Shame
Andy Mineo feat. Josh Garrels Lyrics

You fly in circles around my head
My struggles and insecurities constantly surround me, making it difficult to find peace.

While I sit on the edge of my bed
I am often alone and feeling overwhelmed by my thoughts and struggles.

I cry, oh, what have I done again?
I am plagued by feelings of guilt and regret for my mistakes and shortcomings.

It's hard not to hate who I am
My struggles and failures have led me to feel unworthy and ashamed of myself.

I chase the moment that when I had it I felt alive
I am constantly searching for experiences that make me feel alive and fulfilled.

But now that the thrill is gone, I feel dead inside
When these experiences end, I am left feeling empty and unfulfilled.

I feel like everyone know the secrets I wanna hide
I am constantly worried that others will discover my insecurities and struggles.

And every time they ask me how I'm doing, I just say "I'm fine"
I struggle to open up and share my feelings with others, often putting on a facade of being okay.

Too embarrassed to share it or maybe too much pride
I am ashamed and hesitant to open up about my struggles, perhaps because of fear of judgment or appearing weak.

I create my own prison, holding the keys inside
My fears and insecurities keep me trapped and unable to break free from my negative thought patterns.

Punishing myself for all of these crimes
I often feel guilty and punish myself for my mistakes, leading to a cycle of shame and self-blame.

And I'm trying to convince God that I'm not a waste of His time
I struggle with feelings of worthlessness and seek validation and acceptance from a higher power.

What's wrong with me? Am I defective?
I question and doubt myself and my abilities, leading to a negative self-image.

I keep on making a mess, why can't I ever get it together?
I become frustrated and discouraged by my constant mistakes and failures.

Soon people gon' find out I'm not what they expected
I fear that others will discover my flaws and shortcomings and reject me for them.

They see who I really am then I end up rejected
I worry that disclosing my true self and struggles will lead to rejection and judgment from others.

I try to stand tall, but these knees are collapsing
I try to appear strong and confident but my struggles and insecurities weigh me down and make it difficult to do so.

'Stead of asking for help these apps'll distract me
I turn to distractions and avoidance instead of seeking help and support for my struggles.

So lonely, but so many people are friending me
I feel isolated and alone despite having many connections and friends on social media.

While I post, I hope one day to be happy as I pretend to be
I share a fake version of myself with others online in hopes of one day finding genuine happiness and fulfillment.

Uh, I was thirteen the first time my momma caught me watching porn
The artist shares a personal struggle with addiction and temptation that began at a young age.

She started screaming, she couldn't believe her last born
The artist's struggles and mistakes have caused pain and disappointment to those close to him.

I wish I could have said it was my last time, but nah, it wasn't
The artist expresses regret for not being able to break free from his addiction and temptation despite wanting to do so.

And the more I thought about it, the more I got bothered
The artist becomes increasingly troubled by the effects and consequences of his addiction and mistakes.

These women I'm objectifying are somebody's daughters
The artist recognizes the harm and disrespect he causes by objectifying and using others for his own satisfaction.

I never really thought I had a problem till it followed me to college
The artist was in denial about the severity of his addiction until it began to have more significant impacts on his life.

And I felt debilitated by its bondage, uh
The artist feels trapped and limited by his addiction and its effects on his life and well-being.

Became a Christian, heard about God's power
The artist turned to religion and spirituality as a means of finding strength and redemption for his struggles and mistakes.

Couldn't see it in my life, but I could tell you all about it
The artist struggles to see evidence of God's power and love in his own life despite his religious beliefs and teachings.

Overloaded with knowledge, making so little progress
The artist has gained a lot of knowledge and insight into his struggles and faith but finds it difficult to make meaningful progress in his own life.

Became a public figure, but my struggles were in private
The artist became famous and well-known despite keeping his personal struggles and mistakes private and hidden from the public eye.

Only started tasting freedom when I'm being honest
The artist finds liberation and freedom from his struggles and addiction by being truthful and honest about his mistakes and insecurities.

And I learn that when I'm weak is when I'm seeing God the strongest
The artist discovers that his weaknesses and vulnerabilities are when he is most in touch with his spirituality and faith.

I know some people gon' be quick to throw stones
The artist anticipates judgment and criticism from others for his mistakes and struggles.

But I'll take all of those hits so you know that you not alone
The artist is willing to face criticism and judgment as a means of providing support and comfort to others who may be struggling with similar issues.

And after 28 years of life, I decided
The artist has come to a significant realization or decision after many years of struggle and introspection.

Everybody's crooked, some just do a better job at hiding it
The artist recognizes that everyone has flaws and imperfections, but some people are better at concealing or managing them than others.

Oh, how good does freedom taste?
The artist experiences a sense of liberation and freedom from his struggles and insecurities and expresses happiness and gratitude for it.

I hope they give me the forgiveness they gon' need one day, I pray
The artist hopes that others will offer him forgiveness and understanding for his mistakes and struggles and prays that he can do the same for others.

Jesus, He washes away all of my sin
The artist finds redemption and forgiveness for his mistakes and struggles through his faith in Jesus Christ.

Washes away all my sin
The artist experiences a sense of cleansing and purification from his past mistakes and struggles through his faith.

He washes away all of my sin
The artist emphasizes the transformative and restorative power of his faith in Jesus Christ.

Oh, oh, oh
The artist includes a repetitive, melodic refrain to emphasize his message and emotion throughout the song.