A singer/songwriter from Toronto, Ontario, Canada, Jennifer Parkin has beco… Read Full Bio ↴A singer/songwriter from Toronto, Ontario, Canada, Jennifer Parkin has become a true icon on the electronic music scene with her unique writing and performing style. In 2003, she began her project Ayria and shook the foundation of the electro-industrial scene by mixing striking feminine visuals, straight old-school industrial music with harsher, aggressive electro while still maintaining elements of electro-clash and 80’s new wave.

Ayria has been intensively and successfully touring across the globe over the past 3 years gaining a very solid reputation for putting on energetic live performances. Ayria toured the U.S.A as the chosen supporting act for legendary electronic-goth band The Crüxshadows (over 80 shows) and supported Combichrist. Ayria has also toured U.K., Europe, Russia, Mexico and Japan. Not fitting into any one musical category has allowed Ayria to gain a very broad fan base of underground goth, various underground club scenes as well as more mainstream audiences who are all addicted to Ayria’s infectious hooks.

Ayria has released three full length albums on the Belgian label [labelAlfa Matrix, including the highly acclaimed Hearts For Bullets released in September 2008. This release brings 12 hard hitting, tightly written and produced tracks each track uniquely evolving the Ayria sound. Hearts For Bullets was produced in Canada by none other than Sebastian R. Komor. Ayria hits straight and hard with Jennifer’s in-your-face sonic approach hanging between minimal electro, gritty bass synth lines and forceful stomping beats while never straying from the extremely feminine side of the project. Extravagant, provocative, bitchy and edgy yet all gut wrenchingly emotional and lyrically insightful; she hits a target somewhere between influences of Nitzer Ebb, M.I.A., Miss Kittin and Ladytron.

Before Ayria:
Jennifer Parkin is also known for her earlier work in Epsilon Minus, having released two albums as the lead vocalist, before leaving to form Ayria. Jennifer was also featured as a guest vocalist on many other projects, including Implant, Glis, Parallel Project, Aiboforcen and the Mexican project Isis Signum. Ayria has completed remixes and added vocals for bands such as Angelspit and Celldweller.

Official website: https://ayria.com/

Start Again
Ayria Lyrics

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Never knew how much it mattered to you
I'm losing sight of the things that I'd set out to do

Looking at the sky
Never knew that I could fly
Afraid to start again

Push, pushing myself down

Into this hole that comforts me to stay
And I try
To stay awake
Because every night it always feels too late

Never tried to
Never knew you
Never knew just how to fly
Always failed you
Never came through
Never saw the other side

Looking at the sky
Never knew that I could fly
Afraid to start again
And I don't know why
I was so afraid to fly
Why would happen if I tried
I'd have to start again

You're faster
Slow down
I can't catch up
I'm losing ground

Looking at the sky
Never knew that I could fly
Afraid to start again
And I don't know why
You are so afraid to fly

What would happen if we tried
We'd have to start again

Overall Meaning

The song "Start Again" by Ayria is a powerful reflection on the internal struggle one goes through while trying to break free from their own insecurities and overcome their fear of failure. The opening lines "Never knew how much it mattered to you, I'm losing sight of the things that I'd set out to do" indicates that the singer of the song has lost sight of her ambitions and is struggling to find her way back to the person she used to be. She is experiencing a sense of detachment and isolation from her authentic self and is consumed by self-doubt and uncertainty.

The line "Never knew that I could fly, afraid to start again" is a metaphor for the fear of the unknown and the fear of taking risks. The singer is afraid to take the first step and start again, even though it might be the very thing that liberates her from her current state of stagnation. The song also explores the themes of regret, missed opportunities, and the complexities of interpersonal relationships.

The chorus of the song "Looking at the sky, never knew that I could fly, afraid to start again, and I don't know why" is a repeated reflection on the singer's inability to take the leap. The final lines "What would happen if we tried, we'd have to start again" suggests that the singer is not alone in her fear, and it's only by facing the fear and breaking free that they can discover what they are truly capable of achieving.

Line by Line Meaning

Never knew how much it mattered to you
I underestimated the importance of something to you

I'm losing sight of the things that I'd set out to do
I am losing focus on my original goals

Looking at the sky
I am contemplating my surroundings

Never knew that I could fly
I never believed in my own abilities

Afraid to start again
I am hesitant to begin anew

Push, pushing myself down
I am forcing myself into a negative mindset

Into this hole that comforts me to stay
I am stuck in a familiar but unproductive situation

And I try
I attempt to make changes

To stay awake
To avoid slipping back into old habits

Because every night it always feels too late
I regret not taking action sooner

Never tried to
I never made the effort to