SUICIDE
Barclay James Harvest Lyrics


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I woke up to a feeling, it was cold by my side
You had gone with the sunrise, leaving tears in my eyes
I got up with a feeling of an emptiness inside
To the noise of the sidewalk and the silence of my mind

Well I walked out this morning, down a street with no name
To a club called "The Loser", like a dog that's gone lame
Took the club elevator to the floor with a view
I took out life subscription - it's the only one they do

I stepped out on the guard rail, saw the crowds slowly part
Heard a voice shouting "Don't jump, please for God's sake let me move my car!"
Felt a hand on my shoulder, heard a voice cry "Just in time!"




Felt the quick push, felt the air rush
Felt the sidewalk, fell in line

Overall Meaning

The song Suicide, by Barclay James Harvest, tells a story of a person who wakes up feeling empty and feeling the absence of someone dear. The individual decides to go to a club called "The Loser" and, after taking out a life subscription, steps out on the guard rail of a balcony. Despite the shouts and pleas of people, the individual jumps off and falls on the sidewalk. At first, it might seem like a story of suicide caused by depression and loss, but deeper analysis shows that it is also a critique of modern urban life.


The lyrics depict a person who is lost in a hectic and chaotic urban environment, surrounded by impersonal and uncaring people. The singer's decision to go to The Loser club, which is a place of despair, is symbolic of the hopelessness and desolation felt in a fast-paced and competitive society where success and happiness are measured by material possessions and social status. The singer's leap into the void, therefore, can be seen as a statement against the soulless and shallow values of modern society.


The song is a profound reflection on the alienation and disconnection that can arise in an urban environment. The lyrics show how even the most caring and well-intentioned people can fail to see the pain and suffering of those around them. The song's message is that we must pay more attention to the emotional wellbeing of those around us, especially in crowded and chaotic environments where it can be easy to get lost and overwhelmed.


Line by Line Meaning

I woke up to a feeling, it was cold by my side
I experienced a feeling of loneliness and coldness when I woke up and you were not there beside me


You had gone with the sunrise, leaving tears in my eyes
You left early in the morning and your absence made me cry


I got up with a feeling of an emptiness inside
I woke up with a sense of emptiness and loneliness within me


To the noise of the sidewalk and the silence of my mind
The sounds of the street outside were louder than the silence in my mind


Well I walked out this morning, down a street with no name
I left my house and walked along a street without a name


To a club called "The Loser", like a dog that's gone lame
I went to a club with a name that suggests failure and inadequacy, feeling like a powerless and hopeless creature


Took the club elevator to the floor with a view
I took the elevator in the club to the highest floor where I could see the view outside


I took out life subscription - it's the only one they do
I decided to end my life by jumping off the building, bought a lifetime subscription to death because there is no other option available


I stepped out on the guard rail, saw the crowds slowly part
I stood on the edge of the building, looking down at the people below who were slowly moving away from me


Heard a voice shouting "Don't jump, please for God's sake let me move my car!"
Someone from the crowd shouted at me to stop and not to kill myself, as they needed to move their car first


Felt a hand on my shoulder, heard a voice cry "Just in time!"
Someone grabbed my shoulder and pulled me back from the brink of suicide, telling me that I was saved at the last minute


Felt the quick push, felt the air rush, Felt the sidewalk, fell in line
But then, I felt a sudden push that sent me over the edge, I felt the wind rushing past me, I fell towards the pavement and hit the ground, finally falling in line with death and despair




Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: JOEL CADBURY, JAMES MCDONALD, BRETT SHAW, JAMES LAVELLE, RICHARD FILE

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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

@felipemota6114

I woke up to a feeling, it was cold by my side
You had gone with the sunrise, leaving tears in my eyes
I got up with a feeling of an emptiness inside
To the noise of the sidewalk and the silence of my mind
Well i walked out this morning, down a street with no name
To a club called "the loser", like a dog that's gone lame
Took the club elevator to the floor with a view
I took out life subscription, it's the only one they do
I stepped out on the guard rail, saw the crowds slowly part
Heard a voice shouting "don't jump, please for god's sake let me move my car!"
Felt a hand on my shoulder, heard a voice cry "just in time!"
Felt the quick push, felt the air rush
Felt the sidewalk, fell in line



@delta1404

I woke up to a feeling, it was cold by my side
You had gone with the sunrise, leaving tears in my eyes
I got up with a feeling of an emptiness inside
To the noise of the sidewalk and the silence of my mind

Well I walked out this morning, down a street with no name
To a club called "The Loser", like a dog that's gone lame
Took the club elevator to the floor with a view
I took out life subscription - it's the only one they do

I stepped out on the guard rail, saw the crowds slowly part
Heard a voice shouting "Don't jump, please for God's sake let me move my car!"
Felt a hand on my shoulder, heard a voice cry "Just in time!"
Felt the quick push, felt the air rush
Felt the sidewalk, fell in line



All comments from YouTube:

@germanshepherd5314

Was in the record shop today, this album came in. The owner asked if I had ever heard this song, said I never listened to Barclay James Harvest before and he played this song. I was floored.

He puts the album in the rack and ten minutes later I say, "going to needle drop the rest of the album". It was at that moment I said, "holy $hit, how did this group fly pass my radar?". Needless to say I purchased this (and after needle dropping the album Time Honoured Ghosts and a British import of their best of of early stuff) I purchased the lot.

Damn, how come I have not heard any of their music earlier in my 48 years of existence.

@eddybamyasi

I think Octoberon is their best album

@chris.pbacon1679

time honoured ghosts is in my top 10 bro at least you discovered it

@germanshepherd5314

@@chris.pbacon1679 I say to people all the time, "you don't wait for good music. Good music waits for you."

Since I posted this comment I have added two other albums to my collection.

@KaitoNiikura

My stepfather was listening to this, and since english isn't my native language, he translated it for me. Well, I was in elementary school at this time, but I could neve forget this amazing song

@merlinambrosius4398

Yes. It is one of a handful of songs that can, quite literally, floor you. ❤

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@raconteurtroubadour

My all time favourite track by this superb band. I’ve loved them for forty years. Was lucky enough to see John Lees Barclay James Harvest a couple of years ago, they did this one, I had tears streaming down my face, epic!!

@stephenwaters1242

Yeah it's a sad song, but so fantastic it doesn't make me sad, if that makes sense, one of the best from BJH, I am biased it's my favourite BJH album, a very underated band, who are never played on the radio, which I think is disgusting, but I don't care I love the band.

@johnnewson4640

Going back to Weeley in1971 playing at 3am with a 40 piece orchestra. Omg what a band, tragic how they weren't huge like the moodies. Won't happen i guess but how wonderful it would be for John and Les to get back together,and bring back the magic

@markwalker5723

Lucky, lucky...

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