Death Of Me
Andy Mineo Lyrics

Yeah, pocket full of boarding passes
I have a lot of opportunities to travel and perform.

Huh, I don't know what city I was in last
I've been traveling so much that I can't keep track of where I am.

But I'm out here trying to make an impact
I'm working hard to make a difference in the world.

Same time keep myself intact
I'm also trying to take care of myself and stay true to who I am.

Say, take it, take it easy A like it's gym class
I need to slow down and not push myself too hard, like in gym class.

Tell me how I could? there's slaves in the world
It's hard for me to relax when I know there are people suffering as slaves.

Before I die I'm trying to see us end that
I have a goal to help end slavery before I pass away.

So I move fast, Ramadan
I keep moving quickly and efficiently, like during the Ramadan fast.

Ugh, most fast, autobahn
I try to move at a fast pace, like on the autobahn, without slowing down.

Who cares if I ever get a grammy nom
I don't really care about getting Grammy nominations.

If my soul takes L's, phenomenon
What's truly important is if my soul suffers, not the external recognition.

Still can't believe I get paid for this
I'm grateful that I can make a living doing what I love.

As a kid all I did was pray for this
When I was younger, all I wished for was to have this opportunity.

Now I'm living out my dream, craziest
It's incredible to be living my dream now.

Got me really feeling like I was made for this!
I truly believe that I was meant to be in this position.

At the same time never knew how dangerous
But at the same time, I never realized how dangerous it could be.

It could be when lives start getting changed to this
When my work starts impacting and changing people's lives.

When somebody say you they favorite
When someone tells me that I'm their favorite artist.

Guess it carry some weight to it
This holds a lot of significance.

You know, 'cause ugh
Because, you know...

That's power and that's influence, the temptation is
Having power and influence comes with temptations.

To use it for myself and serve somebody else
The temptation is to use my influence for personal gain instead of helping others.

I'm sitting here buggin just rememberin
I'm reflecting and realizing.

What them rappers showed me, ugh
The lessons I learned from other rappers.

How to bag a honey, stack the money
They taught me how to attract girls and make a lot of money.

They said I was a mac by the number of shorties that I could smash
They defined my worth by the number of girls I could be with.

Now I'm waiting on that matrimony
But now I desire a committed relationship.

Cuz, I've been changed up, lil homie came up
I've grown and matured, little homie.

It's depressing, kicking with dudes I used to look up to
It's sad to spend time with guys I used to admire.

They still on that same stuff
They haven't changed or grown.

I ain't have no role models, now I gotta be one
I didn't have any positive influences, so now I have to be one for others.

I bought the lie hip-hop sold me, man I want a refund
I believed the falsehoods that hip-hop presented, and now I regret it.

I feel like it's the real me
I feel like my true self.

Feel me?
Do you understand?

Yeah, I been changed
Yes, I have changed.

But I'm still me
But I'm still true to myself.

What I am now
Who I am currently.

Not what I will be
Not the person I will become in the future.

I'm trying to give life
I'm striving to bring positivity and meaning to people's lives.

But this could be the death of me
But this career and lifestyle could also be detrimental to my well-being.

Look, mama feel like she losing me
My mother feels like she's losing me to this lifestyle.

To this lifestyle that's consuming me
This lifestyle is taking over and consuming me.

I travel every weekend
I'm constantly traveling for my career.

Even when I'm weak, man
Even when I'm exhausted or not feeling well, man.

You know what that to do to me (Huh?)
You can imagine the toll it takes on me.

Back pain, back pain
I suffer from back pain due to constant traveling.

Sleeping on planes and feeling like Bruce Wayne
I sleep on planes and sometimes feel like a superhero, like Bruce Wayne.

Blackout at night on that stage
I completely lose myself and lose awareness on stage.

Man, I need a batcave just to get away (Uhh)
I need a private place to escape and recharge, like Batman's batcave.

Jesus retreated to speak with his Father
Even Jesus took time away to pray and seek guidance.

I know that I need it
I understand the importance of spending time with God.

My career been growing
My career has been flourishing and expanding.

But tell me where I'm going if my time with God is depleted (Nowhere)
But what direction am I headed if I don't prioritize my relationship with God?

God, I'm sorry, I mean it
God, I apologize sincerely.

All I want to do is walk with you but
I desire to have a close, intimate relationship with God.

My priorities wrong, I talk about you more than I talk with you (Uhh)
My priorities are messed up, I talk about God more than I actually communicate with Him.

One of my mentors taught me
One of the people who guides and advises me taught me.

Whenever things get foggy
When things become unclear or confusing.

If you wanna grow in God
If you want to experience spiritual growth.

It's not complicated
It's actually simple.

It's just costly
It requires sacrificing time and effort.

Gotta spend that time, currency
You have to invest time, like it's currency.

Uhh, overtime guess I learned to be
Through experience, I've learned to be.

Uhh, strong enough to admit I'm weak
Strong enough to acknowledge my weaknesses.

To meet with God all I need is me
To have a personal connection with God, all I need is myself.

Yeah, 2014 bout' to be different
In 2014, things are going to change.

I think my favorite word will be no
I will start saying 'no' more often.

Opportunities come and they go, but
Opportunities are temporary and fleeting.

None of them is worth my soul
None of them are worth sacrificing my soul or well-being for.

That's something that you can't afford, and
It's not something you should risk or compromise.

Got me thinking what's most important
It has made me reflect on what truly matters.

Uhh, I get kicks watching grown men in line for some Jordans
I find it amusing to see adults waiting in line for sneakers.

Nowadays, time is fortune, but chasing fortune is all consuming
In today's world, time is valuable, but chasing money can consume all your time.

I feel like God is calling dudes
I believe that God is calling men to a higher purpose.

They just wanna play Call of Duty
But instead, they're more interested in playing video games.

This that Peter Pan
This is like Peter Pan.

At the dinner table out in Never Land
Having a meal in a magical place where you never grow up.

Eating, can't nobody see it but me and my boys
We're enjoying our meal together without anyone else around.

That's the way I wanna keep it
That's how I prefer it to be.

Huh, I lost a couple friends to this new season
I lost a few friends during this new phase of my life.

Jealousy and hate for a few reasons
They were jealous and hateful for various reasons.

Used to be down, now whassup?
They used to support me, but now they're distant.

Guess everybody around when the fun's up (Yeah)
It seems like everyone is only there when things are going well.

Got me feeling isolated
I feel alone and disconnected.

Women wanna holla, I just tell em' that I'm taken
Women want my attention, but I inform them that I'm in a committed relationship.

Even if I wasn't I'd be slow for the taking
Even if I were single, I wouldn't rush into a new relationship.

I don't know if they love me or the money I'm making (I don't know!)
I'm unsure if they care for me or just my financial success.

Ain't no way to really tell
There's no definite way to know.

Where somebody heart truly at
Where someone's true intentions lie.

Bad girls coming at me looking good
Attractive women approach me.

Showing off they body, that's a booby trap
But their intention may simply be to entrap or distract me.

Been low, but I never let my guard down (Huh?)
I've experienced low moments, but I've always remained cautious.

Buddy, I ain't crazy
No, I'm not crazy.

You ain't bout' to catch me slipping
I won't allow myself to be caught off guard or vulnerable.

Pull a million dollar baby! (No sir!)
I won't let anyone knock me down, like in the movie 'Million Dollar Baby'!

Me and Dre trying to eat good
My friend Dre and I are striving for success and financial stability.

Cutting out the nonsense
We're eliminating unnecessary distractions or drama.

On the road trying to give life (Huh?)
While traveling, we're attempting to bring positivity and inspiration to others.

But, I might lose mine in the process
However, I must be cautious not to lose my own sense of self and well-being.

I ain't have no role models, now I gotta be one
I lacked positive influences, so now I have to set an example for others.

I bought the lie hip-hop sold me, man I want a refund
I believed the false narratives presented in hip-hop, and now I regret it and want to reverse it.