Larraine
Azure Ray Lyrics

It could have been a patch
It could have been a small, insignificant wound, but instead it left a deep scar

Some say that it was cursed
Some claim that what happened was predestined and beyond anyone's control

You spent your whole life
Your entire existence has been devoted to

Trying to wash away the dirt
Trying to cleanse yourself of the sins of others who have wronged you

They said that you were nothing
They tried to make you feel worthless and insignificant

With the hands under your skirt
Implying sexual assault, which has had a lasting impact on your sense of identity

So you taught yourself a way
You learned to cope and overcome the trauma on your own

With a rag under your shirt
Using any means possible to protect yourself and move forward

Your daddy loved you wrong
Your father's actions were a twisted form of love and caused severe emotional damage

While he pointed his gun
Overbearing and controlling, his behavior was often violent and threatening

Your mother turned her face
Your mother was unable or unwilling to intervene and stood by in silence

Being princess of grace
More concerned with societal expectations of grace and decorum than actual well-being

They left you in the woods
Left to fend for yourself and navigate through a harsh and unforgiving world

To find your way back like a dog
Treating you as an animal and unworthy of common decency or compassion

You cried in the dark
Being alone in your suffering and feeling powerless to change your circumstances

While they drank beers on the lawn
Others were able to live blissfully unaware of your pain and turmoil

The nightmares wouldn't stop
The trauma repeated itself in your dreams, making it impossible to escape

So you drink them to a haze
Using alcohol as a means of numbing yourself to the pain

But when you cut the lines
When you tried to break free from your coping mechanisms

They put you away
Society is not equipped to handle the aftermath of trauma and often punishes victims for their resulting behavior

You had a little girl
Despite your trauma and pain, you were able to create something beautiful and meaningful

Who writes songs about your pain
Your daughter transformed your suffering into a powerful art form

An episode of grace
Despite the pain and chaos, there were moments of beauty and hope

Now she's living in L.A.
Your daughter was able to escape and live a more fulfilled life as a result of the strength you gave her

Most of them I never knew
There are many who have also suffered unseen and unheard

But that is just as well
The lack of knowledge does not change the fact that they too have experienced pain and trauma

Even as I cry for you
Despite everything, the pain you experienced and the injustice of it all still moves others to emotion

I know they're all in hell
Those who wronged you will eventually face consequences for their actions, whether in life or in the afterlife

Don't you know it was all for you, Larraine
Everything that was done and everything that was overcome was for the sake of your well-being and happiness

Everything I did was for you, Larraine
As your daughter and as someone who loved you, everything I did was with your best interest at heart

‘Cause what they did to you they did to me
The effects of trauma ripple through families and future generations, affecting them in ways they may not even realize