On November 18th, 2017, Bazanji independently released his debut album titled "Mixed Feelings". The 10-track album debuted at #13 on iTunes Hip-Hop/Rap chart and has accumulated over 30 million streams. In 2018 he had his biggest breakthrough to date, with his single “Runnin'” receiving mass exposure, appearing on ESPN SportsCenter, College Football, NBA, Forza Horizon 4 and more. After a continuous release of singles, Bazanji returned in early 2020 with his second album titled "OUTLIER".
Bazanji remains an independent artist and has made it a priority to be in control of his work, as he handles all writing, mixing, mastering, and occasional production. He hopes to tell his story as a dual-career artist.
Hold On
Bazanji Lyrics
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Thinking that I'll lose it all
Know that I came so close
Thinking that I'm gonna fall
They say that the money really changed me
Say that I'm showing off
I say that I'm still the same
But deep down I know I'm wrong
When money not the topic of the convo
People always ask if I'm still paid
People never ask what's wrong though
Everybody thinking that I made it
But lately I been tryna just hold on
All of my happiness fading
My brain been feeling like a war zone
People believing in me
But I don't believe that I got it myself
Money and numbers is all that they see
But I don't see happiness coming with wealth
Everything's smooth when you look at the surface
Wish you could see what goes on in my mind
Battling demons, they hidden inside
They keeping me paranoid every night
Like
Everything ain't what it seems
Focused on the wrong things
I been tryna hold on
I been tryna hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on
Hold on to everything I got now
Praying I don't fall down
I been going all out
I could lose it all now
Hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on
I been tryna hold on
Feel like I'm losing touch
With everyone that really been with me
Dad called my phone at lunch
Told him that I was too busy
But really I just act that way
One day he gon' be locked in the grave
I'ma wish I can get the time back
Talk to him 'bout all the time he gave
Up just to make sure I'm good now
'Cause life ain't never gon' be easy
He worked his way to put food down
Made sure he always could feed me
And I just hang up the phone now
'Cause I'm too focused on the CD
I'm tryna turn my dream into real life
But that's the problem, I don't realize
I'm trapped inside of my own world
Forget about life and the meaning
I'm tryna get back all my old girls
My mom is who I should be seeing
'Cause everybody ain't always breathing
And sometimes it happens outta nowhere
I'm praying that my family don't go dead
But if they do, then I'll be on my own
Everything ain't what it seems
Focused on the wrong things
I been tryna hold on
I been tryna hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on
Hold on to everything I got now
Praying I don't fall down
I been going all out
I could lose it all now
Hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on
I been tryna hold on
In Bazanji's song "Hold On," the artist expresses his fear of losing his success and falling back into his old ways. He feels pressured by others who believe that money is the most important thing in life, causing him to doubt himself and his abilities. Although he appears to be doing well on the surface, the reality is that he is struggling with his inner demons, and he is afraid of losing the people who have supported him through his journey. This fear drives him to hold on to everything that he has gained regardless of his own happiness, leading him to forget the true meaning of life. Bazanji realizes that he needs to hold on to important things like family, love, and genuine connections to fulfill his life purpose.
The song talks about the challenges that come with success and helps listeners understand the importance of not losing sight of who they are. Bazanji talks about the importance of holding on to what is important in life, even if it means letting go of superficial things like money and fame. He urges listeners to slow down and appreciate the here and now by focusing on what makes them happy rather than what others believe is valuable.
Overall, Bazanji's "Hold On" is a reflective piece of music that speaks to those who are struggling with the pressures of success and want to hold on to important values like family, love, and self-fulfillment.
Line by Line Meaning
Doubting myself these days
I'm unsure of myself lately
Thinking that I'll lose it all
I'm afraid that everything I've worked for will be lost
Know that I came so close
I've come close to losing it all already
Thinking that I'm gonna fall
I'm worried that I'm going to fail
They say that the money really changed me
My friends and family think that success has made me a different person
Say that I'm showing off
They think I'm bragging about my success
I say that I'm still the same
I believe that I'm the same person despite my success
But deep down I know I'm wrong
I'm aware that I've changed despite my denial
Tryna go back to the old days
I'm trying to relive the past
When money not the topic of the convo
I miss the days when money wasn't the only thing people talked about
People always ask if I'm still paid
People are always asking if I'm still making money
People never ask what's wrong though
People don't ask about how I'm coping with my success
Everybody thinking that I made it
Everyone thinks I'm successful now
But lately I been tryna just hold on
Recently, I've been struggling to maintain my success
All of my happiness fading
I'm losing my happiness despite my success
My brain been feeling like a war zone
I'm constantly battling my own thoughts and feelings
People believing in me
My fans and supporters believe in me
But I don't believe that I got it myself
I'm having trouble believing in myself
Money and numbers is all that they see
Everyone is only focused on my financial success
But I don't see happiness coming with wealth
I realize that money doesn't equal happiness
Everything's smooth when you look at the surface
My appearance of success hides my struggles underneath
Wish you could see what goes on in my mind
I wish others could understand what I'm going through mentally
Battling demons, they hidden inside
I'm struggling with inner demons
They keeping me paranoid every night
My inner demons are causing me to feel paranoid
Like
Everything ain't what it seems
Appearances can be deceiving
Focused on the wrong things
I'm focusing on the wrong aspects of my success
I been tryna hold on
I'm struggling to keep everything together
Hold on, hold on, hold on
Hold on to everything I got now
I'm trying to hold onto my success and happiness
Praying I don't fall down
I'm scared of losing everything
I been going all out
I've been giving my all to maintain my success
I could lose it all now
I'm aware that I'm at risk of losing everything
Hold on
I need to hold on and keep trying
Feel like I'm losing touch
I feel disconnected from the people I care about
With everyone that really been with me
I'm losing touch with the people who have supported me from the beginning
Dad called my phone at lunch
My father called me during lunch
Told him that I was too busy
I told him I was too busy to talk
But really I just act that way
I'm pretending to be too busy to talk to him, when really I'm just avoiding the conversation
One day he gon' be locked in the grave
I'll regret not talking to him when he's gone
I'ma wish I can get the time back
I'll wish I could go back in time to talk to him
Talk to him 'bout all the time he gave
I should talk to him about all the sacrifices he made for me
Up just to make sure I'm good now
My father worked hard to provide for me so that I'm successful now
'Cause life ain't never gon' be easy
Life is always going to be hard
He worked his way to put food down
My father worked hard to provide for us
Made sure he always could feed me
My father made sure that I was always fed
And I just hang up the phone now
I just hang up on my father now
'Cause I'm too focused on the CD
I'm too focused on my career to give my father the attention he deserves
I'm tryna turn my dream into real life
I'm trying to make my dream a reality
But that's the problem, I don't realize
I'm unaware of the cost of my success
I'm trapped inside of my own world
I'm confined to my own thoughts and feelings
Forget about life and the meaning
I'm forgetting about the important things in life
I'm tryna get back all my old girls
I'm trying to rekindle past relationships
My mom is who I should be seeing
I should be spending time with my mother instead
'Cause everybody ain't always breathing
Not everyone is alive and breathing
And sometimes it happens outta nowhere
Death can happen suddenly
I'm praying that my family don't go dead
I'm afraid of losing my family members to death
But if they do, then I'll be on my own
If they die, I'll be alone
Contributed by Jayce T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.