I'm sorry
Ameer Vann Lyrics

All my life I broke everything I touch
Throughout my entire life, everything I've interacted with seems to end up broken.

Like my damn phone screen
Similar to my phone screen, I leave everything I touch damaged or unusable.

So I don't hear it when it ring
I purposely break my phone so that I have an excuse not to answer when it rings.

I wouldn't answer anyway
Even if I did have a functioning phone, I would still avoid answering calls.

I'm afraid of conversations
I have a fear of having conversations with others.

They only lead to temptation
Whenever I engage in conversations, I end up facing temptation to do something I shouldn't.

So I always spend the night
To avoid facing these temptations and conversations, I often spend the whole night out.

And I'm gone in the morning
After my night out, I leave early in the morning before anything else can happen.

And then those tears in your eyes
You often cry when I leave, feeling hurt and abandoned.

Turn to voicemail recordings
I often ignore your tears and your voicemails, leaving our relationship unresolved.

And I don't ever play them back
I purposely avoid listening to your messages, knowing that they'll only make me feel worse.

I just act like I ain't get it
I pretend like I never received your messages.

And I act like nothin' happen
I pretend like our relationship is fine and nothing happened between us.

And then I text some other bitches
I turn to other women to distract myself from our problems.

I know I'm not supposed to say that
Although I know what I'm doing isn't right, I still do it anyway.

You know my momma taught be better
I was raised to know better than to act this way, yet I still do it.

I wish I had it all together
I really wish I had my life and relationship figured out.

But I'm tearin' at the seams
In reality, I'm falling apart and everything is falling apart around me.

I'm cold in west coast weather
I feel isolated and alone, even in the sunny west coast weather.

You say I never make sense
You often tell me that I'm not making logical sense in my actions and words.

But my dollar signs comin'
Despite my current struggles, I have hope that financial success is coming my way.

And you're still down for the ride
You remain supportive of me and our relationship, despite everything that's happened.

Even if I make nothin'
Even if my success doesn't come to fruition, you're still willing to be with me.

Well, ain't that some'
That's truly something to be grateful for.

Ain't you sweet as honey bees
You're incredibly kind and patient with me, just like honey bees are sweet.

I just wish I wasn't broken
I wish I didn't have these deep-seated issues that are causing problems in our relationship.

And all those miles on your car
You've put a lot of time and energy into being with me, traveling back and forth to see me.

I wish that I could give them back
I regret all the time and effort you've put into our relationship because of how poorly I've treated you.

I wish you never picked me up
I wish you never involved yourself in my life because it's only caused you pain.

I wish I never smiled back
I regret ever engaging with you and giving you a reason to pursue me.

And I wish I said nothing
I regret ever saying "I love you" back to you.

When you told me that you loved me
You expressed your love for me, but I wish I never reciprocated it.

And all those fuckin' love songs
All these love songs I wrote only serve as a painful reminder of how much I've hurt you.

I wish I never wrote 'em
I regret ever creating those love songs for you.

But really most of all
Out of everything I regret, this is the most significant.

I wish I wasn't lyin'
I truly wish I hadn't been dishonest with you throughout our relationship.

And I wish I had the time
I wish I had more time--to make things right and to be a better partner to you.

To tell you what I mean
I wish I could explain to you how I'm feeling and what I'm going through.

I'm always showing up late
I keep showing up late in our relationship, both physically and emotionally.

Like our very first date
From the very beginning of our relationship, I've been running behind.

I ran away to Hollywood
I'm always escaping--this time, physically, by fleeing to Hollywood.

And said I see you some day
At the time, I promised that I'd come back and see you again one day.