not today
Annabel Jones Lyrics
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Life taking it's toll again
Slept away the day
Nothing ever changes
I only ever see you in dark
Meet me here, two again
Tell me that you're you again
Human and complete
I only ever see you in the dark (in the dark)
You know I tore out the first page
Hating every word that I say
You know I tore out the first page
Turn up, night time, you're at my door
Holding flowers that you have bought
Just for me
I can't smile, not today
Wrapped up in the view again
Living just for you again
Lost all sense of self
Say you did it for your girl
I only ever see you in the dark
Almost found a place to stay and never fell so deep again
Spent your life alone
In lame of love
I only ever see you in the dark
You know I tore out the first page
Hating every word that I say
You know I tore out the first page
Turn up, night time, you're at my door
Holding flowers that you have bought
Just for me (just for me)
Turn up, night time, you're at my door
You know I tore out the first page
Hating every word that I say
You know I tore out the first page
You know I tore out the first page
Hating every word that I say
You know I tore out the first page
Turn up, night time, you're at my door
Holding flowers that you have bought
Just for me
I can't smile, not today
In Annabel Jones's song "Not Today", the lyrics suggest a sense of exhaustion and defeat. The singer expresses sadness and weariness as they feel trapped in the same cycle of life's tolls and changes that they cannot escape. They find solace in the darkness and only ever see their loved one in that setting, indicating that they may feel isolated, alone, and lost. The singer also tears out the script's first page and hates everything that they say, revealing a sense of self-disdain and lack of control over their life.
The singer's loved one repeatedly shows up at their door with flowers, but the singer cannot smile or feel joy, at least not today. The repetition of "you know I tore out the first page" emphasizes the singer's inability to communicate and be understood, either by others or by themselves. The line "lost all sense of self" implies that the singer feels lost or disconnected from who they are and what they want. The song ends with the singer unable to feign happiness, suggesting the possibility of deep emotional pain and hardship.
Line by Line Meaning
Bottom of the bowl again
Feeling down and defeated once more
Life taking it's toll again
Struggling with the hardships of life once more
Slept away the day
Escaping from reality by sleeping
Nothing ever changes
Feeling stuck in a rut, with no hope for improvement
I only ever see you in dark
Only connecting with someone in moments of difficulty and despair
Meet me here, two again
Reuniting with someone to try to find solace
Tell me that you’re you again
Hoping for someone to reveal their true self, despite their struggles
Human and complete
Accepting someone for who they are, despite their imperfections
Blood, bones, flesh and weakness
Acknowledging the humanity and vulnerability in oneself and others
You know I tore out the first page
Starting over and trying to leave behind negativity
Hating every word that I say
Being critical and self-loathing
Turn up, night time, you’re at my door
Being surprised by a comforting presence in a time of need
Holding flowers that you have bought
Showing love and care for someone in a tangible way
Just for me
Receiving special treatment and affection
Wrapped up in the view again
Losing oneself in the perception of others
Living just for you again
Prioritizing another person's needs above one's own
Lost all sense of self
Feeling disconnected from one's identity and purpose
Say you did it for your girl
Justifying actions that may have hurt oneself or others
Almost found a place to stay and never fell so deep again
Feeling close to stability but ultimately still struggling
Spent your life alone
Feeling isolated and disconnected from others
In lame of love
Attempting to find love but coming up short
I can’t smile, not today
Struggling to find happiness and positivity in the present moment
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: Andrew Maxwell Goldstein, Annabel Charlotte Jones
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