Ayria has been intensively and successfully touring across the globe over the past 3 years gaining a very solid reputation for putting on energetic live performances. Ayria toured the U.S.A as the chosen supporting act for legendary electronic-goth band The Crüxshadows (over 80 shows) and supported Combichrist. Ayria has also toured U.K., Europe, Russia, Mexico and Japan. Not fitting into any one musical category has allowed Ayria to gain a very broad fan base of underground goth, various underground club scenes as well as more mainstream audiences who are all addicted to Ayria’s infectious hooks.
Ayria has released three full length albums on the Belgian label [labelAlfa Matrix, including the highly acclaimed Hearts For Bullets released in September 2008. This release brings 12 hard hitting, tightly written and produced tracks each track uniquely evolving the Ayria sound. Hearts For Bullets was produced in Canada by none other than Sebastian R. Komor. Ayria hits straight and hard with Jennifer’s in-your-face sonic approach hanging between minimal electro, gritty bass synth lines and forceful stomping beats while never straying from the extremely feminine side of the project. Extravagant, provocative, bitchy and edgy yet all gut wrenchingly emotional and lyrically insightful; she hits a target somewhere between influences of Nitzer Ebb, M.I.A., Miss Kittin and Ladytron.
Before Ayria:
Jennifer Parkin is also known for her earlier work in Epsilon Minus, having released two albums as the lead vocalist, before leaving to form Ayria. Jennifer was also featured as a guest vocalist on many other projects, including Implant, Glis, Parallel Project, Aiboforcen and the Mexican project Isis Signum. Ayria has completed remixes and added vocals for bands such as Angelspit and Celldweller.
Official website: https://ayria.com/
Counterblow
Ayria Lyrics
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The guilt now washes over me
Resides in my consciousness
It's complicating me
All that you had to say was "Never get too close to me"
I might have thought my actions through
My rash decisions will prove
Now it's all too late
Below the surface
Is where this hurt lives
I cannot mend
I just divide inside
It's mine
I'd like to think that I could damage you from within
But I gave up and it's obvious some things go way past sin
Caught in the undertow
A victim of a counterblow
And now I'm left with these shattered nerves and emptiness that I deserve
Now it's all too late
Below the surface
Is where this hurt lives
I cannot mend
I just divide inside
It's mine
Wishing I could move time
Just get out
Now I must live without
Can't seem to fix what I've broken down
Worn out an now I just don't care
Stripped down the girl I must repair
You made me do thing that I didn't like
Unfair
Now you forget what I tasted like
And you pretend out of spite
Did you forget the depths of my eyes?
As you stared and said you wouldn't compromise
Trying to take what you wanted most
You didn't even come close
Now I will stand here in control
And never fall again
The lyrics of Ayria's song "Counterblow" seem to be all about regret and the resulting inner turmoil one experiences. The song's writer has evidently made a grave mistake and is feeling the full weight of this error as it washes over them, resulting in feelings of guilt and confusion that cannot be easily resolved. They heard a warning from someone, presumably, but ignored it and forged ahead, making a rash decision that they now regret.
The guilt and hurt come in waves that threaten to drown the writer as they fight to come to terms with what they've done. The song's central metaphor is the undertow of an ocean—a treacherous current that drags people under and can result in tragic consequences when they're pulled too far out. The song's writer is in a similar predicament, caught in the ebb and flow of their own psychological waves, realizing that they may never be able to fully recover from the damage they've done.
The writer is struggling to patch up the pieces of their shattered psyche, but something deep within them hesitates to forgive themselves. They describe the conflicting emotions of wanting to do harm to someone else while also being trapped in their own remorse. They want to move on and forget the past, but it seems impossible as they're forced to confront their own failings on a daily basis.
Line by Line Meaning
I feel it
I am feeling the guilt of my actions
The guilt now washes over me
I am consumed by the guilt I feel
Resides in my consciousness
The guilt stays in my mind
It's complicating me
The guilt is making things difficult for me
All that you had to say was "Never get too close to me"
If only you had warned me not to get too close
I might have thought my actions through
I could have made better decisions if I had thought things through
My rash decisions will prove
The impulsive choices I made will have consequences
Now it's all too late
There is nothing I can do now to change what has happened
Below the surface
Beneath the exterior
Is where this hurt lives
This pain is hidden inside of me
I cannot mend
I am unable to heal myself
I just divide inside
I am breaking apart internally
It's mine
This pain belongs to me
I'd like to think that I could damage you from within
I once believed that I could hurt you deeply
But I gave up and it's obvious some things go way past sin
I eventually gave up trying to hurt you, realizing that some things are beyond forgiveness
Caught in the undertow
I am being pulled under and struggling to stay afloat
A victim of a counterblow
I am suffering the consequences of my own actions
And now I'm left with these shattered nerves and emptiness that I deserve
I am now left to suffer the consequences of my actions, feeling empty and alone
Wishing I could move time
I wish I could go back in time and change what I did
Just get out
I just want to escape from my current situation
Now I must live without
I am now forced to live with the consequences of my actions
Can't seem to fix what I've broken down
I can't seem to repair the damage I've caused
Worn out an now I just don't care
I am exhausted and have stopped caring about the consequences
Stripped down the girl I must repair
I have stripped away my own happiness, and now it is my responsibility to fix it
You made me do thing that I didn't like
You influenced me to do things that I regret
Unfair
It was unjust and wrong
Now you forget what I tasted like
You have forgotten what it was like to be close to me
And you pretend out of spite
You are pretending to not care out of spite
Did you forget the depths of my eyes?
Do you remember how deeply you affected me?
As you stared and said you wouldn't compromise
When you looked at me and refused to make things right
Trying to take what you wanted most
You were trying to take away what mattered most to you
You didn't even come close
You failed to take away what mattered most to you
Now I will stand here in control
I am now the one in control of my own happiness
And never fall again
And I will never let myself be hurt like this again
Contributed by Asher I. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Kristi-Ann
on Six Seconds (Spetsnaz Mix)
What is the meaning??