Ayria has been intensively and successfully touring across the globe over the past 3 years gaining a very solid reputation for putting on energetic live performances. Ayria toured the U.S.A as the chosen supporting act for legendary electronic-goth band The Crüxshadows (over 80 shows) and supported Combichrist. Ayria has also toured U.K., Europe, Russia, Mexico and Japan. Not fitting into any one musical category has allowed Ayria to gain a very broad fan base of underground goth, various underground club scenes as well as more mainstream audiences who are all addicted to Ayria’s infectious hooks.
Ayria has released three full length albums on the Belgian label [labelAlfa Matrix, including the highly acclaimed Hearts For Bullets released in September 2008. This release brings 12 hard hitting, tightly written and produced tracks each track uniquely evolving the Ayria sound. Hearts For Bullets was produced in Canada by none other than Sebastian R. Komor. Ayria hits straight and hard with Jennifer’s in-your-face sonic approach hanging between minimal electro, gritty bass synth lines and forceful stomping beats while never straying from the extremely feminine side of the project. Extravagant, provocative, bitchy and edgy yet all gut wrenchingly emotional and lyrically insightful; she hits a target somewhere between influences of Nitzer Ebb, M.I.A., Miss Kittin and Ladytron.
Before Ayria:
Jennifer Parkin is also known for her earlier work in Epsilon Minus, having released two albums as the lead vocalist, before leaving to form Ayria. Jennifer was also featured as a guest vocalist on many other projects, including Implant, Glis, Parallel Project, Aiboforcen and the Mexican project Isis Signum. Ayria has completed remixes and added vocals for bands such as Angelspit and Celldweller.
Official website: https://ayria.com/
Big City Lullaby
Ayria Lyrics
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Nothing like adrenaline highs, but coming down almost kills me
Love the places, know the faces, but the names are all a blur
It's hard to hold on when you forget where you are and where you were
Everybody wants to live their life in the spotlight
One day at a time, I just want to live for tonight
Standing here with you, I don't want you to see that I'm terrified
I know it's getting late but please don't go
there is still so much more of the show
I know there'll be a thousand more goodbyes
Before they dim the lights
I've realized that all I've wanted is right here in front of me
I said that to you; you laughed, but it was something that I do believe in
It's nice to meet you, share this moment; please don't stand so close to me
Keep your distance when it's over, I'm afraid you've stolen part of me
Everybody wants to live their life in the spotlight
One day at a time, I just want to live for tonight
Standing here with you, I don't want you to see that I'm terrified
Is this what you expected? Can't you see it's all smoke and lights?
I know it's getting late but please don't go
There is still so much more of the show
I hope there'll be a thousand more goodbyes
Before they dim the lights
This path will soon be ending
And will you stay with me?
It's only us left standing; will I find it hard to breathe?
And it has not been easy when I'm lost and in my mind
Separate worlds divided; my mind's been there all the time
City lights flash by me
And I don't know where I am
Before tonight they'll love me
But when I'm gone they'll just forget
You know me better than all this
You've seen me on the edge of a world that tried to leave me with an open wound again
My heart; you'll want to stay forever
All this just so I can live forever
Immortalized; forever here
In time, you'll understand
The song "Big City Lullaby" by Ayria talks about the reality of living a life in the spotlight, the highs and lows of it, and the fear of being forgotten once the fame fades away. The first verse talks about the city lights that the singer has seen in different places and how thrilling it can be to experience the adrenaline rush of being in the spotlight, but at the same time, the fear of coming down from that high is overwhelming. The singer appreciates the places and recognizes the faces, but due to the fast-paced nature of life, she has lost track of names and sometimes even where she is. She expresses the struggle of holding on to one's identity while dealing with the pressures that come with the fame.
The chorus deals with the singer's fear of not living up to society's expectations, which are mostly just smoke and lights. She acknowledges that everyone wants to live their life in the spotlight, but she just wants to live for tonight and enjoy the moment. The singer admits being terrified of what the future holds and hopes that the person she is standing with won't leave her. She wishes for a thousand more goodbyes before the light fades away.
The second verse talks about the singer realizing that what she has always wanted was right there in front of her. When she admits to this revelation, the person she is speaking to laughs, but the singer genuinely believes it. She asks the person to keep their distance as she is afraid of being hurt again. The chorus is repeated again, emphasizing the fear of not living up to expectations and the wish for a few more goodbyes before the show ends.
Line by Line Meaning
Memorizing city lights of all the places I have been
I often find myself staring at the city lights, as they are the only constant in my life of constant travel.
Nothing like adrenaline highs, but coming down almost kills me
The rush of being in new, exciting places is incomparable, but the inevitable comedown is always difficult to bear.
Love the places, know the faces, but the names are all a blur
While I have many fond memories of the places I've been, the faces of the people I've met stick with me more than their names.
It's hard to hold on when you forget where you are and where you were
Losing track of my location and past experiences proves difficult for me, as I have so many memories to keep straight.
Everybody wants to live their life in the spotlight
There is a common feeling of wanting to be recognized and appreciated in society.
One day at a time, I just want to live for tonight
Rather than focus on tomorrow, I choose to enjoy the present moment while I can.
Standing here with you, I don't want you to see that I'm terrified
Though I may appear confident on the surface, I am actually quite scared and uncertain of my future.
Is this what you expected? Can't you see it's all smoke and lights?
I wonder if others also see that the perks of fame are shallow and superficial, lacking any real substance or meaning.
I know it's getting late but please don't go
Despite the performance nearing its end, I am not ready for it to be over yet.
There is still so much more of the show
There are still so many experiences to be had before this chapter of my life closes.
I hope there'll be a thousand more goodbyes
While I don't necessarily enjoy goodbyes, I anticipate many more due to the transient nature of my life.
Before they dim the lights
I want to make the most of my time in the spotlight before it fades away.
This path will soon be ending
I realize that my current lifestyle of fame and travel cannot last forever.
And will you stay with me?
I am unsure if my friends and loved ones will continue to support me through the ups and downs of my life.
It's only us left standing; will I find it hard to breathe?
Once everything else around me fades away, I am left to confront my own emotions and fears, and it can be suffocating.
And it has not been easy when I'm lost and in my mind
There are times when I feel completely disoriented, and it takes a toll on my mental wellbeing.
Separate worlds divided; my mind's been there all the time
Though I may physically be in one place, my mind often wanders to other parts of the world that I have visited.
City lights flash by me
As I speed through the city, the vibrant lights create a disorienting blur.
And I don't know where I am
My disorientation and lack of grounding can make me feel untethered and lost.
Before tonight they'll love me
During the course of the performance, the audience will show admiration and love for me.
But when I'm gone they'll just forget
However, once I leave, they will likely forget about me just as quickly as they became enthralled by my performance.
You know me better than all this
Despite my exterior persona, those close to me can see me for my true self.
You've seen me on the edge of a world that tried to leave me with an open wound again
My loved ones have been there for me during times of desperation and pain, when the world seemed set on hurting me further.
My heart; you'll want to stay forever
My heart belongs to those who truly care for me, and they will always hold a special place in my life.
All this just so I can live forever
The pursuit of fame and admiration has become my way of seeking immortality or leaving a lasting legacy.
Immortalized; forever here
Through my fame, I hope to be remembered and celebrated long after I am gone.
In time, you'll understand
Though others may not relate to or understand my lifestyle, I believe that with time, they will come to appreciate it more fully.
Contributed by Hunter L. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
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