No Way Out
As It Is Lyrics

Inside as the rain came pouring down
In the midst of a downpour, there is no relief from the pain and sadness that consumes me.

It can't wash away all this hurt that haunts me now
Despite the heavy rain, the anguish I feel still haunts me relentlessly.

I'm losing touch with the only soul I've found
I feel like I'm losing my connection to the only person who truly understands me.

Desperate delusions are all I have
I cling to unrealistic hopes and beliefs just to cope with the unbearable pain I feel.

Just to keep me hanging on
These delusions are the only thing keeping me from giving up completely.

I shut my eyes, but my world's still burning
Despite my attempts to ignore the pain, it still consumes me and I can't escape it.

I can't escape, I feel it killing me
The pain is so intense that it feels like it's slowly destroying me from the inside out.

No way out
I feel trapped and unable to escape the endless cycle of pain and despair.

Here I am again
I find myself in the same desperate situation yet again.

Choked up, but the pain came after all
Despite trying to hold back my emotions, the pain still overwhelms me.

I feel displaced in these once familiar walls
Even in my own familiar surroundings, I feel disconnected and out of place.

Patient I fall with no end in sight
I feel like I'm falling deeper and deeper into despair without any hope of it ending.

And the noose around my neck
I feel like the weight of my pain and despair is slowly choking the life out of me.

And as I let hindsight translate nightmares into reality
Looking back, my worst fears and anxieties have become a painful reality.

I begin to see myself for who I truly was
I'm starting to realize that I was in a dark and desperate place without even realizing it.

Somebody desperate
I was in a state of complete desperation and hopelessness.

Somebody entirely out of their depth
I was in over my head and had no idea how to handle the intense pain I was feeling.

Somebody beyond their abilities to cope
The pain and despair I was experiencing was so intense that I couldn't find a way to cope with it.

And as I exhale out the pain
As I work through my pain and despair, I'm starting to let it go and move on.

I'm digesting the severity of the depression I felt
I'm coming to terms with how deeply my depression affected me and my life.

The extent to which it claimed a piece of me
My depression took a significant toll on my mental and emotional wellbeing.

How it's left me emotionally vacant and painfully numb
My depression has left me feeling empty and disconnected from my emotions.

And now together
All of my faults and negative thoughts and feelings are weighing me down at once.

My faults and my thoughts prey on me like vultures
My negative thinking and self-criticism are consuming me like vultures attacking their prey.

Creeping from their comfortable distance
These negative thoughts and feelings lurk in the background, waiting to pounce.

Never once exiting my line of vision
I can't escape these negative thoughts and feelings, they're always present in my mind.

And the facade I invite to amble whilst wearing my skin
The mask I put on to hide my pain and despair doesn't truly represent who I am.

He isn't me and he never will be me
The person I pretend to be to the world doesn't match the person I truly am inside.

And I know that I fucked up
I recognize that I made mistakes and didn't handle things the way I should have.

But I want to grow from it
Despite my mistakes, I'm determined to learn from them and grow as a person.

I find myself in the same dark ending
Despite my efforts to escape, I keep ending up in the same dark and desperate place.