End of Me
Apocalyptica Lyrics

Rosaries
Religious objects symbolizing your hopes and pleadings

Left under the mattress of the memories
Carefully hidden away from sight, buried deep in your past experiences

Who could bear the witness
No one ever knew what transpired during those times, no one to corroborate your story

As you slip into oblivion
Slow descent to nothingness as you fade from existence

Use it like a weapon
Utilize every angst, grief and suffering towards a destructive outcome

Am I left to bleed
The unseen wounds caused by betrayal, left to fester and never heal

Waiting for the moment when you've had your fun
The eventual point when the person causing the torment has had enough of your suffering

A loaded gun
The suffocating pressure and internal turmoil caused by an impending doom

Take away your broken misery,
Removing all traces of the painful experience that you caused me

I can't wait to erase your memory
The desire to forget all of the pain and hurt caused by that person

This love, this love is gonna be the end of me
The realization that the emotions brought forth by the relationship created a path to self-destruction

Everything I gave is wasted,
All that was done for the sake of love was for naught

I'm the one who suffocated
The feeling of being suffocated and confined by the relationship

Can't resist poisoning the message
The desire to twist and sabotage the message, altering it to serve a selfish purpose

Just a narcissist trapped inside the wreckage
The person who caused the hurt is a self-centered and self-absorbed individual stuck in the wake of his/her destruction

And the sympathy I had is gone
The empathy and compassion felt for that person dissipate into nothingness

Deadened by the ceremony
The rituals and traditions designed to keep the relationship alive has also killed any remaining love and devotion

Drama queen,
The person revels in theatrics, making things more complicated than it needs to be

Stand behind your empire
The person has built an empire fueled by lies, deceit and manipulation

As your kingdom falls, all because
The imminent collapse of the foundation is the result of the person's own selfish actions

Your rescue, my undo
The attempt to save that person is the cause of my own downfall

I'm not the one to save you
The realization that the person, in fact, cannot be saved and it is not your responsibility to do so

I'm empty completely
The feeling of numbness, the absence of all emotions

I'm drowning in your shadow
The overwhelming presence of the person's influence on your life, even though you wish it otherwise

Cant chase away your ghost,
The inability to rid oneself of the memories and the emotional baggage brought forth by the relationship

Inside it only grows
The longer it remains, the more potent it becomes

Nothing left but misery
A life full of suffering and agony, with no end in sight

This will be the end of me
The acknowledgement that this experience can either be the journey to self-discovery or the path to total destruction

All the shit that you created,
The chaos and havoc wreaked by that person

All the scars you celebrated
The source of the scars and pain is something that person thrives on

Couldn't take away your pain
The incapacity to change the person, even with all the love and effort given

Couldn't resurrect your gain
The knowledge that despite the best intentions and efforts, the person's well-being and benefit will never be achieved

This love will be the end of me,
The acceptance that this toxic relationship will be the cause of one's own demise

This love will be the end.
The certainty that it will only get worse and will inevitably lead to the end