Crown
Angel Haze Lyrics

Take a breath, say you love me
Pause for a moment, express your affection towards me

We both know that everything changes
We are aware of the inevitability of change

Keep in mind that none of this is fiction
Be aware that this is all real and not made up

This is just a glimpse into the head of a menace
This gives a brief insight into the mind of someone viewed as a troublemaker

We were two different children
We had different upbringings

But we born of the same moon
But we share the same roots

Blowing entire opposite
Completely different

We were brought up the same too
However, we were raised in similar environments

I used to hate you because they celebrate you
I used to dislike you because others praised you

And you made them notice every single thing I can’t do
And you brought attention to my shortcomings

But really I honestly wanted to be you
But truthfully, I aspired to be like you

And I just hope my desire to wasn’t that see through
I hope my admiration towards you wasn't too obvious

I never took into account the things that you were hiding
I didn't realize the struggles and secrets you were dealing with

I even understood your rage when I see you get violent
I even sympathized with your anger when you became aggressive

I guess the height of all my envy was leaving me blinded
My jealousy towards you blinded me from truly understanding you

Until you sat me down and told me how crazy your life is
Until you confided in me about the difficulties in your life

You said to run and never look back
You advised me to leave and not look back

And if I did, to never lose track of all the hurdles I was jumping
And if I did leave, to keep in mind the obstacles I had overcome

That lead me to my current goal
That brought me to where I am now

Don’t sell your soul baby you are dirty gold
Don't give up your integrity, you are unique and valuable despite your flaws

Took a chance, said you’d love me
Took a risk, stated that you would love me

You found me when I was dying and unappreciated
You discovered me when I was struggling and unnoticed

You broke me down into a science that I completely hated
You analyzed and scrutinized me in a way that I despised

You told impeccable talent didn’t make me less average
You explained that having extraordinary talent doesn't make me any less normal

But how I use it to my advantage determined my passion
But utilizing my talent to my benefit determined my drive

It took some time to understand and manage
It took some time to comprehend and control

But then I learned this passion was the method to my madness
But then I discovered that my passion was my way of coping with my insanity

And I never got to thank you, at least not in the way I planned
And I never got the chance to express my gratitude in the way I intended

But I had to learn before I did that, I hope you understand
But I needed to learn some important things before I could show my appreciation, I hope you can empathize

It takes a lot for me to bury hatchets but consider them cremated
I usually have a difficult time letting go of grudges, but I have released them

All the ashes burned to ashes
All the remnants have been incinerated

And I’m dusting off my vocal box and finally saying thank you
And I am preparing to express my gratitude vocally

And even though you ain’t my fan, you did the shit they ain’t do
Even though you aren't my supporter, you did things that others didn't

So disregard my temper and the times I fucking hate you
Please ignore my outbursts and moments when I despise you

Because despite all my ignorance I’m really fucking grateful
Despite my lack of understanding, I am truly appreciative

Never forget the importance of the sparks you hold
Don't ever forget the significance of the passion you possess

Took a glance, to some error
Took a look, made a mistake

Now I know that everything changes
Now I understand that everything is subject to change

I used to hate me, I swore my life was too painful
I used to despise myself, convinced that my life was too difficult

Let my demons overtake me before I fight with my angels
I allowed my inner demons to overpower me rather than fighting with my better self

There was constantly a struggle to see my life at an angle
I always found it challenging to perceive my life from a different perspective

That provided understanding of how much drama could change you
That offered insight into how much turmoil can affect one's demeanor

I used to cut myself open just to feel like I was living
I used to self-harm in order to feel something

But when living is just dying then there’s no longer a difference
But when one's existence merely feels like slowly fading away, there's no distinction

There’s no longer existence, and there’s no longer persistence
There is no longer life and no longer the drive to go on

And I thought, if nobody ever loved me
And I wondered, if nobody had ever loved me

This vacancy inside me must be really called a bloodstream
Then this emptiness I feel inside me must be my bloodstream

Then I looked into the world and saw a million people like me
Then I examined the world and observed countless people who share my struggles

Probably never know your stories, but you’re the reason I’m fighting
Perhaps I'll never know your personal experiences, but you are the reason I keep going

You’re the reason I’m writing; music
You are the inspiration behind my music and my words

Could be so reviving
It can be so rejuvenating

And if ever you tend to forget, I’m right here to remind you:
And in case of forgotten, I am here to jog your memory:

Don’t ever give into the hurt you hold
Don't allow the pain you have to consume you

Don’t sell your soul baby you are dirty gold
Don't compromise your values, you are imperfect but still valuable