buzzkill
Baby Queen Lyrics

My biggest flaw is a total lack of self-control
I have trouble managing my impulses, which is a major issue for me

I have a sadness that I can't console
I feel deeply unhappy and don't have a way to fix it

I only had a drink to escape my thoughts
I turned to alcohol to try and forget about my problems

Saying, "Flaws don't make you special, they just make you flawed"
I hear people say that it's okay to have flaws, but I find it hard to believe

"What doesn't kill you makes you wish that it had"
I've been through some tough times and often feel like it would have been better if I didn't survive

And, "Good things happen to people that are bad"
I see people who make terrible choices or do bad things get rewarded and it frustrates me

So when the party came to life, I wish I'd stayed in bed
I regret going to this party because it's not making me feel any better

But when I went to say goodbye, all of my friends said
As I was leaving, my friends tried to convince me to stay and have fun

"Oh boy, here comes the killjoy
"You're ruining the fun by being so unhappy

Chill the fuck out, you're so young
You have plenty of time to enjoy life, stop being so negative

Just shut up, you're bringing me down
Your negative attitude is affecting me and I don't want to be around it

And parties are supposed to be fun"
You're not supposed to be sad and miserable at a party

I don't wanna be a buzzkill
I don't want to bring people down with my negative attitude

I hate to be a buzzkill
I feel bad for ruining people's good time

But this life is shit and I just don't want it
I'm unhappy with my life and don't see a way to make it better

Well, I was changing the world, but got distracted by my telephone
I used to have big ambitions to make a difference, but now I just get sidetracked by technology

In every crowded room I feel unnaturally alone
Even when I'm surrounded by people, I still feel isolated and lonely

It's like I'm living in a dream but all the characters are me
My life feels surreal and disconnected from reality

I'm disillusioned by the world and I am filled with apathy
I feel let down by the world and don't have any motivation to change it

All of the cheaters prosper and all of the quitters win
I feel like the people who do the wrong things in life are the ones who succeed, while those who try to do the right thing are left behind

And he's your president because you voted for him
I'm frustrated with the political system and feel like people are responsible for choosing ineffective leaders

So when the party came to life, well, I imagined I was dead
The party was so unpleasant for me that I felt like I would have been better off not being there

And that's when I began to cry and that's when all my friends said
As I started to get emotional, my friends tried to encourage me to be happy

I don't wanna be a buzzkill but I am
Even though I don't want to ruin people's good time, my negative emotions make me a buzzkill

I hate your city and I miss my dad
I don't like living in this place and I miss someone important to me who's no longer around

And of course you're fucking happy mate, you've had another gram
I'm frustrated that other people seem so happy because they're using drugs or alcohol to escape their problems

So I point a gun at your buzz, bang-bang
I want to take away the things that make people happy because I feel like it's not fair that they get to be happy when I'm not

So I cry and I cry and I just can't stop it
My emotions are overwhelming and I can't control them