The Way I Am
Ana Lyrics

Patient 307
Referring to a person who is experiencing strange behaviors

Has been
Indicates the past tense of the behavior and actions of Patient 307

Experiencing some weird behaviors
Patient 307 is going through unusual conduct and mannerisms

And acting strangely
Patient 307 is displaying unusual actions that seem alarming

Some people think it's Schizophrenia but
Other individuals believe the symptoms may be related to a mental health disorder such as Schizophrenia

I think it's the Devil
The lyricist believes that Patient 307's behavior is caused by a demonic spirit

They say I was the odd kid
Others labeled the lyricist as strange or different

They be staring a lot
People often gaze at the lyricist due to their abnormal behavior

Fire to empty the cartridge
The lyricist experiences negative thoughts and emotions which may result in harmful actions

I be thinking a lot
The lyricist frequently ponders and ruminates on their experiences and feelings

Finding myself in the office
The lyricist goes to a mental health facility or doctor's office for help

They be asking a lot
The healthcare professionals inquire about the lyricist's mental state and history

Asking them where the bar is
The lyricist is asking for a coping mechanism or advice on how to handle their thoughts and feelings

Cuz I been through a lot
The lyricist has had a tumultuous past and feels overwhelmed

I am unstable been thinking of killing and when I do kill them I'll do it while grinning
The lyricist is experiencing violent and homicidal thoughts that bring them amusement

I don't make friends get the fuck out my business
The lyricist lacks the desire to form friendships and prefers to be left alone

Been to hell so I'm comfortable sinning
The lyricist has experienced traumatic events that lead them to engage in immoral behavior

Got the pain in my chest no time for repenting
The lyricist feels emotional and psychological pain and doesn't feel the urgency to ask for forgiveness

I'm wanting this bad so i gotta keep winning
The lyricist has a strong desire to succeed and will do whatever it takes to attain their goals

The things that I've done what a horrible feeling
The lyricist feels regretful and guilty for their past actions

Evil thoughts in head I look at the ceiling
The lyricist is experiencing demonic or negative thoughts and expressions

I've never experienced anything like this before
The lyricist feels overwhelmed and has never encountered these feelings or thoughts in their life

It seems like when you walk into the room you are drawn to him
Others are attracted to the strange or unusual behavior of Patient 307

So sinister
The behavior of Patient 307 is ominous or evil

So evil yet
Despite being malevolent, others are still drawn to Patient 307's behavior

You can control yourself
Others feel like they have the power to resist the influence of Patient 307's strange behavior

It's strange
The behavior is unusual and alarming

Maybe I wasn't bright enough
The lyricist questions if they had the intelligence to recognize their behavior was abnormal

Or maybe I wasn't shy enough
The lyricist wonders if they could have avoided attention if they were more reserved

Or maybe the issues I'm dealing with daily require a lighter touch
The lyricist ponders if a different approach or sensitivity would be more effective in helping them

Or maybe the fact they called me a bad child made me lie a lot
The lyricist considers the possibility that negative labels or treatment caused them to dishonestly respond

Or maybe my efforts and trying aren't good enough
The lyricist is feeling inadequate in their efforts to improve their mental state and behavior

Now I don't give a fuck
The lyricist seems to have given up on trying to change their behavior or gain approval from others

Now I'm just giving up
The lyricist has resigned themselves to their current state and has lost hope for any improvement in the future

Broke or a casket - options are limited
The lyricist feels hopeless and like they only have two poor choices

I don't get it man
The lyricist is feeling confused and lost

I never got a plan
The lyricist is directionless and lacks any sense of purpose or aspiration

Never trusted in me they believing more in slender man
The lyricist feels unsupported and untrusted by others, who prefer to believe in a fictional character

Now I gotta question do I even have better plan
The lyricist is questioning if they have the capability to develop or execute a successful plan

Gotta lot of listeners but never really got a fan
The lyricist has an audience, but no one who truly appreciates or supports their work

Gotta allot patience but I never really had at chance
The lyricist has tried to be patient, but has never had the opportunity to succeed

Or a friend
The lyricist feels isolated and alone without any close relationships

Dying off a lonely man
The lyricist feels like they will die alone without having any meaningful connections with others

I decided to make contact with patient 307
The lyricist seeks to talk or engage with the person displaying troubling behavior (Patient 307)

It felt the same way its always been
The experience is not different or unexpected

Just a strange and warning feeling
The behavior still felt eerie and alarming

But then he turned to be slowly
Patient 307 slowly became more unsettling

Those darkened eyes
Patient 307 has intense, ominous eyes

You could just sense pure evil
Others feel an overwhelming and undeniable sense of malevolence from Patient 307

Just horrific intentions to my body
The lyricist senses that Patient 307 has damaging or dangerous intentions towards them

I just
The lyricist is feeling overwhelmed and unable to cope with the situation

I couldn't take it
The experience was too much to handle for the lyricist

I think after that Ima take my life
The experience has led the lyricist to contemplate suicide

I am not evil just misunderstood
The lyricist does not believe they are malevolent, but rather have been misjudged

If I could do good you know that I would
The lyricist wishes they were capable of doing good

Since a little kid I always felt strange
The feeling of being different or unusual has always been present for the lyricist

The doctors say It's a virus in my brain
Medical professionals think that the strange behavior is caused by a brain disorder or illness

The churches say curses with devilish names
Religious groups believe that the behavior is due to a demonic curse or influence

After today the things won't be the same
The experience has had a profound impact and will bring about significant changes

For the first time in my life I feel sane
The lyricist feels a sense of clarity or sanity for the first time

Embrace who I am I am never gon change
The lyricist has accepted their behavior and identity and will not change in the future