Cursed
Anet Lyrics

I pierced my eyelids my belly my toes
I hurt myself in many ways, cutting through my flesh and causing blood to flow

Poke holes through my skin till blood began to flow
I inflicted wounds on myself, causing my blood to flow out of my skin

But I can't get away from myself
Despite my self-harm, I cannot escape from my true nature and identity

No I can't get away from myself
I feel trapped within my own mind and cannot escape from my thoughts and feelings

I smoked and drank and inhaled and swallowed
I indulged in various substances like cigarettes, alcohol, and drugs

Danced in a trance ritual with belladonna
I participated in a hypnotic dance ceremony with the poisonous plant belladonna

Escaped for a brief eternity but too soon
For a short period, I managed to escape from reality, but it did not last long enough

The pain came back again to awake me
My suffering returned and reminded me of my situation

So I did myself in but I came back again
I tried to kill myself, but I survived and lived on

And when I got back in I had to pay for my sins
After my attempted suicide, I had to suffer the consequences of my actions

And learn it all again yea learn it all again
I had to go through the same experiences and lessons all over again

And it was harder this time yes it was harder this time
The second time around, it was even more difficult and painful

IT WAS HARDER THIS TIME
The repetition of this phrase emphasizes the intensity of the difficulty

Can't get away can't get away can't get away from myself
I am still unable to escape from my own self despite my attempts

I sat inside an icecube held a dream up hostage
I isolated myself in a frozen prison and held onto a dream that I couldn't achieve

Threatened and cursed and painted a violently beautiful seascape
I expressed my anger and frustration by painting a picture of a beautiful ocean, but with dark undertones

Knelt and wept and yelled when I pulled my nails off
I fell to my knees, cried, and screamed when I self-harmed by pulling off my nails

Loved and sexed and spat and spewed all my juices
I engaged in passionate and impulsive acts of love, sex, and bodily fluids

Out of onto and mixed up With a kiss
All of my emotions and experiences were intermingled and confused with a kiss

And it was this kiss that saved me from all pain
This kiss brought me a moment of relief and freedom from my suffering

There was a child And the butterfly carried all my wishes onto the windy breeze
A child was present, and a butterfly symbolically carried my hopes and dreams away on the wind

The sun The silky curtain
The sun shone through a delicate and peaceful curtain

And I can't get away from myself
Despite moments of relief, I am still unable to escape from my own self and the pain it brings