Forgive Me Pt. 1
Ambleside Lyrics

I look back on the years
Reflecting on past memories

Can't pretend to forget
Unable to ignore what happened

A picture, lost progress
A moment in time that can never be regained

I wonder how you've been
Curiosity about the other person's current condition

Your laugh and your smile
Fond memories of the other person's joy

While I'm losing sleep lost inside my head
Anxiety and regret keeping the person awake

Tell me you're passed this
Asking for confirmation that the other person has moved on

It's over and you've moved on
Hoping the other person is no longer dwelling on the past

‘Cause I can't explain why the
Admitting to confusion about

Past few years were meaningless
The lack of significance in recent past events

Forgive me, I did everything that I could
Apologizing for any mistakes made, even with effort

Forgive me
Requesting forgiveness

I wish you saw it from where I stood
Wishing the other person could understand the situation from a different perspective

I've read over the words that
Taking time to read past communication

You left in my head
Mental recollection of the other person's words

A look on your face I could never forget
Never forgetting the other person's facial expression

I know it's been a while
Acknowledging the passage of time

I still live in denial
Refusing to fully accept the situation

Nowhere to be found when you needed a friend
Not being there for the other person when they were in need

Couldn't handle the pressure I
Starting to crack under the stress

Started to cave in
Beginning to break down

So I told myself that you were fine
Attempting to convince oneself that everything was okay

And I stayed up all night
Losing sleep due to emotional turmoil

Trying to ease the pain, But nothing changes
Efforts to relieve emotional pain are not effective

I punish myself and fall into a wretched whim
Continuing cycles of self-blame and negative thoughts

The guilt that burns inside my chest
Intense feelings of remorse

The memories they freeze within
Memories that seem to be preserved in time

These empty picture frames
Visual representations of the past that now feel hollow

(I couldn't ask for your forgiveness)
Feeling unworthy of forgiveness

Torturing these cold and lonely nights
Suffering alone in isolation

(I couldn't ever apologize) i can't escape
Feeling trapped by feelings of guilt and inadequacy

(How could I ask for your forgiveness?)
Expressing doubt in one's ability to make amends

I suffocate from outside in
Feeling overwhelmed by external factors and emotions

(How could I ever apologize?)
Continuing to question one's ability to seek forgiveness

I punish myself
Continuing to engage in self-criticism and self-blame

I called for help, they took you away
Reaching out for help but the other person is no longer around

Forgive me, please forgive me
Continuing to seek forgiveness

I punish myself with each passing day
Becoming increasingly self-destructive and self-critical over time

Let the tears fall from your
Encouraging the other person to express their emotions

Eyes as you fade away
Accepting the other person's departure and wishing them peace