Nightmare
Bayonet Lyrics

Is this oppression?
Questioning whether the feeling is a form of mental torture.

Or obsession?
Contemplating if the strong feeling towards something or someone is excessive.

With a life that I can't come to terms with?
Struggling to accept the reality of the current situation in life.

Is this karma?
Questioning if the current situation is caused by karma.

Or is it payback?
Questioning the reason for experiencing undesired situations.

All from some unknown resentment?
Wondering if the situation is caused by hidden bitter feelings from someone else.

Cause I just want to know myself.
Longing to have a deeper understanding of oneself.

Oh I just want to love myself.
Yearning to have self-love and acceptance.

Like an addict to a vein I want something to
Desiring something addictive to distract from negative feelings.

blind me from the emptiness and pain.
Wishing to escape the unbearable emptiness and pain felt within.

So what's the point to all this mess?
Questioning the reason for the chaotic situation.

{I} Want a face worth shaving,
Longing to have a presentable appearance to improve self-esteem.

{I} Want a soul worth saving.
Desiring to have a meaningful existence.

I keep an arms length
Maintaining an emotional distance.

distance from my lovers cause my father.
Refusing to get intimate in relationships due to past issues with father.

You know what he made me.
Referring to the impact of father's actions on identity and relationship dynamics.

I'll never be set free.
Feeling trapped and unable to escape the influence of the past.

And can you really tell me that
Asking if it's possible to truly know someone else's innermost feelings.

you know the person you lie in bed with?
Questioning the depth of intimacy in a relationship.

All their secrets when they feel pathetic?
Wondering if all secrets are revealed when one is vulnerable.

And it's our hope to feel that close
Believing that being emotionally close to someone is important.

I try and I don't!
Attempting to get close but failing to do so.

Everybody wants to believe
Acknowledge that everyone wants to have a sense of purpose.

that their life is really filled with meaning.
Thinking that life is meaningful.

When will I be free?
Hopelessness towards wanting to experience personal freedom.

I wish I could, wish I could say everything
Yearning to speak out honestly and openly.

that I feel without judging.
Wishing to express feelings without fear of judgment.

Who I was in my eyes
Reflecting on the past self-image.

cause then I just might disguise.
Wanting to hide true emotions to avoid vulnerability.

Speak with honesty, set my own heart free.
Advocating for honesty and vulnerability as a means of personal liberation.

Just like I said before
Reiterating a previous statement.

is it worth even keeping score?
Questioning the importance of keeping track of one's win or loss in life.

Cause everything that I ever did was a miss. (Take!)
Feeling that everything done in life is irrelevant.

I really wish that I was better than this.
Regretting not doing better in life.

I still want something that I probably won't get.
Longing for something unattainable.

It doesn't matter who you are at the start.
Stating that initial wealth and status does not matter in life.

It matters who you are when everything falls apart.
Suggesting that one's true identity is revealed during tough times.

I live my life like I'm going to hell.
Living life in a reckless manner.

So when I get there I won't feel like I fell.
Hoping to not feel regretful when the consequences come to surface.

From heights, through the lights.
Starting from a position of high status.

At least I'll know what just hit me.
Anticipating the negative consequences that will follow.

A simple point, a simple fact
Referring to the inevitability of death.

that I can't take my words with me.
Regret that one's words will be left behind when one dies.