Disease
Amboog-a-Lard Lyrics


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Innocence, I began, youth my direction.
Ignorance, love in my heart, no detection.
Tried to explore, dying for more.
Life, death, please mother let me begin.


I closed my eyes, everything a lie.
Rebellion to rebel, fallen in deep, why?
Tried to deter, dying not to see.
Hate, hate, please mother leave me be.


I created, I found myself at least I thought.
Lust for for love rotted me, no detection.
Tried and achieved, what was not conceived.
Watch me, please mother look at MEEE!!


I fell, I fell hard, face down denial.
I've beaten myself into the ground.
I tried to rise, everything changes, not me.
Wrong or right, please mother forgive me.


I looked, I looked at myself, my direction.
All these years gone, but I found love.
Myself, I'm off to explore again with peace of mind.
Every day mother, father I'm more like you.
I understand why you do the things you do.


Disease!! Rots under my skin.
Disease!! Committed like sin.




Disease!! Starving for more.
Disease!! I don't want to cure.

Overall Meaning

The song "Disease" by Amboog-a-Lard is a powerful and emotional journey of a young person's evolution through life. The lyrics speak to the universal human experience of growing up, making mistakes, feeling lost, and eventually finding oneself through self-discovery and introspection. The beginning of the song reflects the innocence and youthful optimism that comes with growing up, but as the lyrics progress, there is a growing sense of disillusionment, confusion, and self-doubt. The singer struggles with the idea of rebellion, both against themselves and the world around them.


Through the lyrics, we see the singer dealing with their personal challenges and their relationship with their own choices. The repetition of the word "disease" throughout the song serves as a metaphor for their inner turmoil and the toxicity that creeps into their life. The singer grapples with their own demons and struggles to find a sense of belonging and purpose. The final verse brings a sense of closure, with the singer finally finding themselves and their sense of self, growing into a person that is more like their parents and better understands the complexity of the human experience.


Line by Line Meaning

Innocence, I began, youth my direction.
I started my journey with pure intentions and youthful exuberance.


Ignorance, love in my heart, no detection.
I was naïve to the risks and dangers but had love in my heart without realizing the consequences.


Tried to explore, dying for more.
I wanted to explore and experience life fully, always craving for more.


Life, death, please mother let me begin.
I acknowledged the duality of life and death and asked for my mother's blessing to embark on this journey.


I closed my eyes, everything a lie.
I closed my eyes to the truth, and everything I knew was a lie.


Rebellion to rebel, fallen in deep, why?
I rebelled just for the sake of rebelling and ended up deeply lost and confused.


Tried to deter, dying not to see.
I made an effort to turn away from the truth, but it was difficult to do so.


Hate, hate, please mother leave me be.
I was consumed by hate and asked my mother to let me be, even though I needed her guidance.


I created, I found myself, at least I thought.
I thought I had found myself and what truly mattered, but I was mistaken.


Lust for love rotted me, no detection.
My desire for love and passion overwhelmed me, and I failed to see the damage it was causing.


Tried and achieved, what was not conceived.
I tried and succeeded in ways I didn't anticipate or intend.


Watch me, please mother look at MEEE!!
I craved attention and validation from my mother, hoping she would notice and acknowledge my growth.


I fell, I fell hard, face down denial.
I fell hard, denying the consequences of my actions and refusing to face the music.


I've beaten myself into the ground.
I was my worst enemy, punishing myself for my mistakes and shortcomings.


I tried to rise, everything changes, not me.
I tried to pick myself up, but everything around me changed while I remained stagnant.


Wrong or right, please mother forgive me.
I asked for my mother's forgiveness, admitting that I might have been wrong in my choices and decisions.


I looked at myself, my direction.
I reflected on myself and where I was headed.


All these years gone, but I found love.
Despite everything, I found love and compassion within myself and for others.


Myself, I'm off to explore again with peace of mind.
With renewed confidence and a clear mind, I'm ready to explore life once more.


Every day mother, father I'm more like you.
With each passing day, I realize that I'm becoming more like my parents and understanding their choices and decisions.


I understand why you do the things you do.
I've gained a deeper understanding of my parents' actions and decisions, and I appreciate them more.


Disease!! Rots under my skin.
The disease metaphorically eats away at me, causing harm and damage from within.


Disease!! Committed like sin.
I'm culpable for my actions and their consequences, feeling remorse for them.


Disease!! Starving for more.
The disease craves for more and more, never satisfied and always wanting more.


Disease!! I don't want to cure.
Despite suffering from the disease, I'm unwilling to change and cure myself, stuck in my old ways.




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