and without regard for others' wellbeing
Silent waves I only hear them bleeding
The unspoken pain and turmoil can be louder than any sound
The day has turned to darken the end
Trouble can seem insurmountable and eternal
You cannot stand yourself
One can feel helpless and powerless in the face of adversity
Struggle to keep all together
Trying to maintain composure and stability can take immense effort and perseverance
Why can't I feel my legs
A physical manifestation of the overwhelming feelings of unease and turmoil
Why can't I breath this open air
A sense of suffocation and feeling trapped in one's circumstances
Opposite of fantasies ticking
Real life can be far from the idealized visions we hold
Counting bodies of the loss
Grief and loss can be overwhelming and all-consuming
Mother Earth will serve the rich
Victory and success can often be reserved for those with greater power and privilege
As the death brings the silence
Ending perceived pain and suffering can seem like the only solution
It's like a family you've never met
Feeling out of place and disconnected from those around you
Can't find no words no language to speak
Difficulty in expressing oneself and being understood by others
It's not a reason for what they've done
There can be no justification for the hurt that others can cause
Enemies of well-to-do, Hysteria
Those with power and privilege can often marginalize and attack those they deem lesser than themselves
Struggle In Disarray
An overwhelming sense of chaos and upheaval
Can't breath this air
Feeling suffocated by the world and one's circumstances
Beseech to cut my life
Desperately wanting to escape from one's struggles and pain
and let me
A plea for release from the burdens of life
Contributed by Declan E. Suggest a correction in the comments below.