Upside Down
B-Case Lyrics

I was like upside down
I felt completely disoriented and unsure of my place in the world.

Like earth was on top of me
It was as if the weight of the world was bearing down on me.

You know it's funny
It's ironic, because the way I feel is not actually amusing or enjoyable.

Cause I ain't got a second to chill
I am constantly busy and don't have any time to relax or recharge.

And you admire it
Others see my busy lifestyle as impressive, even though it's causing a lot of stress and anxiety for me.

But life is fucking strange on this hill
Life is unpredictable and full of unexpected challenges, and it feels like I'm climbing a steep hill to get through it all.

Look in the face your devils
Confront your problems and face your fears head-on.

I see what I have like medals
I appreciate and value the good things in my life like they are precious awards or honors.

Noticing in little things beauty and essence
I find joy and beauty in the small details and moments of life.

Like painting a picture of levels of heaven
It's like creating a beautiful work of art that represents a heavenly realm.

Don't change my facial expression
I try to conceal my emotions and not let others see how I'm truly feeling.

Synthetic resin depression
I feel like my sadness and depression are fake or artificial, like they are made of plastic or resin.

Drawing some smiles on my face like it was geometric progression
I am pretending to be happy and putting on a fake smile, even though it feels like a mathematical formula or pattern.

Purple hazing time trying to excape from my repression
I am trying to escape from my own emotional and mental suppression, which feels like being in a hazy, purple-colored fog.

Voice recorder in my phone knows all the words of my confession
I use my phone to record my private thoughts and feelings, so it feels like my phone knows everything about me.

Everyday new ideas trapped in question
I have a lot of new ideas, but they are held back by uncertainty and doubt.

I rekon it's time to proceed back to regression
I think it's time to go back to an earlier state of being or way of thinking, in order to move forward again.

We're focusing on the wrong things
We are concentrating our energy and attention on things that don't really matter or won't make us happy.

We expect some tenders
We hope for tenderness or care from others.

But we receive just bullets
Instead, we feel like we are being attacked or hurt by others.

We shouldn't have to text
We shouldn't have to constantly communicate through digital messages and social media.

If we only had knew the best
If only we knew what was truly important or valuable, we wouldn't waste our time on superficial things.

Never coming back to your ex
I am determined to move forward and not look to the past, especially in regards to past relationships.

Because f*cking Milan is flex
Referring to Milan, Italy as being a place of style or sophistication.

My body just go flipping
I'm physically restless and can't stop moving around.

My mind cant keep admitting
My thoughts and emotions are constantly changing and it's hard to process them all.

There is nothing that I'm missing
I feel like I have everything I need and there's no reason to want more.

I won't stop until I'm breathing
I won't stop my pursuit of life and my goals until I am finally at peace and truly living.

I am upside down
I am still experiencing a sense of disorientation and confusion.

And that's okay
I'm trying to accept that it's normal to feel lost or unsteady at times, and that it will pass.