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Azad Right Lyrics

I can't maintain a relationship
I struggle to keep romantic relationships due to personal issues

They remind me I don't relate to shit
The people I date often point out that I have trouble connecting with others

I love you, I'm not in love with you
I care about you, but I don't have strong romantic feelings for you

But I want you in my life and that's an issue
But I still want you in my life, which complicates things

I hate to say I'm not committed, I admit it
I don't want to admit it, but I struggle with committing to relationships

Only 22, I'm tryn' live it to the limit
I'm young and want to live my life to the fullest

You know I'm coming back for you the minute that I'm finished
I do plan on returning to you once I've accomplished my personal goals

Right now, a girlfriend would be a blemish on my image
Currently, having a girlfriend would negatively affect my public image

I led you on and you might think I'm selfish
I may have given you false hope and seem self-centered

But I like your company, I really can't help it
I genuinely enjoy spending time with you, but don't want a serious relationship

Even though I see you twice a week
Despite only seeing you a couple times a week

Tell me why you adamently fight for me
I don't understand why you still want me when I've been clear about my feelings

Saying please don't leave, but I'm focused on my plan
You beg me to stay, but I'm dedicated to my personal goals

It's not personal, I hope you understand
My decision to not pursue a relationship is not a personal attack against you

Some day, you will trust me again
I hope that one day you can trust me again in a different capacity

But for now, I'm sorry that our love had to end
For now, I apologize that our romantic relationship couldn't work out

I had a fallin' out with a family member
I had a disagreement with a relative

I lashed out and said some shit I still can't remember
I acted impulsively and said hurtful things that I regret

For a while, I was actually crazy
For a period of time, I was mentally unstable

But, I wouldn't change the past if you paid me
Despite the difficult time, I wouldn't change anything because it made me who I am

You live and you learn, you slip and you burn
Experiencing mistakes and failures is part of growth and learning

Work hard and keep your mind off the figures you earn
Focus on dedicated effort rather than solely on financial gain

I'm highly aware what the fame could bring
I understand the potential consequences of being famous

I won't ever let money fuck up a good thing
I won't allow money to ruin what is important to me

It once did, but that saga's over
Money caused problems for me in the past, but that issue has been resolved

And if anything it brought us closer, now we always sober
If anything, the money issue brought our group closer together and we avoid substance abuse

A buncha guys on the rise
My group of friends is experiencing success and growth

Realize we gon' ride 'til we die with our eyes on the prize
We are committed to working hard and staying focused on our goals for the long haul, even until death

Look, instead of falling over like some dominos
We won't allow problems to divide us, like a chain of dominos falling over

We put our egos to the side for one common goal
We prioritize our group's goals rather than our individual egos

And fuck the politics, we'll handle it together
We will overcome challenges as a team, disregarding political games

Friends come and go, man family is forever
Friendships may fade, but family is a lifelong bond

I thought I had support from my family
I believed my family was supportive of my passion for music

Until my mom said don't forget about a plan B
My mom expressed concern and told me to have a backup plan in case music doesn't work out

I don't blame her, she doesn't understand me
I don't hold it against her because she doesn't fully comprehend my goals

I love making music, I don't need to win a grammy
I am content with creating music regardless of whether or not I win awards

You can be the best at what you do
It's possible to be extremely skilled at something

But it doesn't matter, cause it means nothing 'til you're paid
However, success isn't fully recognized until it generates income

I rather stay poor doing something that I love
I would rather have little money but be fulfilled doing what I love

Than to ever be rich doing something that I hate
I would not want to become wealthy at the cost of being unhappy with my job

I can truly say that I'm happy with my life
I can confidently say that I am content with my life

I'm never let down cause my attitude is right
Because of my positive mindset, I don't often experience disappointment

It's undeniable, my passion on the mic
My passion for rapping cannot be denied

These other rappers do it for the glamour and the lights
Many other rappers are motivated by fame and attention

But I'm different, and I never been more certain
I am unique and more convinced than ever of my individuality

Nobody is perfect but we all serve a purpose
Although no one is flawless, we all have a reason for being here

So fall back, while I pull away the curtains
Step aside and let me reveal my true self

And let my light shine, I know it's the right time
Allow me to showcase my talents, I am confident it is the appropriate moment