Split
Apate Lyrics


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Living with the Devil on my shoulder
That spits in the face of the angel and disobeys orders
They say it's all in my head, he says, "I'm real, let me in"
What the fuck do I believe anymore?
Well, I'm broken - that's for sure

He screams, "You'll never get rid of me"
I scream, I beg, "please leave"
He screams, "I'm here for eternity"
Oh God, please kill me
Fuck
Oh God, please kill me

The Devil won't leave
The Devil won't leave me
The Devil won't leave
The Devil won't leave me

Paranoia sets in
I'll scratch at my skin 'til I tear you out
This second voice that clouds every thought within me
I reached out for help but all I got was left in hell

Because they don't believe me
They all think I'm crazy
Because they don't believe me
They all think I'm crazy
Help me
Help me
(Help me)

I can't do this anymore
I can't do this anymore
I can't do this anymore
The Devil is not welcome here anymore

Living with the Devil on my shoulder
That spits in the face of the angel and disobeys orders
They say it's all in my head, he says, "I'm real, let me in"




What the fuck do I believe anymore?
Well, I'm broken - that's for sure

Overall Meaning

The song "Split" by Apate is a somber and emotional track that deals with themes of mental health and inner demons. The opening lines of the song describe the singer living with the devil on their shoulder, indicating a metaphorical demon or mental illness that plagues them. This darker side of themselves disobeys the orders of the angel on their other shoulder, representing their conscience. The singer is struggling to discern what is real and what is not, with the line "They say it's all in my head, he says, 'I'm real, let me in'" suggesting that the character is battling with their own mind.


The chorus of the song is where the true pain and hopelessness of the situation becomes clear. The singer and their "devil" seem to be in a constant battle, with the latter refusing to leave. The singer begs for the demon to leave, but they are met with the chilling response that the demon is there for eternity. They are left feeling helpless and desperate, with the repeated plea to God to "please kill me" highlighting the depth of their pain.


The final verse of the song sees the singer grappling with paranoia and self-destructive tendencies. The singer's inner voice clouds every thought and they become convinced that the only way to get rid of their demon is to physically harm themselves. Despite reaching out for help, they are met with disbelief and scorn, highlighting the stigma surrounding mental health. The final lines of the song see the singer attempting to banish their demon, but it remains unclear if they succeed.


Line by Line Meaning

Living with the Devil on my shoulder
I am struggling with my inner demons and constantly feeling their presence.


That spits in the face of the angel and disobeys orders
My inner demon challenges and disrespects any attempt to do good or follow a moral path.


They say it's all in my head, he says, "I'm real, let me in"
While others dismiss my struggles as mere thoughts, my inner demon feels all too real and demands control over me.


What the fuck do I believe anymore?
I am lost and confused, unsure of what to believe or trust in anymore.


Well, I'm broken - that's for sure
My inner turmoil has left me emotionally shattered and incapable of functioning normally.


He screams, "You'll never get rid of me"
My inner demon reminds me that it has no intention of leaving me alone, no matter how hard I try to shake it off.


I scream, I beg, "please leave"
I plead with my inner demon to let me be and release its grip on me.


He screams, "I'm here for eternity"
My inner demon states its dominance and claims to be a permanent presence in my life.


Oh God, please kill me
I am so overwhelmed and consumed by my inner turmoil that I am left feeling helpless and desperate for an end to it all.


The Devil won't leave
My inner demon continues to haunt me and refuses to relent.


Paranoia sets in
My fear of my inner demon and its control over me starts to consume me and lead me into darker thoughts and behaviors.


I'll scratch at my skin 'til I tear you out
I become so consumed by my fear and frustration that I resort to self-harm in a desperate attempt to rid myself of my inner demon.


This second voice that clouds every thought within me
My inner demon is a constant presence that interferes with my every thought and action, making it hard to function normally.


I reached out for help but all I got was left in hell
I have turned to others for help, only to be dismissed, ignored, or even further ostracized, leaving me feeling more isolated and alone.


Because they don't believe me
Others doubt the legitimacy of my struggles and dismiss my pain and fear as unfounded or imaginary.


They all think I'm crazy
The lack of understanding and support from others has left me feeling marginalized and misunderstood, worsening my inner turmoil.


Help me
I am in desperate need of support, understanding, and guidance to help me cope with my inner demons and find a way out of this suffering.


I can't do this anymore
I have reached my limit and can no longer bear the weight of my inner turmoil.


The Devil is not welcome here anymore
I am taking a stand against my inner demon and declaring that I will no longer yield to its power and control over me.




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