After several member changes, the line up that took the name Axenstar in 2001 was Magnus Eriksson (Vocals & Keyboards), Thomas Eriksson (Lead & Rhythm Guitar), Peter Johansson (Rhythm & Lead Guitar), Magnus Ek (Bass) and Pontus Jansson (Drums).
In October 2002 Axenstar released their debut album Perpetual Twilight on the Spanish label Arise Records. The album got really good reviews all over the world and Axenstar got the chance to play at Motala Metal Festival, the biggest gig so far in their career.
The second album Far From Heaven was recorded during May of 2003 and just about a week after the recordings were done Axenstar played at the mighty Sweden Rock Festival, which was a great experience for the band. In January 2004 the opportunity was given to go ahead on their first European Tour as the opening act to Falconer, although Magnus Ek was unable to go on the tour, Joakim Jonsson (Skyfire, The Mist of Avalon) was found to be the stand-in bass-player on the tour, which turned out great.
The third album The Inquisition saw the light of day in 2005, but during this time and the time after the release there were some problems within the band and in late summer 2005 guitarists Peter Johansson and Thomas Eriksson left the band, not because of disagreements but for personal reasons.
After that third release the contract with Arise Records was over and Axenstar started looking for a new deal, now joining forces with Joakim Jonsson on lead guitar. In the autumn of 2005 a new deal was signed with German label Massacre Records and in the spring of 2006 the fourth album The Final Requiem was recorded as usual in Studio Underground.
After the release of the fourth album there were more changes to come within the band and
bassplayer Magnus Ek and drummer Pontus Jansson soon left the band due to lack of time.
But already within a few months after the setback the two remaining members Magnus Winterwild and Joakim Jonsson found a new drummer by the name of Thomas Ohlsson.
The search for a bassplayer started and Thomas contacted Henrik Sedell with whom Thomas
had played together with previously.
The chemistry with the two new members was great and everything is going well
on both a personal and professional level.
Now the main goal for Axenstar is to get out on the roads and play as many gigs as possible.
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Blackout
Axenstar Lyrics
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The life that I lead, could it be more surreal
Searching in my mind in the order to find some sense of reality
I fear that I am beginning to lose what's left of my sanity
Awake again full of bloodstains on my hands
I wonder where I have been, and whose death I have foreseen
Breaking my will with the purpose to kill all shreds of humanity
To lose the control of body and soul is my main anxiety
Something's coming over me
My reality slowly slipping away
I just can't remember but can't seem to forget
Who I am blacked out again
Can't longer say what is real and what is a dream
The demon is rising up from far deep down within
Searching in my mind in the order to find some sense of reality
I fear that I am beginning to lose what's left of my sanity
Something's coming over me
My reality slowly slipping away
I just can't remember but can't seem to forget
Who I am blacked out again
I have fallen into the depths of sin
Where humanity ends and pain begins
Breaking free from this torment I must do
If I told you my secret, oh would you believe it's true
The lyrics of Axenstar’s song Blackout convey a sense of confusion and fear as the singer grapples with the loss of their own sanity. The lyrics ask what would happen if the singer threw their life, which seems surreal and devoid of any true sense of reality, away. The song describes how the singer is searching within their own mind to regain a sense of control and hold on their sanity, while encountering bloodstains on their hands and having visions of death. The singer also begins to lose their grip on reality, unsure of what is real and what is a dream. The demon within them is threatening to take over, as they are slowly losing sight of their own identity.
The singer’s fear that they have fallen into the depths of sin and the loss of their own humanity is portrayed through powerful imagery of pain and torment. The song captivates the listener by painting a picture of the singer’s internal struggle and the profound sense of conflict within them. Through the lyrics of Blackout, the listener is transported to a world that is dark and unsettling, a reflection of the singer's own turbulent emotional state.
Line by Line Meaning
What would you say if I threw it all away
Asking what the listener's reaction would be if the singer abandoned their current life.
The life that I lead, could it be more surreal
Wondering if the singer's current existence could possibly be more strange or unreal.
Searching in my mind in the order to find some sense of reality
Attempting to make sense of the confusion and chaos within the singer's psyche.
I fear that I am beginning to lose what's left of my sanity
The artist is worried that they are on the brink of losing their grip on reality.
Awake again full of bloodstains on my hands
Waking up from another blackout with the physical evidence of harm done.
I wonder where I have been, and whose death I have foreseen
Questioning the events that occurred during the blackout, and whether they may have predicted someone's death.
Breaking my will with the purpose to kill all shreds of humanity
Deliberately attempting to rid themselves of any lingering compassion or empathy.
To lose the control of body and soul is my main anxiety
The artist is fearful of completely losing control and surrendering themselves to their inner demons.
Something's coming over me
Sensing a shift in their mental state.
My reality slowly slipping away
Feeling less and less grounded in the tangible world around them.
I just can't remember but can't seem to forget
Struggling with fragmented memories and conflicting emotions.
Who I am blacked out again
Losing their sense of self during another blackout episode.
Can't longer say what is real and what is a dream
Unable to differentiate between reality and their own distorted perceptions.
The demon is rising up from far deep down within
A malevolent force within the singer is gaining power over them.
I have fallen into the depths of sin
Acknowledging their descent into immoral and destructive behavior.
Where humanity ends and pain begins
Finding themselves in a dark and disturbing mental space.
Breaking free from this torment I must do
Desiring to escape the mental anguish they are experiencing.
If I told you my secret, oh would you believe it's true
Contemplating confiding in someone about their struggles, but questioning whether they would be taken seriously.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: Rudolf Schenker, Sonja Kittelsen, Klaus Meine, Herman Rarebell
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