Current members:
Caleb Shomo - Vocals (2012-present)
Zach Huston - Guitar (2018-present)
Oshie Bichar- Bass (2014-present) (ex-City Lights)
Will Deely - rhythm guitar (2021-present)
Connor Denis – drums, percussion (2016–present)
Former members:
Taylor Lumley - Guitar (2013-2018)
Nick Reed – bass, backing vocals (2013–14)
Brandon Mullins – drums, percussion (2013–16)
Kamron Bradbury – rhythm guitar (2014–2020)
Discography:
Sick EP (2013)
Disgusting (2014)
Aggressive (2016)
Disease (2018)
Below (2021)
The Surface (2023)
Label- Red Bull Records
Sick And Disgusting
Beartooth Lyrics
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Remember the time you said son it will be just fine
Well I'm waiting for the day that my mind says it's had enough
And I pray that day comes soon so I can finally feel loved
I just wanna feel loved
Remember the time I said god I'm ready to die
Remember the time that I cried every single night
And every thing about myself was out of spice
Sick joke, sick joke, that's all I'll ever be to anyone
Sick joke, sick joke, that's all you'll ever be to anyone
I'm nothing but sick and disgusting
I'm nothing but sick and disgusting
God I don't know if I'll ever be ready to die
God I'm too much of a coward to give you my life
And I know that I'm still gonna cry every single night
But if you want me I'm gonna stay here
and fight till you say son your heart is mine
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Daddy I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
The lyrics of Beartooth's song "Sick And Disgusting" reflect the struggles of person battling with mental health issues- depression, suicidal thoughts and self-loathing. The first verse is about the need for someone to reassure them that everything will eventually be okay, but they're still waiting for their mind to feel normal again. They are devoutly praying for the day they will finally feel loved. The line "I just wanna feel loved" is repeated throughout the song, emphasizing the desire of the person to feel a sense of belongingness and acceptance.
The second verse portrays the person's cry for help to God, where they feel the urge to end their life, and every aspect of themselves seems "out of spice". The following lines "Sick joke, sick joke, that's all I'll ever be to anyone/Sick joke, sick joke, that's all you'll ever be to anyone" refers to the ridicule and ignorance that people suffering from mental health are subjected to. The chorus "I'm nothing but sick and disgusting" implies the negative image the person has of themselves, as a result of their condition.
Towards the end of the song, the person admits their fear of dying and also their reluctance to give their life to God. They come to terms with the fact that they will still have bad times, but they will fight through it until they hear God say that their heart is His. In the final section, they address their father and repeatedly state that they do not want to be seen as "sick and disgusting". The song ends with the person seeking acceptance and validation from their family.
Line by Line Meaning
Remember the time you said son it'll be alright
Recalling a moment when someone said everything will be okay
Remember the time you said son it will be just fine
Recalling a moment when someone said everything will be okay
Well I'm waiting for the day that my mind says it's had enough
Hoping for relief from mental pain and distress
And I pray that day comes soon so I can finally feel loved
Longing to feel loved and accepted
I just wanna feel loved
Expressing a desire for love and affection
Remember the time I said god I'm ready to die
Recalling a moment of extreme hopelessness and despair
Remember the time I said god just take my life
Recalling a moment of extreme hopelessness and despair
Remember the time that I cried every single night
Recalling a period of emotional pain and suffering
And everything about myself was out of spice
Feeling uninteresting and inadequate
Sick joke, sick joke, that's all I'll ever be to anyone
Feeling like a disappointment and a burden to others
Sick joke, sick joke, that's all you'll ever be to anyone
Feeling like a disappointment and a burden to others
I'm nothing but sick and disgusting
Viewing oneself as worthless and unlovable
God I don't know if I'll ever be ready to die
Expressing fear and uncertainty about the future
God I'm too much of a coward to give you my life
Feeling afraid and powerless to change one's circumstances
And I know that I'm still gonna cry every single night
Expecting to continue experiencing emotional pain
But if you want me I'm gonna stay here and fight till you say son your heart is mine
Hoping to find purpose and meaning in life through perseverance and faith
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Expressing a desire to overcome feelings of worthlessness and insecurity
Daddy I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Expressing a desire to overcome feelings of worthlessness and insecurity
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Expressing a desire to overcome feelings of worthlessness and insecurity
Dad I don't wanna be sick and disgusting
Expressing a desire to overcome feelings of worthlessness and insecurity
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Written by: CALEB SHOMO
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Scates
I literally almost burst into tears when I heard "dad, I don't want to be sick and disgusting." I think this is the hardest I've ever been hit, emotionally, by a song.
booklover 0197
literally fucking same
Anouk Visschers
You could also listen to Jonestown tea- Otep
Swampy Wilkinson
awe poor muffin ;(
Joey van der Wiel
KORN - DADDY
YOUR FAIRLYLOCALLUCKYPOTATO
Scates that line bits me hard everytime.me and my dad have close bond but only if he knew what i wanted to scream.ive self harmed and my dad cried and this is where this line reminds me of that and Ik how u feel
J keach
It is emotional as well as refreshing to hear such a powerful song from this genre. I give Caleb many props for going in and recording this and putting it on the album. Straight from his head into yours. Powerful, true, untouched and piercing.
Francisco Gomez
@brian lavalley I know it may seem cheesy to you but this is exactly everything that goes on in your head when your life is falling apart. This song has gotten me through a lot.
Finn Gurrer
@brian lavalley He lives with it every day he's said. He pours his thoughts into his songs which makes them awesome but also tells people it might never go away but there's always a reason to keep living. Listen to more of their songs you can sense his true pain
doomsdei
brian lavalley
so people expressing emotion and pain is edgy now. got it man. whatever you say.