Living A Lie
Area 54 Lyrics

Like a servant on a new day
Feeling trapped and constantly serving others, always starting anew without making any progress towards personal goals.

Growing tired of the game
Becoming worn out and disillusioned with the societal norms and expectations placed upon oneself.

Going nowhere
Feeling stagnant and without direction, unable to make progress in life.

'til I find my
Expressing hope and determination to discover a better way of living.

Secret place of my own
Longing for a personal haven or sanctuary, a place where one can truly be themselves.

And all the people in my hometown
Facing disapproval and judgement from those who know you best.

Say that I don't belong
Feeling like an outsider and being ostracized from one's own community.

One cold instinct to survive this
Feeling like the only way to endure the hardships of life is to rely on raw survival instincts and to push through no matter what.

From this cruel world I hide
Desiring to escape from the harsh realities of life and to find refuge from the cruelty of the world.

Living a lie
Feeling like life has become a facade, pretending to be someone else in order to fit in or avoid judgement.

Living this way and on my own
Continuing to live a life of isolation and self-imposed exile, even though it may not be what is truly desired.

In my head
Feeling trapped by one's own thoughts and internal struggles, unable to escape the turmoil in one's own mind.

Feeling the pain of 'once again'
Experiencing the same recurring pain or disappointment that feels all too familiar and difficult to overcome.

In my soul
The emotional and spiritual core of one's being, where profound desires and values reside.

Seeing the world for what it is
Having a clear-eyed view of the harsh realities and negativity of the world, without sugarcoating or idealizing them.

And I feel
Expressing deep emotions and thoughts that cannot be easily articulated in words.

I'm...
The beginning of an unfinished thought or statement, expressing uncertainty or hesitation.

Blood on my hands
Metaphorically representing the guilt and remorse one feels for the choices and actions taken in life.

And scars on my wrists
Physical scars from self-harm, representing the emotional pain and trauma that one carries inside.

Would bear the truth that I face
The physical evidence of one's struggles and pain, silent witnesses to the internal battles.

Trying so hard I lost my youth
Having sacrificed one's youthful exuberance and joy in the pursuit of some perceived goal, leaving one feeling burnt-out and exhausted.

And my soul
The deepest part of one's being and essence, representing one's true identity and values.

When seeing a whore for what she is
Realizing the true nature of a person or situation that was previously idealized or romanticized, often leading to disappointment or disillusionment.

Now I know Am I free or...
Having gained insight and awareness of one's situation, but still questioning whether true freedom has been achieved or if there are still more obstacles to overcome.

I can't live through these words
Feeling like words and language are incomplete or unable to fully express the depth of one's emotions and experiences.

Through these eyes
Seeing the world from one's own unique and personal perspective, with all the biases and experiences that shape it.

(Live) In a lie
Continuing to exist in an inauthentic or unsatisfying situation, pretending to be someone one is not.

Through this life
Reflecting on the totality of one's experiences and choices, and questioning the value or meaning of it all.

(Eyes) Living a lie
Continuing to perpetuate a false or unsatisfying version of oneself, unable to escape or break free from the cycle.

I can't face my last words
Struggling to comprehend or accept one's own mortality, and the finality of one's choices and actions.