On Edge
Authority Zero (USA) Lyrics

You think I've gone too far this time?
Do you believe that I have crossed a line of moral, ethical or legal standards this time?

Tossed to the wolves, for another feeding frenzy
Being abandoned by my loved ones, and exposed to a vicious attack by those who seek to hurt me, yet again.

If you could see what's going on inside
If you only had a glimpse of my inner turmoil, my rage, my pain, my fear, my hurt, my trauma, my secrets, you'd probably empathize with me.

You'd probably second guess me my dark secret
You may question my intentions, my choices, my behavior, and my motives, at discovering my deeply buried and shameful secret.

So tell me what is this all about?
Please explain to me the purpose, the meaning, and the intent behind this sudden call to arms, this demand for accountability, this test of loyalty.

To test me?
Is this a way to challenge, provoke, or manipulate me, to see how far I can tolerate, withstand, or resist the pressure?

Take what you need from me
Feel free to exploit, use, or abuse me, to gratify your own selfish interests, regardless of the harm, the injustice, or the consequence to me.

Discard the rest, but I won't go peacefully
Dispose of the parts of me that are no longer convenient, useful, or desirable, but don't expect me to disappear quietly, without a fight or a protest.

I'm on the edge again
I'm approaching a dangerous, unstable, and vulnerable state of mind, where I feel overwhelmed, exhausted, or suicidal.

Of breaking down in a world gone crazy
I'm at risk of losing my sanity, my composure, or my hope, in a chaotic, unpredictable, and unjust world, where violence, injustice, and inequality reign supreme.

And it's a mystery how it does not phase me
Despite the overwhelming adversity, the unfairness, and the trauma that I face, I'm still standing strong, and resilient, defying the odds and the expectations.

So tell me how did you think I would react?
What was your assumption or prediction about my response to your betrayal, your abandonment, your abuse, or your gaslighting of me?

I'm a pawn in this game and it's far from over
I'm a powerless, vulnerable, and expendable player in a larger scheme of power, control, and manipulation, where the stakes are high, and the outcome is uncertain.

This contradiction in terms makes it worse
This conflict, inconsistency, or paradox in my identity, beliefs, or values, aggravates my anxiety, despair, or confusion, and makes me question myself and my surroundings even more.

Been pushed to the edge kicked down knocked over
I've been subjected to a relentless, merciless, and dehumanizing assault, that has left me battered, bruised, and traumatized.

Well here we stand again, and again, and again
This scenario, this predicament, this crisis, has become a recurring, persistent, and exhausting pattern of our interaction or relationship.

How's it end? is this the best of it?
What is the ultimate resolution, or resolution of this conflict, this struggle, this impasse? Is this the highest, the most ethical, or the most satisfactory outcome that we can expect?

You've made it clear my friend
You've conveyed, expressed, or communicated your final decision, your ultimate stance, or your irrevocable choice, without ambiguity or doubt.

That this is the end when all ties are broken
That this marks the conclusion, the termination, or the severance of our relationship, our bond, or our connection, with all its consequences, implications, and emotions attached.

Now taking a step back
Pausing, reflecting, and reconsidering my actions, my feelings, and my priorities, with a calm, detached, and rational mindset.

It's not alright
It's not acceptable, appropriate, or justifiable, the way things have turned out, the way I've been treated, or the way I've acted, and I need to acknowledge, validate, and accept my pain, my hurt, and my mistakes.

What's been left behind
The consequences, the issues, the wounds, the attachments, and the memories, that remain, persist, or haunt me, after the fallout, the rupture, or the closure of this relationship, and to which I need to attend, heal, or let go.

Now looking down a new avenue
Exploring, envisioning, or contemplating a fresh, exciting, or unfamiliar path, opportunity, or perspective, that could bring me growth, joy, or fulfillment.

Hoping to see the signs
Wishfully, optimistically, or expectantly scanning the horizon, the people, or the events, for cues, indications, or inspirations, that could guide, motivate, or inspire me, in my quest for a better future.

Taking it one step at a time
Taking a patient, deliberate, and measured approach, to navigate, overcome, or embrace the challenges, the uncertainties, and the opportunities, that lay ahead of me, and to build a solid, sustainable, and meaningful life for myself.