"Through struggle we prevail. Through S… Read Full Bio ↴AURIN: New Jersey Hard Rock!
"Through struggle we prevail. Through Struggle we unite. You are not alone. This is our Pre-Inspired Symphony..." is something that the members of Aurin know all too well. "We all have a need to connect to one another in some way, shape, or form, even if it's simply to be acknowledged by someone else who can reassure us that we are not alone. We strive to be remembered," says guitarist Andrew Wayne. This concept of finding one another through mutual experience and thought is heavily driven into the musicianship and songwriting of Aurin.
Born and raised in the Garden State, the members of Aurin not only live, but breathe music. Growing up as part of generation "why?," music was the one thing that its members ever truly understood. Music provided answers. Over years of writing and working, Aurin's musical direction has molded into an eclectic style of hard rock. Aurin has developed an approach so that they may continue, progress, and modernize the nature of raw, emotional music from generations past.
Band Members:
Sarah Anderson - Vocals
Andrew Wayne - Guitar/Vocals
Mike Cantor - Bass
Linda Medina - Drums
Holding On
Aurin Lyrics
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To capture nothing but the torturing feelings
That keep me from moving ahead
In this sea of darkness I am finding that I am
Dying, I think I'm dying
For something other than I am able to see
I'm trying, as you're implying
Hiding, inviting
The demons inside that prevent me from healing
My torment cause solace doesn't exist
In this sea of darkness I am fighting but I am
Dying, I think I'm dying
For something other than I am able to see
I'm trying, as you're implying
My efforts are failing, but I'm holding onto me
I can feel this change in the wind
It's catching up to me, catching up to me
I can feel my faith wearing thin
As my colors spill onto the concrete
I can feel this change in the wind
It's catching up to me, catching up to me
I can feel my faith wearing thin
As my colors spill onto the concrete
Everyone is bleeding me dry this time
Squeeze my lungs as I gasp for air inside
Can't catch my breath
Am I alive?
All I know is that I'm feeling like I am
Dying, I think I'm dying
For something other than I am able to see
I'm trying, as you're implying
My efforts are failing, but I'm holding onto me
The lyrics to Aurin’s song Holding On are about struggling and surviving through tough times. The persona in the song is hiding, surviving, and trying to move forward while dealing with inner demons that prevent healing. The persona feels suffocated by the pain and struggles to remain resilient. The lyrics suggest that despite efforts to move forward, there is still a sense of agony and self-doubt that persists. The persona is trying to hold onto themselves, but their efforts are failing. The chorus, “Dying, I think I'm dying, for something other than I am able to see, I'm trying, as you're implying, my efforts are failing, but I'm holding onto me” is repeated throughout, emphasizing the strain and the pain.
The lyrics reflect the internal struggle the persona is experiencing. The persona tries to find solace but is unable to overcome these feelings of loss and isolation. The changing wind and colors spilling onto the concrete further add to the persona’s feelings of instability and uncertainty. The bridge, “Everyone is bleeding me dry this time, squeeze my lungs as I gasp for air inside, can't catch my breath, am I alive? All I know is that I'm feeling like I am dying” speaks to the suffocation and desperation that the persona feels.
Overall, the lyrics of Holding On by Aurin are a powerful representation of the emotional and mental struggle that one can encounter. The song explores a sense of self-awareness and the reality of pain and grief in all its forms.
Line by Line Meaning
Hiding, surviving
I am staying alive by hiding from my problems
To capture nothing but the torturing feelings
I am unable to escape the painful emotions I am feeling
That keep me from moving ahead
These feelings are preventing me from making progress
In this sea of darkness I am finding that I am
I feel lost and directionless in my current situation
Dying, I think I'm dying
I am slowly losing hope and feel like giving up
For something other than I am able to see
I am struggling to identify the cause of my despair
I'm trying, as you're implying
I am putting in effort, even though it may be futile
My efforts are failing, but I'm holding onto me
Despite my struggles, I am still holding onto my sense of self
Hiding, inviting
I am consciously allowing my inner demons to influence me
The demons inside that prevent me from healing
These demons are preventing me from finding peace and recovery
My torment cause solace doesn't exist
I am unable to find comfort or relief from my pain
In this sea of darkness I am fighting but I am
Despite my efforts, I am still struggling and feeling lost
I can feel this change in the wind
I sense that something is about to change or happen
It's catching up to me, catching up to me
This change or event is getting closer and closer
I can feel my faith wearing thin
I am losing my confidence and hope for the future
As my colors spill onto the concrete
I am losing my vibrancy and energy, and it is showing
Everyone is bleeding me dry this time
I feel drained and exhausted by the demands and expectations of others
Squeeze my lungs as I gasp for air inside
I am feeling suffocated and unable to breathe
Can't catch my breath
I am struggling and unable to recover
Am I alive?
I am questioning if I am really living or just going through the motions
All I know is that I'm feeling like I am
Despite my doubts, I am still experiencing emotions and trying to hold on
Writer(s): Aurin
Contributed by Samuel Y. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Jedz Ligsay
The surprising unexpected screams in between the verses kept me watching until the end. This is really good. Learned a new technique from you guys. I love bands with girl musicians. Awesome! Keep it up! :D
AurinTV
Thank you Jedz. Please follow us on www.facebook.com/aurinband and feel free to stop by and say hi!! Look forward to our upcoming album "Catharsis" (TBA 2014) :)
Bumper
i remember you guys, you've come along way good job you sound great!
K.C. McCormick Jr
a chilling yet haunting song I like
Molly Ryan
Is elizabeth her sister? or someone she knew who passed away or her middle name or just random? There's a lot of emotion in this so I was wondering what the story behind this song is. Love this band btw
Molly Ryan
Just liked and messaged! Glad to get a reply from you! I just became a fan a few days ago, but would be glad to take a listen to the songs on those albums and tell you what I think! Thank you so much for taking the time out to reply to my comment!
AurinTV
Hi @Molly Ryan. Actually, Elizabeth is not Sarah's sister. BUT, I am glad you picked up on that. The memorial card is dedicated to the people closest to us that we have lost over the years, whether it be family itself or such close friends that they were basically family without the actual blood-ties. As far as a story behind the song? We don't exactly like to tell that a song is about a, b, or c because we like the fact that each and every person can take away something of their own from it. But, I can tell you this: A lot of our music deals with mental illness and what comes with it. Whether that means dealing with it, affected loved ones, or even the way society stigmatizes it. We all speak and play from the heart and I am overjoyed that you hear that emotion in this. Hearing that from you means the world to me...to us. I would love to get your opinion on the rest of "The Pre-Inspired Symphony," which we released in 2011, and we have another full length release TBA (though this year) entitled "Catharsis" coming your way. If you have a Facebook, please give us a 'like' and feel free to send us a private message on the page letting us know who you are. I/We would love to hear your thoughts. Thanks Molly!
entr0py1
Wow, really great vocals! I feel the guitars could have been thickened up with different tones and double tracked, but that's a matter of taste. Good bridge, though. I look forward to hearing you progress. Wish you guys the best.
AurinTV
Thank you entr0py1! Guitars were actually double tracked, actually tripled if not more in some parts. The tonality of this album was a choice we went for as a band. Some people loved the "different sound" some hated it. It's cool however anyone feels of course. We appreciate you giving your opinion and greatly appreciate the fact that you like what you hear despite that you feel may be lacking! We actually just did an album with Grammy Award winner Jason Corsaro (Soundgarden/Madonna/Motorhead) and was mastered by Howie Weinberg. It's called "Catharsis" and it due out sometime this year. Please stay tuned! http://www.facebook.com/aurinband
Kevin57
I dig this