De Profundis
Arborist Lyrics
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Forlorn in this world of the living, isolated here by my loved ones before me.
I find myself frequenting the graves more often than my own bed to sleep.
I have become but a figure of twilight, a discraded wraith with no aspirations.
But ultimately, I have discovered the unavoidable course of my fate.
So why not quicken the process?
My time has come to reunite with the faithful departed,
As I take one step off the bridge and let go of the rail.
I realized that my problems meant nothing.
"Oh God, what have I done? Oh please, I don't want to die!"
The lyrics of Arborist's song "De Profundis" speak to a dark and painful place the singer has found themselves in. They describe feeling abandoned by their spirit, isolated by their loved ones, and forlorn in a world full of living people. The singer seems to be struggling greatly with depression and has lost all hope, turning to thoughts of suicide as a means of escape. They have become a discarded wraith with no aspirations, and feel as though death is the only way to reunite with the faithful departed.
The idea of visiting graves more often than their own bed is particularly poignant; it speaks to a desire to be close to death, to feel some sense of peace or closure in the presence of the dead. The singer has become a figure of twilight, caught between life and death, and seems to be searching for a way out of their agony.
However, in the moment between life and death, the singer has a realization. They recognize the value of life, and the finality of death. The problems that they thought were so insurmountable suddenly seem small and insignificant. The lyrics suggest that in this moment, the singer may have found a newfound sense of hope and determination to live, even if it means facing their difficulties head-on.
Line by Line Meaning
Left to wander, my abandoned spirit has found no tenure.
Feeling lost and without purpose, no place to call home.
Forlorn in this world of the living, isolated here by my loved ones before me.
Feeling abandoned and alone, pushed away by those closest to me.
I find myself frequenting the graves more often than my own bed to sleep.
Seeking solace in death and the afterlife rather than in the present world.
I have become but a figure of twilight, a discarded wraith with no aspirations.
Feeling like a forgotten, aimless ghost with no goals or ambitions.
But ultimately, I have discovered the unavoidable course of my fate.
Realizing that death is inevitable and that there is no escaping it.
So why not quicken the process?
Questioning the point of prolonging life when death is certain.
My time has come to reunite with the faithful departed,
Believing that death will reunite me with loved ones who have passed on.
As I take one step off the bridge and let go of the rail.
Making the decision to end my life and embrace death.
And in that moment, in those four seconds between life and death,
Reflecting on the brief moment between life and death.
I realized that my problems meant nothing.
Recognizing that all the worries and struggles of life are insignificant in the face of death.
"Oh God, what have I done? Oh please, I don't want to die!"
Regretting the decision to end my life and pleading for mercy.
Contributed by Evan Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.