Avrigus first came into existence in 1990. Due to Simon's role in Cruciform and the Sydney metal scene it wasn't until 1998 that the very well received EP The Final Wish was released on Warhead Records. In 2001 the album The Secret Kingdom was released on Well of Urd Records, a division of the now-defunct Hammerheart Records.
In 2007 it was announced that Judy had left the band late in the previous year. Despite this Simon is continuing on with Avrigus and a new album called "The Hidden Citadel" is in the works. It was announced in August 2009 that Avrigus' new vocalist would be Megan Robins, whose partner Lee Tassaker (bassist/vocalist for Lycanthia) would also be providing vocals on the new album.
The Final Wish and The Secret Kingdom can be downloaded from their official site via BitTorrent.
3rd Of May 2010, the band announced that they will be releasing an EP called "Beauty And Pain" as a precursor to the album "The Hidden Citadel". "Beauty And Pain" will consist of 5 tracks with a running time of approximately 30 minutes.
Reborn
Avrigus Lyrics
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My wings subside, I see hope die
I am alone and every day
I wish that death would come take me away
Cut out the pain that I feel inside
I die...
This feeling of shame
The lies that you told add fuel to the fire of my pain
You conceal the blame
The seeds that i've sown know not of this pain that I own
I hold it inside
And swallow my pride, it burns me inside
Show me my life; Broken
Show me my life; Wasted
Show me my life; Empty
This was life, take me now
Burdened by shame, wasted away all of my days
Out of the cold I feel a light from deep inside...
Take to the sky, I soar like a bird
My wings spread wide, I feel alive!
Show me my life; Resolve
Show me my life; Reform
Show me my life; Remade
I live my life, I have been reborn!
The opening lines, "Look to the sky, I feel dead inside / My wings subside, I see hope die" are symbolic of the singer's despair and hopelessness. The imagery of their wings subsiding is especially poignant, as wings often represent freedom and the ability to soar above one's problems. The idea that hope is dying also suggests a sense of finality and loss. The singer is at a point where they feel as though they have exhausted all their options and are resigned to their fate.
The next few lines, "I am alone and every day / I wish that death would come take me away / Cut out the pain that I feel inside / I die..." further emphasize the singer's sense of isolation and desperation. The fact that they are hoping for death to take them away is a clear indication that they are struggling to find meaning and purpose in their life. They are in so much pain that they feel as though death would be a relief.
The following lines shift slightly to describe the source of the singer's pain: "In spite of it all; you hurt me and you'll never know / This feeling of shame / The lies that you told add fuel to the fire of my pain / You conceal the blame." Here, the singer is directly addressing whoever has hurt them. The fact that the person will never know the extent of the singer's pain suggests that the singer has been keeping their feelings hidden, possibly out of fear or shame. The use of fire imagery to describe the pain is striking and suggests a sense of intensity and burning emotion.
The chorus, "Show me my life; Broken / Show me my life; Wasted / Show me my life; Empty / This was life, take me now" is a direct plea to whoever or whatever is listening to simply end the singer's life. The descriptors used to describe the singer's life - broken, wasted, empty - are all negative and suggest that the singer sees no hope or positivity in their existence. They are ready to give up entirely.
However, the final verse provides a glimmer of hope: "Burdened by shame, wasted away all of my days / Out of the cold I feel a light from deep inside... / Take to the sky, I soar like a bird / My wings spread wide, I feel alive!" The fact that the singer has been burdened by shame suggests that they have been carrying around a heavy emotional weight for some time. The idea of feeling a light from deep inside suggests that they have found a source of inner strength or resilience that they didn't know they had. The final lines, where the singer takes to the sky and feels alive again, suggest that they have overcome their previous sense of hopelessness and are now reborn.
Line by Line Meaning
Look to the sky, I feel dead inside
Despite my surroundings, I have no sense of hope and feel lifeless
My wings subside, I see hope die
My ability to fly is taken away from me and I watch any remaining positivity disappear
I am alone and every day
I am constantly by myself
I wish that death would come take me away
I long for death to ease my pain and sadness
Cut out the pain that I feel inside
Eliminate the anguish I carry within
I die...
I feel like I am dying inside
In spite of it all; you hurt me and you'll never know
You caused me pain without any understanding of how much damage you've created
This feeling of shame
I am consumed by a sense of guilt and embarrassment
The lies that you told add fuel to the fire of my pain
Your deceit and dishonesty only intensify my hurt
You conceal the blame
You hide the responsibility of the situation
The seeds that i've sown know not of this pain that I own
Nobody else knows how much I suffer
I hold it inside
I keep my pain hidden
And swallow my pride, it burns me inside
I endure through the pain and isolation in order to protect my reputation, but it pains me internally
Show me my life; Broken
I desire to see the full extent of the damage that has been done to my life
Show me my life; Wasted
I want to see how much of my life has been wasted on suffering
Show me my life; Empty
I want to see more clearly how much emptiness has filled my life
This was life, take me now
This is what my life has amounted to, and I want it to be over already
Burdened by shame, wasted away all of my days
I have been exhausted and weighed down by my guilt and have felt like I've wasted every day of my life
Out of the cold I feel a light from deep inside...
Despite the isolation and desolation, I feel a small semblance of hope within me
Take to the sky, I soar like a bird
I am finally free and able to fly again
My wings spread wide, I feel alive!
I am filled with life and energy and have been given the chance to experience joy and hope again
Show me my life; Resolve
I want to see how uplifting and resolved my current state of mind and soul is
Show me my life; Reform
I want to see all of the ways in which I have improved myself
Show me my life; Remade
I want to see how I have transformed into a better version of myself
I live my life, I have been reborn!
I am finally living life to the fullest and have been given the chance to start anew
Contributed by Jeremiah F. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@emmett1365
Just discovered them I love it!!!
@lafken
Hermoso!