Opia
Amadeus Awad Lyrics

Right where it ends
The beginning and end of life is a mystery

I don't really believe in love,
The singer does not believe in love

I don't even know what that is,
The singer does not understand what love is

And they say it all starts when we feel our mothers breathing,
Love supposedly begins when we feel our mother's breaths

Their chests move against our delicate bones
The singer remembers the physical sensation of their mother's breathing

And massage our way into life;
The mother's breathing feels like a massage guiding us into life

But I never chose my mother;
The singer did not choose their mother

I never knew who she was,
The singer did not know their mother

I was rather forced into this world by hers and my father's choice to have a child;
The singer was born without being able to choose or control it

I don't know what love is.
The singer is still unsure about love

And then I got attached to this family,
The singer became attached to their family

To this house, To these entities,
The singer became attached to their environment and the people in it

And I felt like I can't live without them.
The singer feels like they cannot live without their family

They had their own lives, their own rhythm, ambitions, fears and secrets,
The singer's family is made up of individuals with their own lives and secrets

I was introduced to everything they are by what they chose to tell me,
The singer only knows what they were told by their family

I built an image of them and worshiped it,
The singer created an idealized image of their family and idolized it

I lived their moments and interacted with their choices.
The singer felt like they were a part of their family's lives, even if it was just through observation

I had what they chose to give me,
The singer only had what their family gave them

I knew what they chose to tell me,
The singer only knew what their family told them

I don't know what love is.
The singer is still unsure about love

You might be wondering,
The singer addresses the listener

Why I wrote this song?
The singer questions why they wrote this song

It's not a lullaby for the broken
The song is not meant to be comforting to those who are broken

It's a breathless gasp
The song is an emotional gasp

From the depth of the weakest lung
The song is coming from a place of emotional weakness

My nightmares, unspoken
The song is an expression of the singer's unspoken nightmares

Oceans apart
The distance between two people is vast

Don't you know from the start
The singer reminds the listener that they knew this all along

That I lied to you?
The singer confesses to lying to the listener

But this bleeding heart
The singer's heart is hurting

Is not what you should fight...
The listener should not fight against the singer's pain

I took a vow to leave
The singer made a promise to leave behind something

A verse upon your skin
The singer's promise is to tattoo a verse onto the listener's skin

Sealed with tears of hope and fear
The tattoo is sealed with the singer's tears of both hope and fear

The needle broke
The tattooing process was interrupted

The ink was lost within
The promise was not fulfilled, the tattoo was not completed

Layers unclear
There is ambiguity surrounding the incomplete tattoo

Oceans apart
The distance between two people is vast

Don't you know from the start
The singer reminds the listener that they knew this all along

I never lied to you
The singer clarifies that they never lied to the listener

But this bleeding heart
The singer's heart is hurting

Will never see the light...
The singer's pain might never be resolved