Crystallize
Anne Heaton Lyrics
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The things I believe
How sad is this long drive?
The spirit of philosophy
Emotion overwhelms
And instead decides me
I go right out of my mind
I'm rewriting all the fairytale endings
I will go right out of my mind
I'll be floating just as high
As the snowflakes do before they crystallize
Am I supposed to be keeping track
of all the coincidence?
Should I treat myself in the sense
that I am fragile?
I took it all to heart
I'm putting it inside my bones
I am failing
I am falling
I am pale
I am crawling
I am hating like crumpling paper
I'm already dead
A ball of hair
A dried bee-hive
My vacant stare takes me
Right out of my mind….. Chorus….
I'm so heavy I can't laugh
You nailed me down here to your path
Your suffering I did, I did, I do
Without romance I love
The weight is too much
I can't get up
If there's a toll I know how I'll afford it
I will go right out of my mind
And stay sleeping all the time
Say they're lies all of those fairytale endings
I will go right out of my mind
I'll be floating just as high
As the snowflakes do before they crystallize
And fall and fall and separate
And fall and fall and separate
In Anne Heaton's song Crystallize, the lyrics express the internal struggle of the singer's beliefs, ideas, and emotions. The opening line "Tear apart by category the things I believe" suggests that the character is breaking down their beliefs into different categories and questioning them. This task is weighing on the singer, as expressed in the line "How sad is this long drive?". Despite their inclination towards philosophical thinking to navigate their emotions, "The spirit of philosophy emotion overwhelms and instead decides me". The singer realizes that their emotions are taking the lead and influencing their decisions, even over philosophical reasoning.
As the song progresses, the singer expresses feelings of depression and despair. Reference to being "already dead," "a ball of hair," "a dried bee-hive," and "my vacant stare" is evocative and somewhat haunting. These lines suggest that the singer feels stuck and lacking in emotional vitality. Despite feeling so heavy as to be unable to laugh, the singer continues to love without Romance. The song's repeated refrain of "I will go right out of my mind" suggests a feeling of being trapped, but also a desire to break free.
The song's chorus, "I'll be floating just as high as the snowflakes do before they crystallize and fall and fall and separate," reminds the listener of the fragility of life and the need to embrace it. The singer seems to be expressing a desire to break free from their mental limitations, to be like the crystallizing snowflakes that float high in the sky before falling and separating.
Line by Line Meaning
Tear apart by category
I am analyzing and breaking down the elements of my beliefs, dividing them into categories for closer examination.
The things I believe
I am reflecting on my personal beliefs and questioning their validity.
How sad is this long drive?
I am experiencing a sense of melancholy during this extended car journey.
The spirit of philosophy
I am exploring the realm of philosophy and its implications on my life.
Emotion overwhelms
My emotions are becoming too intense and overpowering.
And instead decides me
Rather than reason, my emotions are guiding my actions and decisions.
I go right out of my mind
I am losing touch with reality and my thoughts are becoming irrational.
I am sleeping all the time
I am escaping my problems by sleeping excessively.
I'm rewriting all the fairytale endings
I am reevaluating my expectations and dreams, recognizing that they may not come true in the way I had hoped.
Am I supposed to be keeping track
I am questioning whether I should be noting and recording coincidences in my life.
of all the coincidence?
I am wondering whether coincidences have deeper meaning and significance.
Should I treat myself in the sense that I am fragile?
I am considering whether I should approach myself with a gentle, delicate touch.
I took it all to heart
I internalized and felt deeply affected by a situation or experience.
I'm putting it inside my bones
I am ingraining this experience into the core of my being.
I am failing
I am falling short of my own expectations or goals.
I am falling
I am descending into a negative emotional state or circumstance.
I am pale
I am feeling unwell or physically weak.
I am crawling
I am struggling to make progress or move forward.
I am hating like crumpling paper
I am feeling intense anger or frustration, causing me to lash out like crumpled paper.
I'm already dead
I feel like I have lost all life or spirit within me.
A ball of hair
I feel like a tangled mess or disarray, like a ball of hair.
A dried bee-hive
My surroundings or situation feel lifeless and barren, like a dried-up beehive.
My vacant stare takes me
My empty, thoughtless expression is leading me to a place of complacency.
You nailed me down here to your path
I feel trapped and restricted by someone else's expectations or demands.
Your suffering I did, I did, I do
I am empathizing and feeling the pain of someone I care about.
Without romance I love
I am capable of loving someone without the traditional romantic gestures or feelings.
The weight is too much
I am feeling overwhelmed by the pressure or responsibility that has been placed on me.
I can't get up
I am struggling to stay motivated and keep moving forward.
If there's a toll I know how I'll afford it
I am aware that there may be a cost or consequence for my actions, but I am willing to bear that burden.
And fall and fall and separate
Things are falling apart and distancing themselves from one another.
And fall and fall and separate
Things continue to unravel and separate from one another.
I will go right out of my mind…. Chorus….
I will continue to lose touch with reality and descend into a state of irrationality.
I'll be floating just as high
I will detach and rise above my current situation, feeling weightless and free.
As the snowflakes do before they crystallize
Like snowflakes, I will transform and become something new and beautiful.
Contributed by Annabelle Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.