Shame on Me
BMike Lyrics

You know, I find it so funny
It's ironic how someone who hurt you badly can come back into your life once things are going well.

How someone can burn you so bad
It's surprising how someone you cared for could hurt you so much.

And as soon as you doing good
When things are going well in your life,

They're back in your life like none of that happened
The person who hurt you can return as if nothing bad ever happened between you two.

Boy meets girl
It all began when a boy meets a girl.

She's a queen, she's a pearl
The girl was beautiful and special in the boy's eyes.

She's a diamond in the rough
The girl was a gem among the many people that the boy has met.

But the greatest in the world
In the boy's eyes, the girl was the best thing that ever happened to him.

Becomes his world, becomes his life
The boy's world now revolves around the girl, becoming the center of his life.

His everything, overnight
The girl instantly became the boy's everything, as if overnight.

Over time he over thinks
As time passed by, the boy began to overthink their relationship.

On and off just like a light
Their relationship became unstable, like a light that keeps turning on and off.

She loves him dearly
The girl loved the boy deeply.

Loves him not
But there are times when she stopped loving him, making their relationship complicated.

All this pain, make it stop
All the emotional pain was unbearable for the boy.

Her emotions, high and low
The girl's emotions were unstable, unlike a rollercoaster that goes up and down.

He can decide, to let her go
The boy can make the choice to let go of the girl.

She eats him up, from inside
The girl was consuming the boy's being from within, causing him to feel lost.

But he can't see all the signs
Despite all the warning signs, the boy refused to see the girl's true nature.

All his friends tried to help
His friends saw what was happening and tried to help him.

'Cause she just thinks of herself
But the girl only cared about herself and her own interests.

Fucks him up
The girl hurts the boy emotionally.

First she fucks him good and then she fucks him up
At first, the girl treated the boy well, but then she hurt him in the end.

He's a bitch, he's a pussy
The boy feels weak and helpless in front of the girl's actions.

That's how he feels, suck it up
The boy needs to toughen up, according to the girl's expectations.

A real man doesn't cry, he keeps it tight
The girl has the notion that a real man doesn't show vulnerability and should keep his emotions bottled up.

Just like a tummy tuck
Just like a tummy tuck is a cosmetic surgery that contours the abdomen, the girl expects the boy to shape up his emotions to fit her expectations.

So he just justifies that one day soon
To cope with the pain, the boy convinces himself that things will get better soon.

That's when the buck will stop
He hopes that someday, the cycle of pain and hurt will finally end.

The pain will settle
The boy hopes that the pain he's feeling will finally subside.

He's running out of 'Love me nots' and daisy petals
The boy is at a point where he can't take the emotional turmoil anymore.

Swears that she's going through a phase of tryna' play the devil
The boy believes that the girl is going through a phase and will soon snap out of it.

She don't wear Prada though
Despite the girl's actions, she doesn't have to be wearing expensive clothes to cause pain to the boy.

But it's too late, she's got his soul
Regardless of everything, the girl has the power of the boy's soul, making him weak.

Got his heart, pot of gold
The girl has everything the boy has to offer, like his heart and wealth (pot of gold).

Fuck she's smart, honour roll
The girl was clever and acted like everything was under control, like an honor roll student.

You lied to my face and said you love me
The girl lied to the boy's face, making the boy feel betrayed.

You're fucking beautiful but act so ugly
Despite the girl's physical beauty, her actions and behavior made her ugly in the boy's eyes.

I gave you blame, you tell me I'm insane
The girl was deflecting blame onto the boy and calling him insane whenever he tried to discuss their problems.

You light the match
The girl was the one who ignited their problems.

I put my finger in that flame again
Despite knowing that the girl was the source of his pain, the boy still goes back to her (putting his finger in the flame).

I'm so ashamed
The boy is deeply ashamed of his actions and feelings toward the girl.

Shame on me for loving you girl
The boy feels shame for falling in love with someone who caused him pain and hurt.

And shame on me for trusting you girl
The boy feels shame for trusting the girl despite the warning signs.

You said that was the last time
The girl promised that she wouldn't hurt him again in the future.

You gon' play with me
But the girl was just playing games with his heart.

I took the bait so now I gotta pay the fee
The boy fell for the girl's bait, and now he has to pay the price for it (emotionally).

Blame on me
The boy places the blame on himself for being naive and not seeing the girl's true nature.

Nowadays it's all changed
Time has passed, and everything has changed.

I'm popping now
The boy has moved on and is now successful in life.

I can see the traces of a person
But he still sees the remnants of the girl's toxic persona.

Who is toxic now
The girl has become a toxic person.

I can see the signs of somebody who projects
The boy sees the girl's insecurities projecting outward onto others.

All their insecurities on anybody who comes next
The girl's insecurities affect her relationships with people who come after the boy.

You're so pathetic
The boy sees the girl as weak and pitiful.

And usually I keep it copacetic
The boy usually tries to keep everything cordial between them.

But you lead me on for years
But the girl led him on for years before causing pain.

Then broke me down, I don't forget it
The girl broke him down emotionally, something the boy can't forget.

I wrote that first verse
The boy wrote the first part of the song.

Like that shit happened last week
The boy wrote the song as if the events happened just last week (fresh in his memory).

But in reality that's PTSD
But in reality, the boy has PTSD from the events.

I was 18
The boy was just 18 years old when everything happened.

Now you hit me up
The girl contacted the boy again.

Every single year you fuckin' hit me up
The girl contacts the boy every year, trying to get back into his life somehow.

I used to drop my guard
The boy used to let his guard down whenever the girl contacted him.

For anybody who would lift me up
But he learned his lesson and won't let anyone bring him down again.

Nowadays I'm cold hearted
The boy is now cold and distant from people who may try to hurt him.

But I keep my spirits up
Despite everything, the boy keeps a positive outlook in life.

I drop my walls for nobody
But he won't let his guard down for anyone anymore.

I just keep my feelings tucked
He will keep his emotions to himself and won't let anyone see them.

It's you fault, and everywhere you go
The boy blames the girl for everything and sees her everywhere he goes (mentally).

I'm in your brain
The boy haunts the girl's mind (maybe because she's still attached to him).

You can't take a shit, a fucking piss
The boy believes that he's always on the girl's mind, even when she's taking a shit or a piss.

Without seeing my name
The girl can't do anything without thinking of the boy's name.

And yesterday you texted me
The girl contacted the boy again.

You fuckin' social climber
The boy sees the girl as someone who wants to escalate her social status.

But I almost forgot to write this song
The girl's contact served as a reminder for the boy to write this song.

So thanks for the reminder
The boy thanks the girl for reminding him to channel his emotions through music.