This Is What It Feels Like
BANKS Lyrics

I hang on everything that you say
I pay close attention to your words and actions, and everything you say has significance to me.

You know I can see all the things that imply you secretly are in love
I am acutely aware of the subtleties that suggest you have hidden romantic feelings for me.

And finally when I let myself fall hard for you I
After holding back for some time, I allowed myself to become deeply emotionally invested in you.

See you trying to pretend like I'm making it up
You attempt to deny, deflect, or invalidate my affection for you.

This is what it feels like
These are the feelings that come with unrequited or belittled love.

Bring it down
Lower the defenses or barriers that are preventing us from being honest with each other.

Bring it on
Let us confront the issues and communicate our true feelings to each other openly.

Bring it now
Let us have this conversation as soon as possible.

This is what it feels like now
These are the current emotions I experience in this unfulfilling relationship.

It's getting old
The constant push and pull of unrequited love or mistrustful relationship is becoming tiresome.

Remember the first love that we made
Reflecting on the initial stages of our relationship when the love and affection flowed freely between us.

You said that you couldn't sleep 'cause of me
You expressed how deeply I had impacted your life and how important our relationship was to you.

Told me I caught you off guard
You admitted that my affection for you surprised you and that you did not expect to feel the same way.

And then when you saw I felt the same
After realizing that my feelings for you were mutual, you became guarded and distant.

You pulled away started acting like being with me was too hard
You withdrew from the relationship and began to behave as if it was too difficult or stressful to be with me.