Auld-Mezera died of cancer on August 9, 2015, aged 51.
Discography
Albums
Looking Back To See (1999), with Bill Chambers
The Fallen (2000)
Losing Faith (2003)
Reckless Records Garage Sale: 1997-2003 (2003), with Bill Chambers and others
Texas (2005)
In the House (2006)
Lost Men and Angry Girls (2007)
Billabong Song (2009), EP
"Write Out Loud" songbook (2010)
Come Find Me (2011)
Resurrection Moon (2012)
Wood (EP) 2012
Tonk (2013)
"Tonk: Live in Nashville" DVD (2013)
"Hey Warden" (2015) EP
ARIA nominations
Two of Auld-Mezera's albums have been nominated for awards by the Australian Recording Industry Association.
Year Recipient/Nominated work Award Result
2001 The Fallen Best Country Album Nominated
2005 Texas Best Country Album Nominated
Losing Faith
Audrey Auld Lyrics
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But when I got to close, you'd disappear
Then you'd leave me stranded, and feed me drops of water
and tell me it was wine, and not to fear
And you gave me bread and fishes
Spoke of burning bushes
And I drank your blood, just to prove my faith
You took a step and sank without a trace
You were singing my song, so I gave you a halo
But you preferred to wear a crown of thorns
I was your disciple, standing in your shadow
And when you spoke, I hung on every word
And you gave me bread and fishes
Spoke of burning bushes
And I drank your blood, just to prove my faith
But when I cried an ocean, and asked you to come over
You took a step and sank without a trace
Losing faith, saving face, tryin' to live in a state of grace
And you're not the reason I am, You're just a man
And there's nothing between us, could ever move a mountain
Nothing that could ever part the sea
Now I'm the one who's bearing the cross of your creation
I'll be crucified and you'll be free
And you gave me bread and fishes
Spoke of burning bushes
And I drank your blood, just to prove my faith
But when I cried an ocean, and I asked you to come over
You took a step and sank without a trace
And there was I, losing faith
In "Losing Faith" by Audrey Auld, the singer is describing a faithless relationship where she was once drawn in by the other person who showed her love and care, similar to an oasis in the desert. But as she got closer, the person would disappear, leaving her thirsty and stranded. The lines "Then you'd leave me stranded, and feed me drops of water, and tell me it was wine, and not to fear" show the other person's manipulative behavior, as they convinced the singer that what she was receiving was much more valuable than it actually was.
The lyrics also allude to religious motifs such as bread and fishes, burning bushes, and the drinking of blood. The other person is portrayed as a messianic figure, leading the singer down a path of blind faith. But when she needed them the most, they were not there to help, sinking without a trace. The singer then realizes that it was not the other person that made her who she is, but rather she is her own person, and that there is nothing between them that could move a mountain or part the sea.
The song is essentially about the loss of faith in a person who once seemed like a savior, and about taking ownership of oneself again. It is a powerful reminder that we should not rely solely on others to define our selves or to give us meaning in life.
Line by Line Meaning
You were an oasis, when I was in the desert
You were a source of relief during a difficult time in my life
But when I got to close, you'd disappear
As I got closer to you, you would pull away and become distant
Then you'd leave me stranded, and feed me drops of water
You would abandon me when I needed you the most, but give me small tokens of hope
and tell me it was wine, and not to fear
You would deceive me by making me believe that something was better than it actually was
And you gave me bread and fishes
You provided for my basic needs
Spoke of burning bushes
You spoke of profound and divine experiences
And I drank your blood, just to prove my faith
I made great sacrifices in order to show my loyalty to you
But when I cried an ocean, and asked you to come over
When I was in deep need and asked for your help
You took a step and sank without a trace
You abandoned me and didn't come to my aid
You were singing my song, so I gave you a halo
You understood me so well that I put you on a pedestal
But you preferred to wear a crown of thorns
You chose to be a martyr and suffer for your beliefs
I was your disciple, standing in your shadow
I was devoted to you and looked up to you
And when you spoke, I hung on every word
I respected your opinions and listened to everything you said
Losing faith, saving face, tryin' to live in a state of grace
I am struggling with my faith and trying to maintain a dignified appearance
And you're not the reason I am, You're just a man
You are not the sole reason for my existence, you are human just like me
And there's nothing between us, could ever move a mountain
There is nothing that we share that is powerful enough to overcome great obstacles
Nothing that could ever part the sea
There is no force that we possess that could cause a great divide or separation between us
Now I'm the one who's bearing the cross of your creation
I am the one who is suffering as a result of your actions and beliefs
I'll be crucified and you'll be free
I will face great punishment for my mistakes while you will not face any consequences
And there was I, losing faith
I am losing my belief and trust in you
Contributed by Elizabeth P. Suggest a correction in the comments below.