holding my own hand
Avery Lynch Lyrics

Yes, I know when you give out your love
The singer understands that love should be given without expectation of receiving it back.

You don't give it to get any back
Love is given freely, without requiring anything in return.

But I'd hope that the person who needed me
The singer had an expectation that the person they cared for would also care for them when needed.

There would be there if I asked
They expected that their loved one would be there to support them when needed.

But what they don't tell you is that you don't need that
The artist realizes that they don't actually need the support of others to be strong and capable on their own.

I got so used to having a hand to hold
The singer had grown accustomed to relying on others for support and comfort.

I didn't know what to do
The singer felt lost and uncertain when they found themselves without the support they had grown used to.

When I thought in my darkest you'd be there
The artist had previously believed that their loved one would be there to support them at their lowest moments.

But now I know that isn't true
The artist has realized that their loved one is not able to provide the support they had hoped for.

Guess you only want me when I'm there to fix you
The artist has come to understand that their loved one only values them for the help they can provide, not for who they are as a person.

And the part that kills me is that I'd still love to
Despite the pain they've experienced, the singer still loves and cares for their loved one.

But I just want to thank you for not being there for me
The artist feels grateful for the experience, as it taught them to be self-reliant and independent.

And I think you should know just what your selfishness has taught me
The singer believes that their loved one's failure to support them has taught them an important lesson about the value of self-love and independence.

And even though it hurts like hell to feel alone again
The singer recognizes that being alone can be difficult and painful, even when it is necessary for personal growth and development.

Because of you, I got a chance at holding my own hand
The singer sees their experience as an opportunity to learn to rely on and care for themselves, rather than relying on others.

Learned my lesson, I tried and I tested
The artist has learned from their experience and has worked to become more self-reliant and independent.

And nothing I did I would change
The artist believes that their experience was valuable and would not change anything about what happened.

Now I'm here doing it all on my own
The singer has learned to take care of themselves and is now able to do so without relying on others.

And I feel more proud than in pain
The singer feels proud of their progress and accomplishments, even in the face of past pain and difficulty.

You know I'm still hurting and feel like I need you
Despite their progress, the artist still experiences pain and longing for their loved one.

But I'm really learning how to love me without you
The artist is learning to love and care for themselves, even in the absence of their loved one.

And I get now that it just wasn't meant to be
The artist has come to accept that their relationship with their loved one was not meant to last.

So don't bother saying sorry
The singer does not need or want an apology from their loved one, as they have already learned and grown from the experience.

Holding my own hand
The artist has learned to rely on and care for themselves, rather than relying on others for support and comfort.