Black Dahlia
Angel Haze Lyrics


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You should write a song where the concept is
You're basically writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice
To your mother, when she was your age

I don't know
Maybe I would write you a happy ending
I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
Or maybe I'm naïve
Maybe I'm just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
It would somehow grow inside you

Spent so much of my time wishing you were different
But reality is that with life can't never be provision
But if I could wish for one thing, I'd go back and I'd fix it
I'd tackle all your obstacles and kill 'em with precision
And better the intentions of every single person
Who'd play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is
I'd shower you with purpose, I'd wipe hate off the surface
I'd reshape all your pain and make it fucking worth it
No more feeling worthless, no more fucking searching
No more of that fraud shit, nobody else could hurt you
Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you
And if they ever tried too I'd wipe 'em from the Earth too
'Cause I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
I know that you been running from everything that's behind you
I know you've been burying everything deep inside you
I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
But I'm stuck sitting in this time frame
Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game
One day it could get better, maybe it could get better
Maybe we could change shit, no more inclement weather
Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind
You were just like me, wish that you had more time
To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel
Wouldn't lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger

Everything is different now, nothing is the same
And nowadays I swear it feels like you don't know my name
But I look at the mirror and I see you every day
I'm you in every way, every hue and every shade
And maybe you should know, it's the last thing that I wanted
'Cause what I hate about you makes me feel like I'm haunted
And I don't wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and-
So I'm just gonna confront it, yeah I'm just gonna confront it
And tell you that I love you for everything you made me
And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry
God lives inside you, you've already found him
The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you
And I despise your church for every fucking thing they taught you
It's just a fucking stain that I wish I could wipe off you
That I wish I could wipe off you
And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you
Everything that it caused price I wish it didn't cost you
Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell
Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail
Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of
Now I realize that I could never make it with that love
Now I realize that shit is the alternative outcome
Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count some
I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on
I wish you knew that you could never make it without love
For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else
'Cause I would help you find you
And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you
And if that meant the end of me
I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy end in peace

Because, you are such a special thing
You're not just my mom, but you're the reason I exist
And the best life that you could've had for yourself without making a mistake
Would have meant I woulda had a nicer childhood
And even though my childhood wasn't perfect and I still love you
I just want you to know that if I could go back and do one thing for you
Or be one person for you
I would make sure, not just for my sake, but so that you could've had a nicer life
And a nicer childhood, that you know
You would not have made the mistakes that put us all in this bad situation
And not have the strength to leave
But just so that you would have been happier and stronger
Even if I didn't exist, even it meant that I was never born
That's what I would have wanted for you

Yeah, and if that meant the end of me
I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
'Cause I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
I know you've been running from everything that's behind you
I know that you've been burying everything deep inside you
I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
And if that meant the end of me
I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
And if that meant the end of me
I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
And if that meant the end of me
I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending

I don't know
Maybe I would write you a happy ending
I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
Or maybe I'm naïve
Maybe I'm just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
It would somehow grow inside you
And that I could hide you from the rain
So that it could be easier for happiness to find you
Or maybe I'm still a kid who's caught in a dream
I'm the heir to the throne of a princess who's still trying to be queen




Or maybe we're all just caught in the winds of a massacre
The blackened leaves of dying, black dahlias

Overall Meaning

Angel Haze’s “Black Dahlia” is a powerful rap that delves deep into the artist’s relationship with her mother. In the song, Angel Haze imagines writing a song that would serve as a love letter and a piece of advice to her mother if she were her age. She envisions a happy ending for her mother and wishes she could go back in time to fix all her struggles and obstacles with precision. The artist recognizes her mother's pain and deep internal struggles, but she acknowledges her strength and how much of an impact her mother has had on her life, including helping her come into existence. Angel Haze acknowledges that her childhood wasn’t ideal, but still loves her mother and hopes for a better life for her.


The lyrics of the song are poignant and raw, and the way in which Angel Haze speaks about her mother’s pain and suffering is done so with a great deal of empathy and understanding. The artist recognizes the deep pain and sadness her mother has gone through and wishes that she could have fixed it all for her. The lyrics are a testament to the love between a mother and daughter and the powerful bond that exists between them.


Line by Line Meaning

You should write a song where the concept is
You should express your feelings through a song with a specific theme


You're basically writing like a love letter, or like a piece of advice
You're essentially composing a message of love or guidance


To your mother, when she was your age
To your mother, imagining her at the same stage of life as you are now


I don't know
I am uncertain


Maybe I would write you a happy ending
Perhaps I would craft a conclusion with joy and contentment


I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
I would alter the order of events that caused sadness in the start


I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
I would separate you from the unhealthy origins that shaped you


And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
And allow you to encounter the various paths to happiness that lie ahead


Or maybe I'm naïve
Or perhaps I am overly optimistic


Maybe I'm just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
Perhaps I am a young person who believed that by initiating change, I could make a difference


It would somehow grow inside you
It would have a transformative impact on you


Spent so much of my time wishing you were different
I invested a significant amount of time desiring a change in you


But reality is that with life can't never be provision
But the truth is that we cannot control how life unfolds


But if I could wish for one thing, I'd go back and I'd fix it
But if I had the power to fulfill one wish, I would go back and correct it


I'd tackle all your obstacles and kill 'em with precision
I would challenge and overcome all the barriers in your path with utmost accuracy


And better the intentions of every single person
And improve the thoughts and motives of every individual


Who'd play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is
Who would contribute to your understanding of your own value


I'd shower you with purpose, I'd wipe hate off the surface
I would immerse you in a sense of purpose and eradicate any animosity


I'd reshape all your pain and make it fucking worth it
I would transform all your suffering into something meaningful


No more feeling worthless, no more fucking searching
No more experiencing a lack of worth, no more ceaseless pursuit


No more of that fraud shit, nobody else could hurt you
No more deceit or deception, no one else could cause you harm


Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you
Yes, I affirm that nobody else has the power to hurt you


And if they ever tried too I'd wipe 'em from the Earth too
And if they attempted to, I would eliminate them as well


'Cause I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
Because I understand that you're in pain, baby, I know that you're exhausted too


I know that you been running from everything that's behind you
I know that you've been escaping from everything in your past


I know you've been burying everything deep inside you
I know that you've been suppressing everything within you


I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
I can see that it's slowly destroying you, I wish I could bring you back to life


But I'm stuck sitting in this time frame
But I'm trapped in this particular period of time


Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game
Battling my inner demons and engaging in foolish mental games


One day it could get better, maybe it could get better
One day, things could improve, perhaps they will


Maybe we could change shit, no more inclement weather
Perhaps we can bring about change, no more unfavorable circumstances


Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind
I'm aware that you despised your mother, I know it crossed your thoughts


You were just like me, wish that you had more time
You were similar to me, I wish you had more time


To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel
To perceive life from a fresh perspective, struggle with a new challenge


Wouldn't lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger
You wouldn't lose your innocence and experience a sudden downfall


Everything is different now, nothing is the same
Everything has changed now, nothing remains as it was


And nowadays I swear it feels like you don't know my name
And these days it seems like you don't recognize me


But I look at the mirror and I see you every day
But when I look in the mirror, I see you reflected every day


I'm you in every way, every hue and every shade
I embody you entirely, in every aspect and variation


And maybe you should know, it's the last thing that I wanted
And perhaps you should be aware, it's the least desirable outcome for me


'Cause what I hate about you makes me feel like I'm haunted
Because the aspects I dislike about you torment me


And I don't wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and-
And I don't want to spend the rest of my life evading and-


So I'm just gonna confront it, yeah I'm just gonna confront it
So I will simply face it head-on, yes, I will face it head-on


And tell you that I love you for everything you made me
And express my love for you because of how you shaped me


And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry
And it's important for you to hear this, even if it angers you


God lives inside you, you've already found him
Divinity resides within you, you have already discovered it


The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you
Evil resides in memories, and you allow it to torment you


And I despise your church for every fucking thing they taught you
And I detest the teachings of your church for everything they instilled in you


It's just a fucking stain that I wish I could wipe off you
It's just a repugnant mark that I long to erase from you


That I wish I could wipe off you
That I yearn to remove from you


And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you
And I pardon you for all that it has cost you


Everything that it caused price I wish it didn't cost you
All the consequences it brought, I wish it hadn't impacted you


Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell
Losing a piece of myself that would accompany you through the darkest times


Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail
Follow you into a state of animosity or imprisonment


Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of
Followed you into patterns from which I could never escape


Now I realize that I could never make it with that love
Now I understand that I could never thrive with that kind of love


Now I realize that shit is the alternative outcome
Now I understand that misery is the alternative result


Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I could count some
I never wanted you to rescue me, I just wished I could rely on you


I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on
I just wish you had grown up with someone dependable


I wish you knew that you could never make it without love
I wish you understood that you couldn't thrive without love


For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else
For your own sake, and that you wouldn't seek it in another person


'Cause I would help you find you
Because I would assist you in discovering the true you


And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you
And if I witnessed it destroying you, I promise I would bring you back to life


And if that meant the end of me
And if that resulted in my own demise


I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy end in peace
I would do everything for you so you could find your blissful conclusion in serenity


Yeah, and if that meant the end of me
Yes, and if that resulted in my own demise


I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
I would do everything for you so you could find your blissful conclusion


And if that meant the end of me
And if that resulted in my own demise


I'd do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
I would do everything for you so you could find your blissful conclusion




Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: Angel Haze, Jason Wallace, Markus Dravs, Raykeea Wilson

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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

Laila Ward

I don’t know
Maybe I would write you a happy ending
I would rearrange the pieces to your sad beginning
I would put you far away from the decaying roots that bore you
And let you experience all the ways that happiness could bloom before you
Or maybe I’m naïve…
Maybe I’m just a kid who thought that if she could plant a seed
It would somehow grow inside you

Spent so much of my time wishing you were different
But reality is that with life can't never be provision
But if I could wish for one thing, I’d go back and I’d fix it
I’d tackle all your obstacles and kill 'em with precision
And better the intentions of every single person
Who'd play a part in you learning exactly what your worth is
I’d shower you with purpose, I’d wipe hate off the surface
I’d reshape all your pain and make it fucking worth it
No more feeling worthless, no more fucking searching
No more of that fraud shit, nobody else could hurt you
Yeah, said nobody else could hurt you
And if they ever tried too I’d wipe 'em from the Earth too
Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
I know that you been running from everything that’s behind you
I know you’ve been burying everything deep inside you
I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
But I’m stuck sitting in this time frame
Struggling with my demons and playing these stupid mind game
One day it could get better, maybe it could get better
Maybe we could change shit, no more inclement weather
Know you hated your mom, know it went through your mind
You were just like me, wish that you had more time
To see life from a different angle, wrestle with a different angel
Wouldn’t lose your wings and fall from heaven like a cliffhanger

Everything is different now, nothing is the same
And nowadays I swear it feels like you don’t know my name
But I look at the mirror and I see you every day
I’m you in every way, every hue and every shade
And maybe you should know, it’s the last thing that I wanted
Cuz what I hate about you makes me feel like I’m haunted
And I don’t wanna spend the rest of my time on the run and-
So I’m just gonna confront it, yeah I’m just gonna confront it
And tell you that I love you for everything you made me
And that you need to hear this even if it makes you angry
God lives inside you, you’ve already found him
The Devil lives in memories and you just let him hound you
And I despise your church for every fucking thing they taught you
It’s just a fucking stain that I wish I could wipe off you
That I wish I could wipe off you
And I forgive you for doing everything that it cost you
Everything that it caused price I wish it didn’t cost you
Losing a part of me that would follow you to Hell
Follow you to hatred, or follow you to jail
Followed you to patterns that I could never get out of
Now I realize that I could never make it with that love
Now I realize that shit is the alternative outcome
Never wanted you to save me, I just wish I count some
I just wish that you grew up with someone you could count on
I wish you knew that you could never make it without love
For your goddamn self, and that you never ever find it in anybody else
Cuz I would help you find you
And if I saw it killing you I swear I would revive you
And if that meant the end of me
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy end in peace

Because, you are such a special thing
You’re not just my mom, but you’re the reason I exist
And the best life that you could’ve had for yourself without making a mistake
Would have meant I woulda had a nicer childhood
And even though my childhood wasn’t perfect and I still love you
I just want you to know that if I could go back and do one thing for you
Or be one person for you
I would make sure, not just for my sake, but so that you could’ve had a nicer life
And a nicer childhood, that you know
You would not have made the mistakes that put us all in this bad situation
And not have the strength to leave
But just so that you would have been happier and stronger
Even if I didn’t exist, even it meant that I was never born
That’s what I would have wanted for you

Yeah, and if that meant the end of me
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
Cuz I know that you hurting baby, I know that you tired too
I know you’ve been running from everything that’s behind you
I know that you’ve been burying everything deep inside you
I can see it killing you, wish that I could revive you
And if that meant the end of me
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
And if that meant the end of me
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending
And if that meant the end of me
I’d do it all for you so you could have your happy ending



All comments from YouTube:

Moniica Kelly

I sent this to my birth mom. it made us both cry. and I think this song partly saved our relationship, I swear we seem closer now, more than ever

Sierra's Lisp

When I sent this to my mom she only picked out the lyrics she didnt like and criticized me for it. Glad you and your mother bonded over it. That's what I hoped would happen with me.

MR. J

@Sierra's Lisp my mom would of did the same

Jeffrey Ohler

That's why I love lyrical music. Sometimes it's easier to let others say what you may find hard to!!!

Michelle Maisano

My daughter sent me this song and it brought me to tears. It's def hit home

Natalia Martir

Can I ask, how exactly does it make you feel that your daughter dedicated this song to you? I'm thinking of using it as a family therapy piece but am not sure if it would just open Pandora's box and wreck my mom. I love & miss her, SO much!! 😭💔💔💔

lee meyerhoffer

The lyrics and music to this song are epic!

No Nino

This is what should be on the radio!!!

Krishna Suga

this made me cry ...i felt every word and saw the pain .

lindalamb222

me too

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